This is Not Nostalgia...
This small park has me thinking back,
To the time when I was young.
It has me wondering if I should cut them some slack,
Despite the things they have done.
All around me I can hear,
Toddlers shrieking in joy,
It makes me wonder why I'm here,
As if I were a young boy.
The sight of children out to play,
Has me smiling fondly inside,
And I resist the urge to look away,
As I push the memories aside...
But suddenly they'reflooding back,
Filling my body with dread,
My fists clench tight and I close my eyes,
Shutting out the oldfearofdeath.
A sharp pain spikes my head,
And I whirl around ready to fight,
But there is no-one there, no one who cares,
Just a small reminder that I survived.
I clutch my wand tight as I remember the nights,
Of that painful and cruel house.
It was so lonely,under the stairs,
My only friend was a mouse.
I bite my lip as I remember the pain,
The agonising, excruciating pain.
The feel of that belt againstmy back,
Felt far worse than a cane...
People say theyhate being left alone,
But those hours were the best of my days,
Free from the horrible yells and the threats,
It's when I could kid myself that I was ok...
I suppose one day, when I was a little older,
I decided I couldn't let myself be hurt by others...
So I grabbed my razor with shaking hands,
You can guess what happened next.
Now I'm here rubbing my wrists,
With scars that my never fade,
It makes me wonder if I can ever move on,
If I can ever get over those days.
But despite my worry, despite my confusion, but there is one thing I am sure of.
Because as I look round this park with families full of joy, I am certain of this...
No matter what it may seem - this is NOT Nostalgia.
A/N: Hey again :)) so this is just a little one shot, and I don't plan on continuing with this any more than I already have. You can probably tell that poetry isn't my strong point, but I felt bad for not writing for you guys in so long! I am aware this is quite unsettling and depressing, but I've been going through a rough patch the last few weeks and just wanted to write. Reviews definitely appreciated! What should I write about next? Xx