Walking with Shigure

One evening.

A pleasant enough conversation.

We come across a tent

Accidentally,

And in it

Is a girl.

Tohru.

It takes many months to realize

That she is the Light.

The only thing

Unafraid

To stand out

Against the darkness.

Akito.

She isn't afraid of him.

After Kisa,

Rin,

Hatori,

Kyo,

Kureno,

And me,

I would be.

On the outside,

She appears so frail,

Like she would

Shatter

Into a million pieces

If I went to hold her hand.

But her soul

Is stronger

Than any of ours.

When Kyo transformed,

Tohru

Ran after him.

She forgot herself

And made sure that he was okay.

When Kisa didn't speak,

Tohru

Looked after her.

She was kind

And never let Kisa stay

Depressed.

But when Tohru left,

So did the light,

And everything was dark,

Even for those few days.

Without her shining on us,

We went into a state of

Depression

And didn't come out

Until Tohru was home.

I never had a mother

Who would comfort

Me

And tell me

That everything

Was going to be

Okay.

But I think

That one day,

I might be okay

Because Tohru

Came into my life.

But also, I'm afraid.

Akito

Would never stand for this

If he knew.

If the secret gets out,

The light may be

Extinguished

Forever.

It may seem selfish,

But I want the light.

I want to feel

How she makes me feel,

Like everything is okay,

And I can loosen my guard.

Like I have a mother

For the first time

In my life,

A real mother,

Who would never

Sell me to Akito

So that she could live out her days

In luxury.

Tohru has such a pure heart

And she always thinks of others.

But, that is part

Of why I worry about her.

After vacation,

When she and Akito met,

Tohru was different

For weeks after.

Her pure soul

Was injured by

The corruption.

The Zodiac animals

Can remain indifferent.

We've been taught to

By years of living near God.

But who is God?

God is the man

Who beats up young girls

And won't let anyone

Fall in love.

God is the man

With the troubled childhood

Who kept me in a room

Where he punished me

For his problems.

God is the man

Who I love

Beyond all else.

Because all of the Zodiac do.

But we want to run away

Because

God won't let us

Be happy.

God is the reason

Why the curse must be broken.

Akito must never be asked,

He must never deduce

Anything

Of our plans.

But the scar on Rin's Back,

Kisa's speaking problem,

Hatori's eye,

And my problems

Are all his fault.

So, to become normal,

We have to abolish our ties

With the man we love

And hate

To such extremes

That there is no word for the emotions.