Chapter one- decision
Summary- (I know, not a creative title, please reads anyway, it might be good, I wouldn't know because I wrote it) what if Bella chose Jacob? Could Edward really just let her go? Would he even need to fight for her back? Would it work out between Bella and Jacob? Would Bella and Edward still be friends? Takes place during Eclipse after the fight. Bella doesn't tell Jacob good by when she went to see him. She made her decision after she got home, when she was in bed. Starts with Bella in her bed trying to sleep. (Sorry I'm really bad at summaries.)
disclamer- stephanie myer owns it all, i'm not that amazing.
Bella's pov
I had made the most painful decision of my life. I loved them both with every fiber of my being but I knew that Jacob was slightly better for me. If only I didn't have to decide just yet, if only I never had to choose. But that would be selfish and I couldn't hurt ether of them any more. They both deserve better than me.
I had fought with myself for hours, listed all the pros and cons.
I knew that living without Edward would be hard, painful, at first, but I had done it once before and Jacob overshadowed that pain. Jacob, it was hard to admit, could give ma a little bit more than Edward.
All night I cried, how would I tell Edward, how bad will it be? How hard would it be to tell him I loved Jacob more? What would he do?
I didn't sleep at all that night and in the morning I got up and decided to tell Edward first, he deserves to be the first to know.
As I walked down the stairs the phone rang. Slowly, I walked over and picked it up.
"Hi, Bella? It's me Alice." Her voice sounded concerned as she continued. " I had a vision of you telling Edward. If it makes it any easier do you want me to tell him for you?" it was tempting to say yes but that wouldn't be right for Edward, I would have to be the one to tell him myself. "No, Alice, thank you though." I replied in a dull voice.
Hanging up the phone I opened the fridge and grabbed a water bottle, seeing as I was too upset to eat, and then went to gab my jacket. I could feel the numbness take over my body and I let it, actually I was thankful for it.
I could feel the return of the zombie days and that brought on a wave of pain the numbness couldn't deflect. The whole way toward Edward's house I fought with the tears that threatened to overcome me.
I knew I was going to break Edward's heart and that was the worst part. I knew I would have to see the pain in his eyes that he wouldn't be able to conceal with the blank, masked expression that he had when he was trying to hide painful emotions from me.
As I approached the break in the trees I slowed, almost to a stop. I didn't want to do this. I didn't want to break Edward's heart. But I had to tell him I couldn't be with him. I crept down the long driveway to his house.
Every second seemed to go by in exaggerated slow motion. Like I was stuck in this painful point in time, doomed forever to live in the painful truth of what I was about to do. It was so hard to do this to Edward but I couldn't have it both ways. I had to give up one or the other.
I parked my truck behind his Volvo. As I cut the engine I noticed a movement in my peripheral vision and turned gasping as Alice opened the door and hugged me so tight that it was imposable to get free.
"I tried to hade my thoughts the best I could but I think he suspects that some thing is wrong." She whispered so softly I could just barely make out what she was saying. "I'm so sorry you have to do this." She said louder than before. "We don't hate you. Promise me we can still be friends. Promise me you'll still be friends with Edward." She begged in my ear. "I'll try" was all I could manage.
She released me and we turned to the house where I saw Edward standing in the doorway with a confused and pained expression.
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