"Denial ain't just a river in Egypt."

Mark Twain


That lace. That goddamn lace! Throughout this whole situation, for some reason it was that lace that got me so frustrated! Staring at the white invitation in my hands, all I could think about was that lace, which you just had to put on the card! The same, familiar creamy lace, which was on our card, was now on yours and his.

It was ours.

I can't figure out what is bothering me so much! Is it because something that used to be mine (I mean ours), is know suddenly owned (owned doesn't sound right) by someone else? Of course, this has nothing to do with that where his name is, is where mine should be. It's just the lace, you should have just asked, that's all, since it was ours first. Wait a second,this is childish behavior. I shouldn't care. We are over and obviously you two, are much happier. I should be happy for you.

But, I'm not.

I have decided I will not be going. I'm simply busy, that's all. Being the Stronghold Leader is all I have, now. I need to be concentrating on that, not on going to an occasion full of foolish dancing or listening to long, dreary vows or watching a pair of jade eyes. This has nothing to do with, that it's going to be extremely awkward or that it's going to hurt to see you with him or that I'm still angry about that lace. It has absolutely nothing to do with that. I'm just busy.

Or hurt.

I'm sorry I went. I was just driving in my car around; I didn't have control when I parked at the address on the invitation. I didn't feel myself walk through the doors. I didn't hear myself; yell "I object." I didn't see myself horribly, punch him in the face. I didn't know when I cried and said "I still love you." But, I did wish I was able to control myself. I wish I didn't feel the pain in your eyes. I wish I didn't hear you; yell "Get out!" I wish that I didn't see you hug him, with worry. I wish I did know when you cried and said "I don't love you."

But, I didn't.


AN: This was going to be a rewrite of my past fanfic, What Hurts the Most but, once I started writing it became something different. So, this was inspired by my past writing. I'm sorry it's very short but, I will fix that later when, I'm not so busy... or lazy.

So, this was all kind of made up in my head. I know it might be OOC but, it might not because even though I hinted who this is, it really could be anyone, if you wanted.

Please give me honest reviews! I think it was a much better improvement. I'm up for opinions, good or bad!