PleaseI want to see youone last time
I awoke to the sunlight streaming in softly. Slowly dimming. Sunset.
I got up, looking towards the open sky. It seemed to go on forever. I reached out, touching the air. My hand grasped nothing.
I reached into my bag and pulled out a poke ball. I released my Serperior in a flash of red light and he curled around me. The color of his bright green skin was comforting. Like sweet spring grass.
N, where are you?
I could see clouds passing by through the cracked castle wall. Rubble was strewn all around me. The remains of Team Plasmas castle that was destroyed in my battle. The one that ended Ns dream of liberating pokemon and in turn made him leave me.
Serperior gazed at me protectively with his luminescent red eyes. He knew I wasnt okay. I trembled brushing tears from my eyes. Tears I wouldnt let myself cry in front of N.
Night fell upon us and I could not bring myself to get up. I held Serperior close and turned my attention to the stars.
How disappointing. I actually kind of liked you a little, N said with sincerity in his eyes.
At those words I was speechless. I didnt know someone like N who only cared about pokemon could possibly like me. I wanted it to be true more than anything.
Through our many battles, I got the feeling that you might be a trainer who truly cares for pokemon!
I do N, believe me, I pleaded. I wanted him to realize that we had that in common. Our love for pokemon was more important than our different beliefs.
He shook his head sadly, glancing away from me.
But I was only kidding myself. The idea of trainers getting to know each other through battles is ridiculous!
My heart lurched forward splitting open. I had thought we had become closer through our battles but more than anything getting to know him in the least had meat a lot to me. I didnt feel like I was his enemy. Id much rather be his friend.
Then N challenged me to a battle that was inevitable. I knew it was coming and I was certain of what I must do. I had to save the bond between people and pokemon. The world was more important than my feeling for N. I struggled to stay true to my resolve.
Reshiram come to me!
Ns beautiful white dragon flew towards him, its blue eyes gleaming. Just then my bag started shaking and the Dark Stone floated above me.
Your Dark Stone isI mean Zekrom is
I gasped in awe as it began to glow. Maybe Zekrom had chosen me after all.
Reshiram and ZekromThey were once life. One pokemon. Complete opposites, yet the same. Reshiram and Zekrom are pokemon that appear before the hero they recognize. AhI see. You really are a hero, too.
He looked at me with admiration. I blushed a little looking away from his heart stopping green eyes. Zekrom appeared in a flash of blue light. A stunning black dragon stood before me. It gazed at me in anticipation. I approached it in awe. I felt as though Zekrom radiated truth and it only strengthened my determination to fight for what was right. How would it all turn out in the end? t
Ill tell you what that pokemon is saying to you. I glanced back at N, my heart sinking. I wished he could see past his ideals and realize that people belong with pokemon. I didnt want to fight him.
I want to battle with you. Try to make me your friend and ally.
I looked up at Zekrom. It seemed to be saying just that.
It plans to test you to see if you really are pursuing ideals. I also, am curious to see how powerful you are. Now catch Zekrom and make it your ally!, N encouraged me.
I bravely stepped in front of the dragon pokemon as if charged by an electric current.
Get ready! Go after it! Zekrom will bare its fangs at people who fail to follow their ideals, N said as I hesitated for a moment. I threw a master ball, not wanting to hurt my new friend. I caught Zekrom immediately, it was as if it was meant to be.
AhI see. Zekrom, who is said to lend its power to the hero who searches for truth, has recognized your power and now agrees to stand by your side
Now we had to battle. N looked deep in thought. I couldve been imagining it but it seemed like he didnt want to fight me either.
I gave him a sympathetic smile. This is it, I said. I couldnt back out now even if we both had our doubts. My love didnt matter when it came to the world.
I threw out my first poke ball that held Zekrom. In that moment everything was black and white. I could only focus on winning and fighting for what I believed in. I could see that N was just as determined. When it came down to it we were on opposite sides.
Electricity and fire struck each other. The battle was beautiful as much as it was heartbreaking to me. In the end I was victorious leaving N at a loss.
Everythings ruined. The truth I heldthe dreams pokemon shared
I wanted to comfort him but I knew I couldnt. This was my fault. I had one but somehow it didnt feel like a victory.
Reshiram and I were beaten. Your idealsYour feelingsThey were stronger than mine, it seems
N looked at me as if searching for an answer. I hated seeing him broken like that, his tea green eyes glistening filled with shattered innocence but there was nothing I could do. This just wasnt right!
Zekrom and Reshirameach of them choosing a different heroIs that even possible? Two heroes living at the same time-one that pursues ideals and one that pursues truth. Couldcould they both be right? I dont know. Its not by rejecting different ideas, but by accepting different ideas that the creates a chemical reaction. That is truly the formula for changing the world
I had never heard anything more true or beautiful. Maybe N could change. I hoped that anything was possible.
Right then Ghetsis came in. A surge of hate overcame me. He walked up to N and shoved him. Hard.
After all that, do you think youre still worthy of sharing the name Harmonia with me? You good for nothing boy!
I wished I could take away all the pain I saw flash across Ns face right then. It was obvious that Ghetsis had never loved him or anyone for that matter.
The more Ghetsis talked, the more I began to understand exactly what N had been through.
You are nothing more than a warped, defective boy who knows nothing but pokemon!
I suppressed my urge to cry. With Alder and Cheren beside me I stood to face the man I despised. I had to defeat him and it was for more than my own beliefs.
White!, N quickly healed my pokemon for me. He was so kind how could anyone treat him like that?
With all my built up rage I pummeled Ghetsiss team to the ground. My anger filled my every command. He was no match for my sudden passion to destroy him.
My calculationsNo! My careful schemes! The world should be mine! Ghetsis yelled in disbelief.
I stood in fury, glaring at him, Zekroms poke ball clutched firmly in my hand.
What? I created Team Plasma with my own hands. Im absolutely perfect! I am perfection! I am the perfect ruler of a perfect new world!
Ignoring Ghetsis, Alder turned to N who was still lost in thought, his tea green hair hanging over his eyes.
Now NDo you still think pokemon and people should be separated?
Mwahahaha!, Ghetsis cut in, Since I couldnt become a hero and obtain the legendary pokemon myselfI prepared someone for that purpose-N! Hes nothing more than a freak without a human heart. Do you think youre going to get through to someone like that?
I thought Ns heart was more pure than anyone I had ever met. I really had come to love him. If anyone would get through to him it would be me.
Ghetsis was ignored again.
NIm sure you have a lot to think about, Alder said knowingly, Your heart was truly inspired thats why you were able to meet the legendary pokemon.
ButI have no right to be the hero.
Youre much more than that to me, I thought.
Is that so?, Alder said. What you and the legendary pokemon are going to do from now onThats important, wouldnt you say?
N considered this and shook his head. Acting like you understandUp until now, weve been fighting each other over our beliefs! Yet despite thatWhy?
N, even if we dont understand each other, thats not a reason to reject each other. There are two sides of any argument. Is there one point of view that has all the answers? Give it some thought.
With that the Champion left and Cheren followed, leaving me alone with N once again. This couldnt be goodbye. I didnt want this to be the last time I would see him but what could I say to make him stay?
Panic began to rise in my chest only to soften when I heard his voice.
White, I want to talk to you about something.
We began t walk down the long purple path together. It felt like a dream just me and him. All the struggles were over.
Its about when I first met you in Accumula Town. I was shocked when I heard what your pokemon was saying.
I looked up at him, my eyes transfixed hanging onto every word, my heart beating faster than ever.
I was shocked because that pokemon said it liked you. It said it wanted to be with you.
We were so close right now yet I wanted to be even closer.
I couldnt understand it, I couldnt believe there were pokemon that liked people. Because up until that moment, Id never known a pokemon like that.
He looked away for a moment and I knew I had given him a chance to see the truth for the first time. He held me in his gaze. Everything was spinning.
The longer my journey continued, the more unsure I became. All I kept meeting were pokemon and people who communicated with one another and helped one another. That was why I needed to confirm my beliefs by battling with you. I needed that more than anything.
Everything stopped. N was done explaining things to me and it felt like at any moment he would slip away.
The Champion has forgiven me andwhat I should do now is something Ill to have to decide for myself.
I couldnt find my voice. As he sent out Reshiram and we faced the open sky there was nothing left to say only I didnt want him to leave!
White! You said you have a dreamThat dreamMake it come true! Wonderful dreams and ideals give you the power to change the world. If anyone can its you, White.
I could feel everything rupturing inside me as I held back my tears.
But you were my dream, it was you all along.
Well thenFarewell!N smiled at me but I could see regret and loss behind it. He turned to leave, going to meet Reshiram. I reached out and went after him in my last moment of desperation.
Wait!, I cried, my hat falling to the ground. I grasped his hand in that fleeting second holding onto the one person I never wanted to let go of. Dont leave.
My breath caught in my throat as he turned to face me. My shoulders trembled as I tried to keep myself from falling apart.
White?
I looked down. I couldnt look into his eyes and show the hysteria in mine.
What do you mean, he asked me gently.
I mean I dont want you to go! I sobbed. I couldnt contain myself any longer. I flung my arms around him with my face buried in his chest.
He held me carefully, stroking my hair. You know I have to go and find my own dream.
I nodded my muffled answer. Its just ever since we met I always wanted to see you again I said hiding my tears. I wanted to know more about you thats why Ive always followed you.
You know every thing about me now, what more could you want with me?, he asked in confusion.
I-I want to be with you because I- I stumbled over the words, looking up at him. My eyes welled up. My lip trembled. I couldnt say it.
White?, N asked hesitantly.
Ill miss you.
I felt like he was looking into my soul with his deep green eyes, seeing what Id been trying to show all along.
He cupped my face with sweet affection. I felt my eyes closing as he kissed me and our worlds melted together. It was soft and passionate at the same time. Shivers went down my spine. I wanted to hold onto this moment forever.
White, I have to go find the answers by myself. I want to know what my purpose is in life. Maybe Ill come back someday. I want you to forget about me and follow your dream.
Sooner than I could breathe he was turning away. My knees were weak and I was faint with the lightest feeling. My vision faded as I saw him fly away into the distance.
I love you.
I had tried to say it but he never heard me. I collapsed onto the floor, the sky disappearing.
Ever since I had met N I had always known where I wanted to go. My life had had a direction. I had always been going after something, my dreams put together. Now that he was gone my dreams were scattered and I didnt know what I wanted anymore. Only him and he was far away, out of reach.
I have to find you somehow.
