2am

But you see you don't know what it's like

To wake up in the middle of the night

Gasping and choking for breath

And crying your heart and soul out

Only there's a twist

The tears don't come from the eyes

They come from the wrist

The red rivers telling me to cave in

The beautiful colour sharp

Against the grey world

And I've never felt so alone

So rusted out

Trying to be my old self again

Only I'm still trying to find it

But I'm giving up

Falling into a trap of constant despair

And I've heard it said

That "freedom is a state of mind"

Only my mind is a prison

And I'm trapped behind black bars

Maybe this is the storm before the calm

Maybe soon I'll be able to close my eyes

Forever.