First chapter!Took me a while...But! Here is my first ever fanfic! I put a lot into this, and I hope you like it! It took up about 15 pages front and back in my journal!

Roxas grabbed his books as he left the school, hoping that it still wasn't raining outside, since he had to walk home. He stepped outside. It wasn't raining, but the air was moist, and the ground was muddy, making him feel sick almost.

"Better than rain", he thought, and with a heavy sigh, he started walking home. Unlike the other kids at his private school, who rode their limousines to and from school, he didn't like bothering his chauffeur, and walked instead, his house only being five minutes away. He figured that his older sister, Namine, wasn't home yet, since she had work, which was odd since their family was rich. He already knew that his parents weren't home, they had abandoned him and his sister when he was nine, and left no trace of themselves. A year after that, they had both heard on the news that their parents died from drug overdose. Roxas wiped away a tear as he opened the front door.

He rushed upstairs to his room, and dropped his bags on the floor. He went into his bathroom, and turned on the shower, turning up the heat to the highest. He stripped himself down, and got in. He stood there, letting each fiery drop of water hit his skin. He winced at how much the water burned, but got used to it after a while. He sighed in relief, enjoying the moment. Crystals of water vapor floated gracefully around him, and kissed his milk white skin, that was pink from heat, decorating it with bead like diamonds.

"I wish that everything could be as soothing as this.", he thought smiling. He washed out his hair, then cleaned his body. He stepped out of the shower. " Too bad it can't last forever.", he sighed, looking at the red blur of his body in the fogged mirror. He grabbed a towel, and wrapped it around his waist, then walked into his large walk-in closet, only to find Namine folding his underwear.

"Hey!", Roxas shouted, blushing."What are you doing in my room?! Folding my underwear? We do have maids, you know.". She looked back at him innocently." Your welcome.",she said, folding the last pair, and putting it in his drawer, then walking out of the room.

"What a weirdo.", he thought, rolling his eyes. He knew she meant well though. He opened his drawer, then grabbed a fresh of underwear, and his favorite footie-pajamas. He smiled as he felt the soft fabric of his footies slide over his skin as he put them on. Remembering who had got them for him, he sighed, but not happily. He had gotten them from his cousin Ventus, before he confessed his feelings to Roxas. Roxas was straight, and although he loved his cousin, it was not that type of love. But, to make his cousin happy, he went out with him, and it ended when Roxas was on the edge of suicide.

Roxas looked down at his pale wrists, and frowned. There were light pink scars from when he cut himself out of depression, confusion, and anger. When he went out with Ventus, he didn't want to feel a certain way about his cousin. His plan was to go out with him, and after a while, hopefully, Ventus would come to his senses, and call it off. But that was not how it had went at all. Ever since his first kiss with Ven, he felt very lustrous, and allowed Ven to go further into the relationship. When he wasn't with Ven, he would be in his room, scolding, and cutting himself. Ven had never seen the scars, (Roxas hid them well) but he did notice depression, and a bit of anger in his lover. One day, he had walked into Roxas' room unexpectedly, only to find Roxas sobbing on the floor, bleeding, with a bloody knife beside him. That was when Ven had finally cut it off. Roxas had never meant for it to be that way, but it had happened.

"Can't do anything about it now.", he thought, getting out of his room, and heading downstairs for dinner. He sat down at the table, and unsurprisingly, Namine was out of the house, back at the club. He sighed, and ate by himself. Although Namine seemed like a person who would never commit a sin, she had committed countless sins. She was a stripper, she drank, she smoked, and every other night she was at someone's house, doing god knows what. But Roxas never judged her for it. He knew that deep down, she was a gentle, kind person. When he was finished eating, the fourteen year-old headed back to his room, flopped on his bed, and stared at the ceiling. Unlike other kids his age who would go outside and play with their friends, he didn't have any. He sat up, then looked out the window, and noticed that the stars shined brighter than normal.

"How beautiful.", he whispered, smiling, and hugging his knees, the starlight reflecting off of his frosty blue eyes. He cocked his head to the side "They seem brighter than normal...", he thought, in awe of the mysterious beauty of it.

"I GOT IT! I GOT IT YOU GUYS!I GOT IT!", Sora shouted excitedly, his mouth bleeding, as he waved his last baby tooth high and proud in the air, smiling more than ever.

"You got what?", Sora's twin brother, Vanitas asked, poking his head into the bathroom to see what was going on. Vanitas jumped back when he saw the blood on Sora's face."Eww, Sora, wash off all that blood!", he whined.

"I lost my tooth! ", Sora squealed.

"The last one?"

"YES!", Sora squealed again, holding out the bloody tooth to his brother, so he could see it. Vanitas stuck out his toungue in disgust. "Cool.",he said sarcastiacally. He gave Sora a disgusted look as a drop of blood leaked onto Sora's shirt.

"Okay...", Vanitas said, walking back to his room.

"Mom! Steve!", Sora called out to his mother and step-father, walking down the stairs.(he also lived in a mansion)He didn't mind having a step-father, it beat not having a father at all. When he was six, his dad got called back out to the army, but got murdered by one of his friends. The only things Sora had left of his father was his dog tags, and he wore them wherever he went. Two years later, his mom got re-married to Steve.

"I got it!", he yelled a she ran into the kitchen. His parents jumped back when they saw the blood on his face.

"Sora, wash off that blood, PLEASE!", his mother exclaimed, covering her mouth with her hands.

"Fine, fine, I'll wash it off...", he muttered, placing the tooth on the counter. He splashed water on his face, and rinsed out his moth, wincing as the water stung at his opened gums, then spit out the faded red water in the sink.

"You lost your tooth?", Steve asked, examining the tooth.

"Yup!", Sora replied enthusiastically.

"The last one?", his mom asked.

"Mm-Hmn!"

"My big baby boy!", she exclaimed, hugging her son tightly. Even though Sora and Vanitas were both 15(But Sora was older by 7 minutes), their mom still treated them like babies.

"Mooooom...", Sora whined, slipping out of her tight embrace. " I'm not a baby anymore, I lost all of my baby teeth."

"Oh,", his mom pouted," Then my little man!", she exclaimed. Sora sheepishly smiled at this.

"Sora, sweetie?", his mom asked.

"Yes?"

"Can you go get your brother? Dinner's ready."

"Ooh, what are we having?", he asked, licking his lips, hoping that Steve made mom's food was horrible.

"Well, Steve made burgers just not too long ago."

"YES!", Sora shouted, then ran upstairs to his younger twins' room. He loved Steve's cooking more than his mother's.

"Vani!", Sora shouted, banging his fist on Vanitas' door. "Time for dinner!". When he got no response, "Steve made dinner.". Vanitas quickly opened the door, and stepped out of his room, his amber eyes gleaming. Compared to the rest of the family, Vanitas was different. He and their dad were the only ones who had golden eyes, and raven black hair. Everyone thought that he looked odd, having golden eyes and all. Sora thought it was cool, and if anyone wanted to bother his brother about it, they'd have to go through him first.(Although, Sora was weaker than his brother.)

"Wanna race?", Vanitas asked, letting a lock of his dark hair fall over his eyes slightly, snapping Sora out of his thoughts.

"Yea!"

Both boys got into starting position at the top of the stairs.

"Ready," both boys said.

"GOOO!", Vanitas hollered, running down the stairs.

"Hey!" Sora whined, chasing after his younger brother. They were halfway to the table, with Vanitas in the lead, who was looking a bit tired. Sora smiled deviously. He was on the soccer team at his old school, and he could handle running long distances if he had to.

"SUCK IT LOSER!", he yelled, darting past his brother, and plopping into a chair. Vanitas walked the rest of the way, panting, then fell into a chair. "Ha!", Sora said, sticking out his tongue."Cheaters never win!"

After saying their prayer, the Sky family happily ate their juicy burgers.(The Sky family is Sora's original family name, before his mom got re-married, btw)

"So, you excited to go to your new school tomorrow, Sora?', Steve asked. Sora was going to a private school for the first time, without his brother.

" Yea.", Sora replied after swallowing. His mom knew why Sora wanted to go to a new school. His old boyfriend, Riku, had dumped him, and went out with their good friend mom smiled at him sweetly.

After dinner, Sora took a shower, got into his pj's, (An oversized white t-shirt, with red basketball shorts.)and looked out the window, at the blinding stars that glistened over the not so distant beach. A tear came to Sora's eye. That's where he and Riku used to go. He shook his head, trying to get those dead thoughts out of his mind then looked back up at the stars. He cocked his head to the side

"How beautiful", he whispered, smiling. " They seem brighter than normal...", he thought, in awe of the mysterious beauty of it.