Are we Nothing but Nobodies?
Namine closed her sketchbook sighing slowly; she had used her powers to create a world for him, a life of limbo with fake friends and people where he lived an ignorant happiness. There was a large guilt in her heart, but she had to hurt him to save Sora; she loved Sora and felt indebted to him, erasing every bit herself from his memories and putting them into the right place. He promised that he won't forget her, a promise she doubted as she responded with a melancholic smile. After all those years of being Diz's toy stuck in a castle, he was the first person who protected her and cared about her. While she knew his behavior rooted from her fictitious memories that she had painted his heart, she still fell for him. She couldn't help it. She knew her love, however, could never ever be requited; he belonged with his friends…
` Here he was, in Diz's castle asleep for years as she redrew his memories back to the way they were. Putting Roxas in her and Diz's fake computerized world would prevent chaos from Sora's awakening, a chaos that almost happened when Roxas discovered the reason he why was in the Organization XIII. He had to forget all that so that Sora could awaken without disruption, and Namine was the one who could do it. She felt so evil playing with these memories, yet she realized the fragility of such important things.
Roxas jolted up in the middle of the night with his head pounding, repeating images of Sora sacrificing himself for his friends. I've been dreaming about him again. Who is he? He slowly closed his eyes, forcing himself to sleep and compromise by creepily dreaming of this boy. The memories have been coming back to him, a sign of Sora's awakening. Roxas woke up the next day and ran outside to go meet up with his friends. "Hey Roxas," Olette and Pence called out as they walked toward him. Suddenly, they stopped in the middle of their tracks frozen in time. Roxas gasped as he saw a blonde headed girl turning on a corner approaching him. "Hi Roxas…" she smiled. "Hi" he replied cocking his head in confusion. "I wanted to meet you just once," she said. "And you are?" She paused him by putting her hand out in front of him and replied with an "I must get going" and hurried away. Time went back to normal and Olette and Pence continued walking again. Roxas felt so confused. "Did you guys see that girl," he questioned. "No. what girl. Me? You've been saying weird stuff lately Roxas" Olette laughed, but she was kind of worried that she was losing him to something. He had been acting strange. She was right; the unrealism of the event had Roxas being quietly thinking to himself the whole day. He wanted to find Namine again. He wondered how and he wondered why he was so drawn to her. Maybe because she had said she had wanted to meet him? What did that all mean? He felt as if she had the answer to his problems. Even the sea salt ice cream tasted of nostalgia today, as if he was growing out of something or as if he was drifting further apart from something.
Rumors of strange occurrences kept circling around his town; rumors of stolen photographs, rumors of lurking unexplainable shadows. And before he knew it, he found himself standing in an empty courtyard in town surrounded by the dark creatures. Helplessly, he attempted to escape as they lunged themselves on him. The blackness or the darkness suffocated him; he flailed his arms to get them away to realize a soft hand reach for his and free him from the darkness. He opened his eyes and jumped, "Huh?! It's you again! And the darkness… they're gone"
"Hi Roxas" Namine smiled.
"You were the light that saved me just now," he mumbled looking down at his feet.
"Haha what a corny thing to say, be more careful Roxas," she laughed.
"Please… tell me your name" he blushed and requested, feeling like a princess asking the name of her savior.
"Namine"
"Na…min..ne?"
"Yes"
"Ok Namine! Can you just wait here… please… for two seconds. Let me go get something" He ran off immediately. She smiled; she was beginning to think she was about to get too close. Having been a bird caged in a castle all her life, it was too easy and too dangerous to let herself be close to somebody. She painfully sighed, in regret to what she was doing to Roxas to awaken Sora, and walked out of the courtyard….
"Namineeeee! Look" Roxas came onto the courtyard running with a wide smile and two sea salt ice creams in his hand. Upon the realization that she was gone, his smile immediately turned grey and found himself alone in the courtyard once more. How will I ever find her again, he thought to himself. Kicking rubble on the way, he slowly made his way back home. The sun was setting, and he probably should've gone back to the alleyway to his friends. I'm probably not good enough for her…
She watched him from a balcony of a tall building of the courtyard as he sulked his way back home. She had thought she had the strength to separate herself from connecting with him any further, but she couldn't fight the curiosity that he stirred when he told her to wait. Sea salt ice cream, she thought smiling pitifully, he used to always eat those with his best friends Axel and Xion… After all, she had come to his rescue due to her promise to protect Roxas, a promise she made with Xion, a promise that is the seed to a heavy growing burden in her heart. She did not know, was she good or was she bad? There's a fine line between the wrong and right in such heavy situations.
