I was still sobbing. But Yui was right though, and I made myself an idiot once again. Chizuru-chan is a cute girl, and she's never going to see good in me again. It felt like I'd been dumped. When Chizuru said those horrible things to me in the school corridor in lunch break, she turned on her heel and walked straight in the opposite direction, back to her own class. I didn't start to bawl up in tears or anything, but I sure felt like hell. Like rusty arrows had pierced me.
…oh, was that a bad comparison…but for the rest of the day, I just couldn't concentrate. In class, at the tea room. Yui must have noticed this and suggested a sleep-over at hers. I said sure, why not…
But Yui was the best; she always will be. She tells me she always keeps a tub of rum raisin frozen ice cream in her freezer. Rum raisin has always been my favourite. And now here we were, her with a bowl of the creamy goodness, and me sat up in bed, mouth open. My face was a mess from all the crying; I had such horrible looking blood-shot eyes, no doubt.
But Yui just smiled at me with her kind smile. She brought out a spoon, and fed the ice cream to me. But I still felt like hell inside, and Chizuru-chan had just given the final look of death. Tomorrow morning I'd see her again and, even if we were in separate classes, she'd give horrible death-glares that would send me straight back to hell. But at least that rum raisin made it all better though. Like some medicine. She was the nurse and I was her patient. Hehehe, haven't I got naughty thoughts? I felt better for eating that. Hehe, what a night time snack…Once I'd finished, she put the bowl aside and climbed back into bed, back into my arms.
Those naughty thoughts were in my head again…no, she's my childhood friend. I slip and fall in kindergarten, she calls for a teacher. I shoo away any guys that take a stupid interest in her in class. We exchange notes. We call each other. We go out. We're…
Those sobs came back though. I thought eating that ice cream would help me; nonetheless, those sobs of mine were there, and were getting worse. Before they were purely centred on Chizuru and what I did to her, but as I lay there I noticed that there were more things for me to cry about. I treat Chinatsu-chan like crap and she hates me for it; I want to do so much for her, too. Ayano too; I wish she saw me in a better light. She already berates me and puts me down so any chance we get along, I seize. And Yui too. She probably hates every minute of me being here.
Yui looked at me underneath the futon and started to cradle me. I felt frozen; like my face was nestled in her bosom, her legs were pressing against the rest of my body and her arms were pressing against my back. I looked up at her; she was already gazing down on me, smiling.
"Yui…what are you…" She just shushed me and kissed me on the forehead.
Yui knew and I knew. So I just fell asleep lying next to her. Those naughty thoughts were back; me looking up at her, and she'd look down on me and smile. I'd say that I cared so much about her, and she'd say she felt the same way, and then she moved up to kiss me, hands firmly held.
Then I noticed it was morning. I was naked, and Yui was asleep next to me. And she was naked too. I don't really remember what happened then that night, but I was happy now. Maybe we could go dating; that would be nice.
