This was his fault, if only he hadn't of been so trusting. If it weren't for him Cecil wouldn't be hurt. Maybe he should have left with Diego, then none of this would have happened. Now his perfect double was marred, unable to see from his eye. How could he be so stupid? He was always causing trouble, even when the chip was working and he didn't realize what he was doing was wrong. He shouldn't have talked about him so much.. If he hadn't become so obsessed with his double he would have never been in danger. He would still be in Desert Bluffs, painfully ignorant of the things going on around him, of the injustices Strex had committed. He could have saved everyone the pain they were in now… Kevin would never have known what it was like to feel pain if he had just left well enough alone. How could he have been so selfish? If he had left the man alone he would never have felt anything. He would have been in his state of false bliss and he could have stayed blind to feeling loved and accepted. Why were there so many negative emotions? It seems that was all he was feeling lately. Now even Carlos was upset with him, he had told him it wasn't his fault but there had been blame in those eyes as they looked at him. Even while he had been reassuring Kevin that everything would be fine and no one was angry with him, there was something there that made it hard for Kevin to believe his words were true. He could feel tears prickling his eyes again as he looked down at his double's unconscious form on the bed. He took one of his hands squeezing it, "I'm so sorry," His voice was barely a whisper, "I should have been better, it should have been me." He could never forgive himself, Cecil would be better off without him. He would leave as soon as his double was better. It would be best for everyone.HH