Sufficiently awkward – Chapter One
Commander John Shepard had been lying awake for several hours now, mind filled with sleep preventing thoughts. Two weeks to the day that he and the rest of his team had defeated the collectors and saved humanity and the universe ... for the time being, but oddly this has been the first night since the event that his thoughts weren't of the poor souls processed , of the crew stolen from the Normandy. No. His mind was focussed on Miranda Lawson, specifically he and Miranda Lawson, even more specific to that, what happened between his self and his second in command on the journey to the Omega 4 mass relay. That had been 14 days and 7 hours ago and they had not spoken about it or even came close to a repeat. Actually their relationship had returned to just a friendly word or two between missions, well as friendly as an all business type woman like Miranda can be. That wasn't a bad thing and Shepard couldn't honestly say he didn't expect the brush off from her but the problem was he was still very interested in pursuing a more 'personal' relationship with the operative. Had it been too long since their brief time in the engine room to do anything about it now? was it just purely out of fear for her? A 'I don't want to die without screwing a commander 'type situation. Maybe he should talk to her about it? " NO!" Shepard thought to him self , "If I was just stress relief to Miranda then there isn't any point, and if it was more than that then.." He sat up out of his bed for the 5th time in 10 minutes, "Maybe I should talk to her about it?" He lay back down. " No if she was really interested in me then.."
"He'd of spoken to me about it by now, if he wants me he can make the effort !" Miranda Lawson sat still in front of her computer , although she hadn't actually done any work for a good hour or so, she was too busy envisioning that idiotic man she just couldn't get out of her head. Maybe it was for the best that their relationship that lasted all of 1 and a half hours had ended. Watching Commander Shepard take out those insect bastards was thrilling and at the very least , incredibly impressive , but terrifying , there were a lot of moments she thought she had lost him and she didn't even love him if their relationship progressed any further and she ended up falling for him just to see get torn apart by the reapers or agents of, she couldn't take it .
"Yeah, it's for the best" Shepard , saddened at this thought closed his eyes and attempted to get at least some amount of sleep before he had to be up for emergency drills with the crew in the morning.