I do not own ER especially what passed as sesone 10.
But if they do not mind i would not mind having Romano.
A big thankyou to kim and janine who with out there help this story would never been finished.
Chapter1 Thoughts
Robert Romano sat in his office watching the rainfall. He thought the weather reflected his mood perfectly.
As he looked back on his life and he thought about how much he had lost and gained.
First, he had lost his childhood to his stepfather, that monster James Watson, but he had survived and he and his family managed to rebuild their lives. When he became an adult, he had gained his beloved daughter Emma, only to lose her too, thanks to some drunk driver who was now out of prison with a family of his own.
So, he put all his energy into becoming the best-damned surgeon he could and for a while, he was.
Burying himself in his work had helped him cope. It had also shown James Watson that he, Robert, was not the worthless waste of space Watson said he was. He had taken care of himself, his mother, and the rest of his family better than Watson ever had.
Robert had never used his background has an excuse for anything. In fact, he had used it to make him tougher, to push himself just that little bit further. That is how you get to the top and for a while, he was king of the world.
Now that was gone. He had nothing left – it was all wiped out in a second by his own stupidity.
He wanted to go out into the world and let it rip at someone, to blame some else, to kick and scream until his throat hurt. But he knew there was nobody else to blame but himself and that was the most difficult thing to deal with.
He could never forgive himself. He had turned into what his stepfather always said he was a worthless human being who no one had any use or time for. He looked at the bottle of painkillers on the desk in front of him. He did not know why he did not just pick up the bottle and put an end to the pain once and for all.
But he knew why. He was afraid that people would say that Robert Romano was a quitter.
He had always seen things through to the bitter end, but still, the thoughts were going through his head.
He knew it would be quick and painless. Moreover, he knew it would be better than living. There was nothing for him to fall back on. There was nothing or no one out there in the world for him to hold on to. He had never felt so helpless before, and he did not know how the in hell he was going to make everything all right. In fact, this time he did not think he could get through this. This time, Robert Patrick "Rocket" Romano was finished once and for all.
And that thought scared him more than anything ever had.
Please R&R
