It hurts...
It hurts...
It hurts...
I understand now why Akane felt this way... Why Sae felt compelled to kill... Why Itsuki was run to suicide...
I understand it all.
To feel Mayu's soft, sensitive throat inside my hands had made my heart race, but my chest hurt. I didn't know what I was doing. Why I was doing this.
She told me to kill her... And at that moment, I would do anything she told me... I was just so happy to be near her...
But I listened.
"Kill me."
Why did you want to die, Mayu? Was that even you, or was that Sae, speaking from your lips once more? I couldn't tell, and I wasn't sure that I wanted to know.
Looking back at the diaries that I found everywhere, I was drawn mostly to Akane's second diary.
She wrote "Why kill?" 27 times. She had it harder off then I.
I still miss Mayu dearly though.
Poor Uncle Kei.
He has no clue why this hurts so much. Why loosing my sister is more painful to me then him.
He thinks it's because we where always together... Together forever. Like I promised Mayu.
That day that she hurt her leg... I was by her side the moment I saw she was hurt, and I called for help.
Screamed for the woods.
Uncle Kei came.
We had been spending the weekend with him, and where going to the stream where we would play.
I was in a hurry, seeing as though our mother was on her way to get us.
I just wanted to see it again before the long wait til the next visit with Uncle Kei.
I let her down.
I had ignore her cries "Mio, wait!" "Mio, slow down!"
I ignored them all... It still tears my insides up.
I let Mayu down again... I left the Lost Village, even though I told her we would be together forever.
Though, maybe we where together now.
I felt empty, but I have a bruise on my neck...
It is shaped like a Crimson Butterfly.
It doesn't itch. It doesn't hurt. An it tells me that Mayu and I are one, even if I feel empty and dead.
I'm sorry.
To everyone that has to deal with my silence.
To everyone that doesn't understand but claims they do.
To everyone that knew and loved Mayu dealy.
It's all my fault
And I'm not denying it anymore. I killed Mayu. With my hands. I wrapped them carefully around her neck, and I leaned down, wanting to hear her last words.
"Kill me." she told me without a second thought.
I watched her face for a second, and used my knees to pull myself back up.
I applied preasure on her neck.
I felt her heart beat, her warmth, her tension, her breathing, her soft skin...
The soft skin I would never feel again.
I felt her heart slow, as she began gasping for air, though she neglected to struggle.
I felt her tension relax, and I saw her eyes close for the last time.
I pulled away, my body going numb.
A crimson butterfly formed from the bruise that I had left on her neck.
It lefted from her neck. I heard Mayu say "Thank you." And that's when it hit me.
I killed Mayu.
No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No.
"Mayuuu!"
I called out to her, but the butterfly left me. I saw them throw her body in the Abyss. It burned me. Why dd I do that?
I chased Mayu's butterfly for what seamed like hours. But I could never keep up.
Then I saw them
Every butterfly... All of the souls that had been sacrificed for the Forbidden Ritual.
Mayu was one of them.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry!" I called out.
One butterfly flew out of the large crowd and came towards.
It came down and touched my reaching hand.
Tears escaped my eyes and I felt torn up.
That night will forever haunt me... And no one will know the real reason why.
Broken apart,
Mio.
