Walking with Shigure
One evening.
A pleasant enough conversation.
We come across a tent
Accidentally,
And in it
Is a girl.
Tohru.
It takes many months to realize
That she is the Light.
The only thing
Unafraid
To stand out
Against the darkness.
Akito.
She isn't afraid of him.
After Kisa,
Rin,
Hatori,
Kyo,
Kureno,
And me,
I would be.
On the outside,
She appears so frail,
Like she would
Shatter
Into a million pieces
If I went to hold her hand.
But her soul
Is stronger
Than any of ours.
When Kyo transformed,
Tohru
Ran after him.
She forgot herself
And made sure that he was okay.
When Kisa didn't speak,
Tohru
Looked after her.
She was kind
And never let Kisa stay
Depressed.
But when Tohru left,
So did the light,
And everything was dark,
Even for those few days.
Without her shining on us,
We went into a state of
Depression
And didn't come out
Until Tohru was home.
I never had a mother
Who would comfort
Me
And tell me
That everything
Was going to be
Okay.
But I think
That one day,
I might be okay
Because Tohru
Came into my life.
But also, I'm afraid.
Akito
Would never stand for this
If he knew.
If the secret gets out,
The light may be
Extinguished
Forever.
It may seem selfish,
But I want the light.
I want to feel
How she makes me feel,
Like everything is okay,
And I can loosen my guard.
Like I have a mother
For the first time
In my life,
A real mother,
Who would never
Sell me to Akito
So that she could live out her days
In luxury.
Tohru has such a pure heart
And she always thinks of others.
But, that is part
Of why I worry about her.
After vacation,
When she and Akito met,
Tohru was different
For weeks after.
Her pure soul
Was injured by
The corruption.
The Zodiac animals
Can remain indifferent.
We've been taught to
By years of living near God.
But who is God?
God is the man
Who beats up young girls
And won't let anyone
Fall in love.
God is the man
With the troubled childhood
Who kept me in a room
Where he punished me
For his problems.
God is the man
Who I love
Beyond all else.
Because all of the Zodiac do.
But we want to run away
Because
God won't let us
Be happy.
God is the reason
Why the curse must be broken.
Akito must never be asked,
He must never deduce
Anything
Of our plans.
But the scar on Rin's Back,
Kisa's speaking problem,
Hatori's eye,
And my problems
Are all his fault.
So, to become normal,
We have to abolish our ties
With the man we love
And hate
To such extremes
That there is no word for the emotions.
