Bella
Dying would be peaceful , wonderful
I want nothing more than to float in the darkness
to never feel broken again – to never feel the pain again
as the salty cold tears trace her cheekbones like his fingers did , she cries harder as she remember how he licked her tear that day - that fateful beautiful day- when she went to the Cullen's house , her second home . for the first time
'You are my life not any more
she can't breathe
'you are the opposite of ordinary ' but she is not good enough
i' and so the lion fell in love with the lamb' and then back out of love because she wasn't good enough not perfect like him not even pretty
because without him there is no point for anything, no reason
it feels like her heart has been shattered into a thousand pieces and they are sharp and stabbing into her hands , blood; scarlet and wet runs downs her hands as she tries to push the pieces back together , but like the wrong puzzle piece they won't go ...
Charlie
she lies on the floor and screams
as her hands curl into her chest as though she could rip her heart out just to take the numbing heartbreaking pain away
he doesn't come like he did the first time because he sees the raw agony and pain that in that scream
because he sees too much of himself in that scream...
Edward
the vase shatters into a million little pieces just like his heart
his stare is glassy and straight ahead – like he can't see anything – and his mouth is shaped into a silent scream . His hand tear the couch to shreds, and broken sobs rip painfully from his chest
they pretend because it hurts too much to feel
he can't breathe
' he's even more unbelievable behind the face ' but
he can't feel because if he does he will see her
'what a stupid lamb' what a beautiful angel
' I feel very safe with you ' so safe that you nearly died because of me
In his head he sees in on permanent replay , like a song that is stuck in someone's head
Jasper's leap - the sweet ambrosia of her floral blood pulsing - her body ; broken and lifeless , pale white and as cold as ice – Jasper's eyes a vivid scarlet
her her her her her Bella Bella Bella Bella Bella Isabella Isabella Isabella Isabella Isabella
she is all he thinks about
HE needs her , he needs his angel, an angel of brilliant light and beauty
she is all he wants
everything he has done he has done for her , but she will never realise
Because without her he is a shadow , a dead man ...
