~Nothing I Won't Give~
Preface
Do you know, when you wake up in the middle of the night and you think you feel someone holding you close, but when you open your eyes and turn on a light, you find that, it is you, that is holding you. And you even though you hold yourself close; the pain of loneliness overwhelms you.
Chapter 1
Filene had that dream again; a familiar face of a boy she had seen somewhere, being attacked by something in the streets of Port Angeles. And was left screaming his head off in pain by the docks in the pouring rain. She could do nothing to help him, only sit beside him and cry for the pain he was going through.
She awoke, gasping for air as sweat dripped from her forehead. What did that dream want from her?
Filene shook her head of the question as she slipped out of bed and went into the bathroom. Filene has been living with Emily and Sam for a couple of months since the day Bella and she returned from Italy.
After she told Sam what went down over there, Filene was taken to the counsel that consisted of Billy Black, Quil Ateara senior, and Sue Clearwater. When Filene repeated her story once more, including her ability to block off the Quileute secret from the coven and the powers she witnessed there.
A half an hour later, after much debating, Filene was dubbed one of the Protectors of La Push, Filene was surprised, she didn't understand why the counsel was doing this, what with her being a pale face and all.
Sam looked over at her and grinned when she voiced this.
"You have proved to us, and the counsel that you can be trusted with our secrets." He told Filene.
"And the whole being able to kill eight vampires is just an added bonus." Paul added, making everyone and Filene laugh.
It has been a few weeks since her separation from Bella, the Cullens, and Jake. Filene was surprised at all the emails she gets from the Cullens, and not surprised to get anything from Bella. She knew she acted kind of a bitch to her sister, but can anybody blame her for not wanting her sister to become a vampire?
Filene felt she has changed since then, her grades went from As and Bs to A+ and her favourite course was gym instead of theatre. Since she practically ran with wolves now, she had been able to stay fit and gain muscle than fat.
Filene's schedule consists of having breakfast with the pack.
"Hey! Paul, Jared stole my bacon!" Filene whined.
Paul glared at Jared, whom instantly gave back the said bacon and muttered. "Sorry, didn't know you had Paul at beck and call."
Filene smiled and some of her bacon to Paul. "What can I say, I know Paul's weakness."
"Oh yeah?" Embry asked his mouth full of pancakes. "What is it?"
"Chocolate fudges brownies." Paul answered before lifting Filene off her chair and onto his lap.
Filene rolled her eyes. "What is with you and putting me on your lap?"
Paul didn't answer of course, only held her tighter, and was grinning at someone; she turned to see who he was grinning at. Jacob Black was in the door way, glaring dark eyes at Paul as he walked in slowly, he also has changed since he last saw Bella, he was no longer the happy Jake they all knew, but was the moody I-don't-give-a-fuck Jake in which only made him look sexier in Filene's opinion.
Filene rolled her eyes and got herself out of Paul's lap in towards the kitchen where Emily was washing the dishes and helped her out.
When it was time to go to school, she still went to Forks, so for a while it was awkward with Bella and the Cullens, but Bella didn't give up until Filene forgave her, and the Cullens have been giving these sad puppy eyes when she passed by or when they were sitting in class, particularly Jasper and Emmett, which made Filene laugh.
So they were on an okay basis, but she was still a little mad at Bella, but she couldn't do anything.
Filene leaned against her motorcycle with a tired sigh, she had thought she has filled the gas yesterday, but it appears not to be so. She reached into her pocket for her cell, and felt nothing, she looked into her other pockets, her bra, and her packsack… it wasn't there!
"FROGS!" she swore before kicking a rock across the road.
What was worse was that she was in between La Push territory and the Cullen's, so she was a wee bit freaked out. On that note, what about her baby?
She looked back to her bike before dragging it into the bushes; she can ask one of the guys to bring it back. Filene sighed one more time before deciding to walk home, whether then waiting for a ride or something. She plugged in her IPOD Touch and instantly her favourite song was blaring through her earphones; Don't Rain My Parade from the musical Funny Girl.
Don't tell me not to live, just sit and putter
Life's candy and the sun's a ball of butter
Don't bring around a cloud to rain on my parade
Filene smiled as she sang along, dancing a little as she walked, it fitted her completely.
Don't tell me not to fly, I simply got to
If someone takes a spill, it's me and not you
Who told you you're allowed to rain on my parade
I'll march my band out, I'll beat my drum
And if I'm fanned out, your turn at bat, sir
At least I didn't fake it, hat, sir
I guess I didn't make it
But whether I'm the rose of sheer perfection
A freckle on the nose of life's complexion
The Cinderella or the shine apple of its eye
I gotta fly once, I gotta try once,
Only can die once, right, sir?
Ooh, life is juicy, juicy and you see,
I gotta have my bite, sir.
Get ready for me love, 'cause I'm a "comer"
I simply gotta march, my heart's a drummer
Don't bring around the cloud to rain on my parade
The next lines made her think about Jake and her, which made her laugh.
I'm gonna live and live NOW!
Get what I want, I know how!
One roll for the whole shebang!
One throw that bell will go clang,
Eye on the target and wham,
One shot, one gun shot and bam!
Hey, Mr. Arnstein, here I am...
I'll march my band out, I will beat my drum,
And if I'm fanned out, your turn at bat, sir,
At least I didn't fake it, hat, sir,
I guess I didn't make it
Get ready for me love, 'cause I'm a "comer"
I simply gotta march, my heart's a drummer
Nobody, no, nobody, is gonna rain on my parade!
Filene skipped a little as the next song came on but went perfectly still when she felt an intense gaze on the middle of her back. She turned slowly and gasped, a red eyed, pale faced boy was staring hungrily at her.
'Of all the times to forget Livy!' Filene shouted inside her head as she took a step back. 'So much for not raining on my parade.'
He only came forward, his smile looking very predatory, and not in the sexy romance novel way. A snap of a twig was heard and it made the vampire boy look towards the sound, which gave Filene the chance to run into the woods… it seems like all the time she either fights or runs from vampires, it involves the woods. Thankfully, she has been running with the wolves for the past month or so, so of course she was getting an A+ in gym.
She knew in no time the leech was going to be coming after so she quickened the pace and ran as hard as she could through the trees. Then she heard him, and he was right behind her to! She zig zagged here and there, trying to lose him, but he was hot at her heels, reaching for her until she dodged him. Filene found she was crossing a river and almost cried in happiness that is until she saw Quil, with a fishing rod.
"Filene?" he said looking at her in confusion.
"Quil!" she shouted in horror before diving into the river and making her way across towards him.
Quil was up from the rock and ran into the river to grab her. "What are you doing Filene?"
"Quil, we have to leave, don't ask questions!" she interrupted trying to drag him away, but she was so tired from the running, including her swim just wasn't doing well for her.
"Filene, calm down, what's-" he was interrupted by the leech coming out of the bushes, and snarling at them.
"Holy shi-"
"Quil, run!" she shouted pushing Quil towards the woods. "Go get Jacob! Paul! Or hell even Jared! Just get someone!"
"What about you?" he asked hysterically.
"Just go Quil!" Filene shouted just as the leech leapt over the river and landed on top of Filene.
"FILENE!" Quil shouted.
"Go Quil!" she practically screamed as she tried with all her might to keep the red eyed asshole away from any part of her limbs. "GO!"
The leech was snarling and snapping at any part that he could get his teeth on -thankfully none- and kept on repeating. "Give me!"
"Getting your freakin' slimy cold fish face off of me!" she snarled at the leech.
The next thing she knew, the vampire was off of her and was being torn to shreds by a chocolate brown blur, for a moment, she thought it was one of her wolves, but as she watched the leech and wolf fight, she saw that it wasn't. Nervously, she turned to where Quil was before and was stupefied to find torn up clothes and shoes. Filene slowly looked back to the wolf and it tore the leeches head off before panting, looking into the distance.
Filene panted as well, stiffly getting up from the ground, and slowly, walking towards the beast. The wolf snapped his head to hers and began growling, as if speaking to her.
"Quil, calm down!" she ordered as she lifted her hands up to him as he continued to freak out.
Quil almost bit her hand were it not for him sniffing her hand. Filene sighed in relief; he recognized her scent, thank god for chocolate oranges.
"Quil." she whispered before lightly caressing his forehead.
He closed his eyes and leaned against her hand as she continued to pet him. It felt like hours as Filene lay against the Quil wolf that she named Rhys, when Doyle, Frost, Roane and Sholto came through the bush. Quil quickly turned and snarled when Roane and Sholto walked towards them while Doyle and Frost went to the torn up body of the leech. Filene closed her eyes, she never felt so tired in her life, and cold, but that was what she got when swan in the cold water.
She watched as the wolves growled at each other before slowly, her eyes began to close, leaning in more into Rhys's fur.
Filene is awakened by the sound of the boys wrestling and Sam shouting at them to take it outside. She smiled in amusement as she slowly sat up, and stretched her aching muscles. She got herself out of bed with a yawn and began wobbling her way to the bathroom to have a bath; however, as she turned a corner, she came to a sight she thought she would only see in her dreams.
Jacob Black, walking out of the steaming bathroom in only a short white towel, and he was still wet so there were drippings of water going from his face and down his chest. Filene drooled as he used another towel to dry his hair, his muscles tensed and relaxed as he moved them.
Jake must have felt her intense gaze because he turned to her and raised an eyebrow at her while grinning. "Liking what you see Filly?"
Filene nodded dumbly, but then felt embarrassed as Jake chuckled as he left her in the hallway, walking into a random room and closed it. She frowned, he may be good looking and a mechanic genius, but he was still a jerk!
She hmphed before walking into the bathroom and slamming the door.
"Filene! Don't slam the doors!" Sam shouted.
"Sorry." Filene mumbled as she began to strip.
Just as she was in her undergarments, when of all people burst through the door and came to a stop in front of her. Filene went stiff as a board in shock as she stared at him.
Freakin' Paul! Only in jean shorts!
They stared at each other for a moment before Paul gave her a meltingly slow, breathtakingly, sexy, utterly masculine look of appreciation. Filene felt her whole body become as red as her red lacy bra and matching underwear.
"Damn." Paul said softly with a grin before slowly leaving the bathroom. "I'm sorry I startled you Filly, but I gotta say, I am not sorry for walking in."
And with that, he was gone.
Filene's mind was petrified, but on the other hand, she never once felt as sexy in her entire life, and Paul had just made her feel just that.
Oh boy.
A/N: Okay, here is rewrite of chapter one, and I just wanted to let you know that I am going to write the whole story before publishing it onto fan fiction, so you are gonna have to wait. Sorry!
And one of you asked me; 'If Filene was in the movie, who would she star as?' and the answer is Evan Rachel Wood, only with brown hair.
And I would like to thank; Mom, Raine44354 (she is my motivator), bbGurl44, .Twice, highlyunlikelywriter, DBZLOVER, marc, RainbowShelby, jojostar, and AshLexiCullen (is the first to review) and everyone else who have been with me since the beginning!
La Push Name charts!
Name: Sam Ulley
Color of Fur: Pitch Black
Nickname: Doyle
Name: Jared
Color of Fur: Brown with a black mask on his face
Nickname: Gaelin
Name: Paul
Color of Fur: Dark gray
Nickname: Frost
Name: Embry
Color of Fur: Gray with dark spots on his back
Nickname: Roane
Name: Jake
Color of Fur: reddish brown
Nickname: Sholto
Name: Seth
Color of Fur: Sandy
Nickname: Nicco
Name: Leah
Color of Fur: Light gray
Nickname: Andias
Name: Quil
Color of Fur: Chocolate brown
Nickname: Rhys
Eclipse
Nothing I Won't Give - Vic Mignogna (Opening to my Eclipse series)
Don't Rain On My Parade - Funny Girl - Filene
On My Own - Les Miserables - Filene
The Stupid things - Jesse McCartney - Jacob
Yours to Hold - Skillet - Paul
Tubthumping - Chumbawamba - Filene and the Pack
Why Don't You Kiss Her? - Jesse McCartney- Paul, Jake, Filene
Every day - Buddy Holly - Filene
Take A Bow - Rihanna - Filene, Bella, and Jake
Wishes - Superchick - Filene and Jake
Li'l Red Riding Hood - Bowling For Soup - Paul and Filene
