I want love
To roll me over slowly
Stick a knife inside me,
And twist it all around...
I want love to
Murder my own mother
And take her off to somewhere...
I want love to
Forget that you offended me...
Yeah, I want love to
Change my friends to enemies...
And show me how it's all my fault
- "Love Interrupted" Jack White
"Wake up."
Sunset has no long ago arrived and the heartbroken blonde was becoming more impatience by every second.
"I know you can hear me," she blew into his ear with the hope of getting a reaction, any reaction at this point.
At first, she understood; everyone in this make-shift family of their's understood. They all went through the guilt of surviving. To have those what-if moments. Perhaps if one move was done differently? A different choice or even just one step ahead, maybe a different outcome would've occurred? Unfortunately, that is not how fate works.
Everyone came to the agreement of waiting it out and give him his time of grieving.
She did everything in her will to make him wake from his horrid state. To have him even to speak to her, somehow though he was willing to speak to the other woman in his life. It wasn't her, the supportive girlfriend, to make a reaction out the man. Rather it was the other blonde in the room. She accepted it, they had a connection with this type of lost. However, it did not lessen the hurt of the emotional betrayal for that matter.
"Johnny, you need to wake up," Maxi Jones stated, "I know your pain" she continued. "I've felt your loss. I'll shed all your tears myself if I could but it's time. Please, Jonny, if not for yourself then for her."
It's morning now. The day has gone by quickly. Time in itself has gone by so fast. It has been a total of 2 months, 3 weeks, 6 days and 23 hours since she's been gone.
"She's gone," he spoke more to himself. It hit him like a ton of bricks. Claudia Zacharra was gone and she's never coming back. Where did he go wrong? Could no one not see the pain in her eyes? A woman once filled with life turned into a soul dying to be noticed. If only something was said or if someone reacted differently.
"Yes, she's gone, " Lulu replied, heading towards the chair next to the bed since Maxie has seemly occupied the reminding space.
"I am so sorry, I let everyone down. I let her down its all my fault," he cried out.
"No, you're not to blame here. You defended her as much as you could" Maxie argued while shedding tears.
"I should've protected her more than defended," Johnny responded, embracing Maxie into his arms while Lulu, his girlfriend looked on with agonizing pain.
"I should've seen it, you know?"
"We all should've seen it coming. What's important now is to fight back," she held on to him strongly, "Spinelli has new information," she said.
"Of what?" he asked with the glint of a man with vengeance, beginning to resurface. He held on to Maxie as if his life depends on her existence. Maxie, on the other hand, quickly untangled herself from his embrace, remembering Lulu's presence.
"It may be easier to discuss it with the group," she replied guiltily while looking towards Luluu, "Lulu can you call everyone and Tracy as well, we may need assistance from her.
Lulu held every part of her not to attack her friend, a person she came to love as a sister and yet loathe with a fire of jealousy. Comforting her boyfriend and giving her orders as if though she's in charge. Having these past weeks being in charge not enough for her? She opened her mouth to speak only to see the gratefulness in her boyfriend's eyes.
"Lulu, thank you, I know I haven't been myself lately but everything..."
"No, no, it's fine. I understand," Lulu smiled at her boyfriend. She got up from her chair to give him a hug and in turn, he provided her with a soft kiss on the forehead.
"I'll get the group together, see you downstairs," and with that Lulu Spencer left her somewhat best-friend and boyfriend alone, in a room, with a bed, together.
"Maxie's you're perfect" Jonny spoke out randomly.
"What?" She questions while re-posting herself on the bed to allow him access to get up.
He looked at her lovingly, "you're perfect, I just wanted you to know that, to know..."
"I am not perfect. Far from it," she interrupted him quickly.
"You are to me," he cupped her face placing a desirable kiss on her lips.
She has always enjoyed their kisses, however, this was not like the previous ones. The ones before were purely sexual. This kissed held just as much temptation as the others but it heald desire as well. A desire based on the need to be wanted. A desire to be comforted. A desire of longing to be unconditionally loved. It was a love she was not ready to accept nor to return.
She cared for him deeply, more than she ever did about Lucky Spencer or Cooper Barrett. The last time she felt this desire was with Jesse and look how that ended. She refuses to suffer through another heartache.
She refuses to fall into a desire and temptation again. She refuses to ruin the closest thing to a true friendship she ever had with a person, even if it is Lulu Spencer. She seems to have the habit of reaching for unattainable relationships. The type of relationships that are doomed to fail. Johnny was unattainable as they come; a mobster, whose already taken by her friend. Mac, her father, the Police Chief, will never approve of their relationship. Lulu's heart will be broken beyond repair; it'll be Logan all over again. Not to mention her sweet Spinelli. For once in her life, she's determined to be a different person. To be the kind of person that thinks of others and with that though she breaks the kiss. Remembering the purpose of being here, "get dress and ready, it'll be a difficult job taking Sonny down."
A/N: This is just something I thought of last night; a one-shot about the love-triangle that could have been between Lulu/Johnny/Maxie. How awesome would've been if they worked together to make Sonny pay for the death of Claudia. Don't get me wrong Lante fans, I love Dante but he could have come in later on; an undercover cop in the mob and ended up working them when Lulu found out his truth. Lulu eventually moves on from Johnny by falling in love with Dante! Eventually forgiving Maxie & Johnny. They would've been bad-ass version of the Four Mousekeeters (AKA - Lucky/Liz/Nicholas/Emily group)
(Also to those that read my other Maxie fic, don't worry, I will finish that story. I am on a block at the moment for it; debating on which way to go with the pregnancy.)
Here's a link to Jack White's video, I love this song: /watch?v=iErNRBTPbEc&ob=av2e (just put the url after to get the link!)
