Bella

Dying would be peaceful , wonderful

I want nothing more than to float in the darkness

to never feel broken again – to never feel the pain again

as the salty cold tears trace her cheekbones like his fingers did , she cries harder as she remember how he licked her tear that day - that fateful beautiful day- when she went to the Cullen's house , her second home . for the first time

'You are my life not any more

she can't breathe

'you are the opposite of ordinary ' but she is not good enough

i' and so the lion fell in love with the lamb' and then back out of love because she wasn't good enough not perfect like him not even pretty

because without him there is no point for anything, no reason

it feels like her heart has been shattered into a thousand pieces and they are sharp and stabbing into her hands , blood; scarlet and wet runs downs her hands as she tries to push the pieces back together , but like the wrong puzzle piece they won't go ...

Charlie

she lies on the floor and screams

as her hands curl into her chest as though she could rip her heart out just to take the numbing heartbreaking pain away

he doesn't come like he did the first time because he sees the raw agony and pain that in that scream

because he sees too much of himself in that scream...

Edward

the vase shatters into a million little pieces just like his heart

his stare is glassy and straight ahead – like he can't see anything – and his mouth is shaped into a silent scream . His hand tear the couch to shreds, and broken sobs rip painfully from his chest

they pretend because it hurts too much to feel

he can't breathe

' he's even more unbelievable behind the face ' but

he can't feel because if he does he will see her

'what a stupid lamb' what a beautiful angel

' I feel very safe with you ' so safe that you nearly died because of me

In his head he sees in on permanent replay , like a song that is stuck in someone's head

Jasper's leap - the sweet ambrosia of her floral blood pulsing - her body ; broken and lifeless , pale white and as cold as ice – Jasper's eyes a vivid scarlet

her her her her her Bella Bella Bella Bella Bella Isabella Isabella Isabella Isabella Isabella

she is all he thinks about

HE needs her , he needs his angel, an angel of brilliant light and beauty

she is all he wants

everything he has done he has done for her , but she will never realise

Because without her he is a shadow , a dead man ...