Drunk on your beauty chapter/part 1:
It was always pale pretty boys who caught the attention. The attention of those who aimed to harm, those who wanted to see the blood shed from a fragile pale doll faced boy. Because it's all fun and games when it's a boy, right? He's stronger and can get back up from the constant abuse, or at least that's what he had always been told. No matter what kind of torture awaited him in the brick building where he would claim his education he was told that it would be OK. But he's six feet under now because of his own hands. He's six feet under singing "If only you could see me now, ma."
Liam learned quickly that in times of abuse, being fast could give you very much an upper hand. He learned that even though you're told not to run, not to tell while his harsh whiskey breath is hot on your face. So he ran. Liam always ran to one spot, a little hidden place on the beach close to his broken home. Things were fine when Cas was alive. Things were okay when Cas wasn't hanging from a rafter. His heart still beat when He didn't have a suicide letter written to him collecting dust on his bedside table. Liam learned the hard way that having emotions got you hurt. By the time he had turned 16 he no longer felt the things his father spat at him. He didn't feel the pain when he went to sit with his mom and Cas at the graveyard. And he especially didn't love again.
He never wanted to let someone in like Cas again. He wanted to hold his China doll boy in his heart until his heart gave out from it. There would never be anyone on the rotting planet that would replace what Cas was to Liam, and he was okay with that. He was perfectly fucking fine with letting Cas and his heart decompose together. Then they would just have more in common.
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A/N: I am very aware that I should be writing more of the fic I already have started but I enjoy vent writing and apparently about sad boys and dead people. There is a less than 50 percent chance that I'm going to write more of this. Because this is a vent story. So maybe one chapter a month? Or maybe a different story every month but still in the DOYB universe? Eh. Maybe I'll write something better for these characters.
Liam and Cas are my own two characters blah blah blah whatever.
