The Little Gloomy Girl

Because she was always alone, in her own gloomy little world.


For all my life I have been alone. In a world nobody knows.

Where only the days rain and the nights shower.

This is my world.

This is Juvia's world.

The first time I saw him, I was alone. In that curb around the block, the place where only I know.

I remember it; it was just like I remembered. I was 9, full of innocence and joy. He saw me standing all alone. Pain and sorrow filled his eyes. I remembered some adults talking about how he was the sole survivor of the Deloria accident. I remembered that it was only 4 years ago.

He approached.

"Wanna play?"

I looked up, only to see smiles.

Even though he lost so much, he would still smile?

"…"

He frowned.

[Oh, how much I wish to see that wonderful smile.]

He grabbed my [oh-so-tiny] hand, and grinned [that oh-so-beautiful grin].

"Well, I'm not taking no for an answer."

He showed me to a couple of his friends.

"Hey" they all said.

"Hi"

I hid behind his back.

"Oh come on, don't be shy."

He pushed me [oh-so-gently] forward, and stuck up a [oh-so-manly] good guy pose.

"My name is, Juvia"

They welcomed me with a smile, and that's when my [oh-so-gloomy] world came tumbling down.

Just because of one happy smile, which I haven't seen in years.

I was the one that [oh-so-happily] smiled.


That was my first smile


Junior Prom.

I always went with Gray, but he went with [that-oh-so-brave] Erza this time.

It was okay I mean, it's not that I love him, but…

Why does my heart beat when he's around, or shiver at the way he calls my name or the way my stomach flutters at the way he's always so close.

I gasped in my realization. As I [oh-so-loved] Gray, I only see him as a…

Lover.

Friend.

Brother?

I loved him.

I loved Gray.

My best friend.

But, I feel content. He's my friend and my sunshine.

And also my first crush.


My first crush.


I feel bitter.

Like someone stabbed my heart [oh-so-terribly] over and over again.

The way they, held each other. It makes me feel so bitter.

I smiled a bittersweet smile.

I was a jealous girl.

I smiled [an-oh-so-bitter-smile] again.


My first heartbreak.


I looked on at the silky material.

How, unsurprising.

Gray was getting married.

Today and I'm going to watch every [oh-so-stupid] ounce of it.

I was the bridesmaid [all-pretty-in-purple].

Drip. Drip. Drop.

Wait, what's this?

This thing on my face.

It's salty.

And it's water.

I smiled [an-oh-so-sad-smile]


My first tears.


All my life, I've learned so much. About smiles, heartbreaks and tears.

And it's all because of [that-oh-so-amazing] Gray.


My first everything.


A/N: Don't own fairy tail.