The Future
By: allie.
Summary: After the fact.
Spoilers: AYNOHYEB
Over, that word rang through her mind so much. It just seemed so final. How many times has she told herself that she would not get attached? How many times did she think that hers was a one sided love?
She always knew that he would go back to his wife. The mistress, the friend, the lover, whoever she was, were the ones who were always getting hurt. They were the ones who were always getting their hearts broken.
Her mother had always told her never to get involved with a married man. But that did not stop her. How many hours can you truly spend with a person and then try to ignore the attraction between the two of you? How many times are you going to tell yourself that your increased heartbeat had nothing to do with that look that he just gave you? How many times are you going to lie to yourself?
All the hours that you both spent lying to your friends, his family, yourselves, how are you ever going to be able to do anything without thinking about how it all began, how it all used to be, and how great life once was? Is anything ever going to be the same? The next time you catch his eye is your heartbeat going to increase? Are your eyes going to flutter closed with the memories about what that look really means, when you both are alone, and what it does to you? Are you ever going to be the same again, or are you going to forever live in the past while you are missing the future?