Note: My very first fanfic. Its not of any movie bur about Shahid Kapoor's real life. My take on whats been going on in his life. With his breakup and all the linkup stories. Also, I'm a die heart Shamrita (Shahid & Amrita) fan so this story will be all about them. I'll write something special for all the Sham fans. So stay tuned. :)

"In the Whirlwind of his Thoughts"

*Beep! Beep! Beep! Beep"

He stretched in his bed as his alarm went off. It was 6:00 in the morning. Another day at a shoot. Luckily it was the last day and then he'd finally have a little time to himself. He couldn't lie to himself, acting was his passion and he loved it more than anything. But it was just the fact that at times he needed some time. Away from the lights, just being who he was. And who he was really? At times the super star, the incredibly cute chocolate hero of Bollywood, Shahid Kapoor, found it hard to figure out his own self.

When he started out in this industry with his very first film "Ishq Vishk", he was so sure of who he was and what he wanted. He was sure of the things he wanted to achieve. He knew where he wanted his life to lead. And for years, it all went according to plan. Even after getting flops, he still had his head high up. Despite of everything, he was happy. A huge factor of his happiness was a certain someone, his girlfriend, Kareena. The actress herself was a beam of bliss to the newly found actor. He was much younger than her and a lot less experienced. But somehow she still accepted him. He couldn't have been happier. But its life. Just when you think you've got it all, things slip out of your hands. Kareena broke up with him. Or was it him doing it? He couldn't remember, he didn't remember why they started to fight so much towards the end of their relationship. Was it due to Kareena's insecurities? Or was it his own? Their trust issues played a very important role in their breakup. Even though he didn't remember the reasons, forgetting the pain completely was hard.

His thoughts continued as he was still in bed just thinking. It had been so many years. But something still triggered. He couldn't forget about it all. Mainly because there was a big secret that he was hiding. He had to hide, or else...her reputation would've ruined. The girl who he loved. The only girl he realized he'd ever love. The same girl who had nothing to do with his breakup and yet a lot to do. Unknowingly and unintentionally, that girl became a huge part of his life. Amrita, how he wished he could tell her the truth.

Flashback...

"Right! I'll see you then when you get back to Mumbai." Shahid spoke in a dull voice through the phone. Anyone who was around him listening to his conversation, could never have guessed that he was talking to his girlfriend..."Bye, Kareena. All the best for you photo-shoot." He stated and then hang up the phone. He sighed. He didn't have any idea what was up with him or with her? But lately, the happiness she gave him was missing.

"Shahid!" He heard his name and turned around to see her coming. She sat down next to him and continued..."we really need to rehearse our lines. Hindi might be our language but this script is just too complicated. And you know Sooraj ji..." She said between those adorable laughs...It was her, his co-star, Amrita Roa. They were on sets of their movie "Vivah" it had been a long journey and now they were coming to an end. This film meant so much to him. He got to know a lot about his own self. There was another realization that hit him. He was falling for her, the girl who played his "true love" on screen so many times. He was falling for her innocence. For the way she talked and everything that she was. But how could he? He had a girlfriend. That was the reason he forced himself to keep a distance from her. But no matter how hard he tried, he always failed at it. He was so lost in his thoughts that he didn't even realize her snapping her fingers in front of him...

"Shahid? Are you okay?" She placed a comforting hand on his shoulders. Her touch brought a smile to his face. "Yes, I'm fine, Amy." He assured her..."its just that, soon we'll be done with the shooting of Vivah. I just had a wonderful time working. I'll miss everybody." He paused and looked at her sincerely..."specially you."

He saw as his last line made her blush. Just the way her character Ponam blushed everytime Prem said something sweet to her...she was too cute to not be adored..."I'll miss you too, Shahid. I know that it won't be the same as working for this film, but we'll still meet. And we'll still talk, right?"

She asked as if she was unsure of the fact that if he'd agree to see her...he just passed a warm smile to her..."Right! We will still meet, Amrita."

Just then they both heard their director calling out for them to come. Amrita turned to him nervous...

"See? We didn't even get to practice our lines. Now the shot is ready."

Shahid couldn't help but laugh. When she was nervous about a scene, she looked adorable..."Relax, Amrita. We'll be just fine. You should eat almonds to help revive your memory." He joked and stood up..."Lets go!" He held out a hand for her to take and she did. They both walked towards the place where their scene was suppose to take place.

"Positions everyone, start sound, camera...and...ACTION!"

As they both heard their director's Que., they both took a deep breath to come into their characters. Shahid took Amrita's hand and escorted her towards the mirror. He leaned closer to her while looking in the mirror...

"No crash diets for you. 10-15 killo upar neechey hojaye, kuch farak nahi parta."
(No crash diets for you. It doesn't matter if you gain or lose 10-15 KGs of weight.)

It was now Amrita's turn. She laughed and turned around to face him. They both looked closely in eachother's eyes. Amrita while still having a bright smile on her face prepared herself to say her lines...

"Sehra saja ke, ghori charh ke jb tum aaoge, tou jaante ho kya hoga?"
(Do you know what will happen when you'll come by on a horse, wearing a turban?)

Amrita asked as her character Ponam to Prem. Shahid pulled her a little closer and asked with the same amount of love...

"Kya?"
(What?)

It was again Amrita's turn to say her lines...

"Humare muhaley k kai gharon me chuhloon pe rotiyan jal jayen gin."
(There will be burnt food on stoves of many houses in our neighbourhood.)

Shahid giving a small laugh, asked...

"kyun?"
(Why?)

While still held in his arms, Amrita said her lines again...

"sub hi larkiyan dulhe ko dekhne chahtoon pr jo ajayen gin."
(Because all the girls will come to the roof top of their houses to get a glimpse of the groom.)

They both laughed lightly and Shahid put their foreheads together. He was suppose to look at her with immense love and pure feelings, it somehow didn't feel like a very hard job. With little effort, he looked at her and it was like the expressions in his eyes came naturally.

It was a different scene then before they had to film the continued scene. As soon as the other one was over, their scene was taken from the top. It was now Shahid's lines. Amrita was standing at a distance...Shahid held her hand and pulled her closer to him.

"Ponam. Jee tou karta hai tumhe jane na dun, Delhi ghumaon, sub jaga dikhaun. Lekin hum intizar karen gey. Tumhe bhi tou yehi sahi lage ga na? Or dekha jaye tou yeh sahi bhi tou kitna hai. Us raat jb pehli bar tum is kamray me meri dulhan bun k aaogi, woh raat itni sahi hogi ke wahan se dekhte chaand sitaare humare milan k gawah bunen ge..." Shahid moved a little backward to gesture towards the moon and stars before holding on to Amrita once again..."or humare baad Vivah karne wale har jorey ko humari misalen den gey. Us raat is kamray me roshni nahi, srif chaandni barse gi. Is dunya ki subse khoobsoorat larki, jo tb tk srif meri ho chuki hogi."
(Ponam. I don't feel like letting you go. I want to show you around Delhi. But we will wait. Because you'll also find it right. Its actually so right if you look at it. That night, when you'll come in this room for the very first time as my bride, that night will be so right, so pure that the moon and starts will become witnesses of our marriage and unison. And they will give our example to every couple that'll get married after us. That night, this room will be filled with moonlight. By then, the world's most beautiful girl would have become mine forever.)

Amrita's character Ponam threw herself in his arms. Shahid carefully wrapped his arms around her and lightly whispered in her ears...

"Kya yeh such hai, Ponam ke tum hamesha mere dil k itne paas raho gi?"
(Is it true, Ponam that you'll always stay this close to my heart?)

He asked and Amrita nodded in his shoulders. Shahid then proceeded towards the last lines of the scene...

"Or yeh bhi k me woh khush naseeb hun jisey tum apne din, apni raaten saunpo gi."
(And that I'm the lucky one to whom you'll give your days and your nights?)

"AND CUT!" They both broke apart of their embrace as they heard their director shout.

Present...

The memory had brought a smile on his face. He had the greatest time shooting Vivah. Though he always had an amazing time in shootings, but Vivah was somehow very special to him. It was the movie that lead up to many things. His biggest hit "Jub We Met" too came because of it he felt. He was about to get out of bed when suddenly he felt his phone vibrating. He picked it up and saw it was a text from none other than Amrita. He opened it...

"Good luck, Shahid. I hope your last day at shoot goes well. :)"

Her ever so simple words always managed to make him smile. He responded back with "Thanks". He knew that his to the point responses must be a pain for her because she always put in extra effort to talk to him. But he couldn't return the same amount of sweetness to her. He had to hold back his feelings. He had to lie to her, to himself and to everybody else. Because for him, the respect of the girl he loved meant everything.

He still remembered it. The day it all happened. The day his life was thrown upside down. The day his fate was re-written and got somehow sealed. He remembered it like it happened just yesterday.

The young heart throb, loyal, innocent, good mama's boy Shahid Kapoor...life had some strange things planned out for him...

To be continued...

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P.S Shamrita is the CUTEST couple EVER.