I lay motionless on my bed wanting to wake from the nightmare that is my life. Everyday feels more and more unbearable knowing she is gone - Prim is gone. All I ever wanted to do was to protect her from getting hurt; I risked my life for her but it still wasn't enough to save her life. I find myself staring at a small container with nightlock pills inside of it on my bedside table, all I have to do is take one pill and my pain will be gone and I'll be free of despair.

As I prop myself up on one elbow, I grab the container and place a single nightlock pill in the middle of my palm. I feel so prepared to take my own life it but something is stopping me- It's Peeta. I know Peeta would be in my position now if I ever died and I'd be selfish to do this to him. I'd never forgive myself for this because I'm the closest thing he has to family now. I hear someone knocking loudly on the door so I drag myself out of bed, not even bothering to look in the mirror to see the state that I'm in. I quickly rush downstairs and open the door to see who has been knocking on it impatiently.

"Hi Katniss." Greets Peeta. He looks so put together and healthy; it almost looks like he hasn't been through what he has in the past few years.

"Hi." I mumble under my breath

"I'm worried about you. I haven't seen you leave your house in weeks." Says Peeta in a concerned voice.

"That's because I haven't!" I yell a little too loudly. I can tell he was hurt by the look in his face.

"Look, I'm sor-"

"Don't be sorry Katniss. I understand. I know what it feels like to lose someone who you loved more than anything; I just can't stand to see you like this. Please just let me help you." Peeta says as tears come up to his eyes.

I nod and Peeta puts the picnic basket he was holding earlier on the floor to hold me in his arms, his touch makes me feel so much better and unexpected warmth rushes through me. It was the same warmth I felt when he smiled at me after the chariot ride, in the cave and on the beach in past Hunger Games.

Peeta picks up the basket and walks in to my house and in to my living room which has been left untouched for weeks

"I brought you something." He says, opening the picnic basket and taking out a plate of freshly baked cheese buns. He knows they're my favourite. I feel my mouth watering as he places one in my hands.

"Thanks." I say stuffing the cheese bun into my mouth.

"When was the last time you ate?" he asks and I shrug my shoulders in response.

"So I guess you help Haymitch too?"

"Well… I try to." He says, laughing.

"Maybe I should go with you next time." I suggest.

"But isn't there something you should do first?" Peeta asks.

"What do you mean?"

"You should say goodbye to Prim. Say goodbye to her the way you would've if you had the chance."

Just someone mentioning Prim's name brings tears to my eyes. I was trying to hold onto her for weeks but now she's gone forever so I have to let go. I throw myself into his arms and start crying into his shoulder, he wraps his arms around me tightly and gently strokes my hair with his hand.

"I'll say goodbye to her tomorrow. I just can't do it now."

"I know." Replies Peeta as he holds my hand in his.

"Maybe you should get some rest Katniss." He says as he leads me upstairs and into my room.

As soon as we get into my room, I notice Peeta's eyes are locked on a small, plastic container on my bed. It's the container of nightlock pills. "Katniss, what's that?" Peeta asks as he points to the container.