Maura Isles was always a socially anxious person; there was no debating that fact. She sat quietly in the corner table at Boston Joes, sipping on her coffee, checking her phone every ten seconds to distract herself from how uncomfortable she was sitting alone in such a crowded place. Jane was always late, she didn't know why she ever bothered showing up on time.
"Sorry." Jane said with an apologetic smile as she snapped Maura out of her thoughts. She smiled up at the other woman, gesturing for her to take a seat. "Okay." She breathed, looking Maura straight in the eye. "What's up?" Maura was more than vague when she invited the detective out to coffee this morning.
"Oh." Maura scrambled, realising that she had merely wanted to spend time with the detective. "Nothing." She smiled, making Jane raise an eyebrow in wonder. They spent the following hours chatting about anything and everything. This is why Maura loved Jane so much; She never felt anxious or shy with her. She knew she was loved and protected in return. Jane had proved more than once that she was willing to do anything for her best friend, and the feeling was more than mutual. Maura watched her talk, the way her dimple pushed through her cheek when she smiled, the way her curly black hair bounced around whenever she moved her head. She was beautiful, there was no denying it. Maura had always known she was attractive to men; yet she found herself wondering what Janes opinion of her appearance was.
"How's Casey?" She regretted asking the second the words left her mouth. Janes lips pulled up at the sides, looking down into her coffee shyly. Her smile slowly started to fade away, and she still wouldn't make eye contact with her best friend. As well as Jane knew Maura, Maura was an expert at reading people; even Jane Rizzoli.
"I think I'm pregnant." The words hit Maura like a ton of bricks. She started to feel premature ventricular contractions constrict her chest, her palms started to sweat and she began to feel an unknown feeling in the bottom of her stomach. Jealousy? "Come home with me so I can take a test." Maura sighed. She hadn't even taken a pregnancy test yet. There was no way this was happening.
Janes house.
"Nope." Jane said loudly, grabbing a beer out of the fridge and dropping herself onto the sofa beside her best friend.
"Nope?" Maura asked, taking the beer bottle off her, making Jane smile at the sound. It was always weird hearing such mundane words come from such an educated woman who is usually correcting my grammar. "Jane, it's going to be fine. You love Casey-" Mauras eyes darted to the ground as she spoke, making Jane frown slightly. What was that? "-and we both know he loves you. It will be okay either way." Her words did nothing to calm the nerves in Janes stomach. This was a huge, life changing thing that was about to happen.
She did love Casey. But did she love him enough to quit her job and spend her life being a mommy for him? She didn't know. On the upside, Ma would be so happy. I know she worries it'll never happen for me. And until now, I've never even truly thought about having a family. I love my job, and I love my life. I don't know if I want to bring another person into that equation. Okay Jane, stop. This may all be completely moot. Relax.
"Come on." Jane groaned, grabbing Mauras hand and the pregnant test that was staring at her from the coffee table. They went into the bedroom and Maura leaned on the edge of the ensuite door, waiting for news that would change both their lives.
"Is that why you haven't been drinking coffee?" Maura quizzed Jane as she took the test. She felt so stupid. She had been praising Jane all week on the fact she had abstained from coffee. Not once had it occurred to her it was because she was pregnant. What's going to happen if she is pregnant? Is she going to quit her job? When will I ever get to see her? Maura felt an anxiety attack start to build in her chest. She made her way to the bed, taking deep calming breaths to relax. The next ten minutes felt like a life time. Finally the bathroom door opened and Jane walked toward her, sitting down on the bed beside her best friend, test in her hands, her face blank. Without asking, Maura reached for the test, taking a deep breath before she looked at the result.
"Oh my god."