I sit in front of my room's window as the rain outside gets more and more heavier. I really like when it's raining. The sound of the raindrops makes me calm, and the cold helps me stay up when I feel sleepy.

But now, I'm not really enjoying it.

The raindrops sound like they're mocking me. The cold air feels like it's starting to choke me. The night sky looks like reflecting the darkness inside of me right now. The dark clouds look like they're trying to separate me from my 'moon', the source of my happiness that I really need right now.

I wonder, what is my 'moon' doing right now. Where are they? Where can I find them? What are they 'shining' at now? Have they found another 'star' to accompany them? Unconsciously, I start to move my hand towards the window and trace a name on the glass.

It's the name of my 'moon'.

Who have no idea at all that they have a 'star' following them every day.

It hurts so much to admire them without being noticed. To watch their every movements without them knowing about my action. To hope for being recognized by them.

To fall in love with them secretly.

But no matter how hard I pray, the chance for my wish to be fulfilled doesn't even exist. My 'moon' is a lone wolf kind of person, who always travel alone far away from 'the galaxy'. They always keep their distance from other people, just like I always do. I have no chance to stand next to them, knowing that I would never be their special 'star'.

If I knew love could hurt this much...

I'd wish my feelings for them would just melt away.