Sorry about not updating my other story Kage Baby, I just had this story in my mind. It will probably only be a two shot. I also have a Narugaa in the works that will be AU where they are at the Beach for a vacation… hmmm well I hope you enjoy this two shot.
Warning: This is yaoi themed, if you don't like boy love, then please don't read. Also I have very little spoilers in here.
Disclaimer: I do NOT own Naruto, just this idea. If I owned Naruto, Neji would be in it more, Gaara and Naruto would be cannon, and Sai would get more love.
Now on with the story…
Memories were always jaded, if it was a pleasant memory, you tend to relish everything. All the nuances that happened were more vivid, all the sounds, the colors, even the feel of the breeze that would cause your hair to gently blow in the wind. Everything seemed perfect. Yet if the memory was sad or one which you wished to forget, like the death of someone special to you, you somehow would never forget. Naruto sat on the balcony railing and wondered why people wanted to forget those painful memories. He didn't really like them, in fact the older he got, he downright hated them. Yet he knew that they made him the person that he was now.
If Sasuke hadn't left, he would never have gotten stronger. When Gaara had died, he would never have realized how important the Kazekage was to him. With the death of Jiraiya, he felt true loss of someone that he respected, with his death though, Naruto had fully realized what Sasuke had told him all those years ago and he realized that revenge was not the path he wanted to take when he defeated Pain and confronted Nagato. If he wanted to become Hokage, Naruto knew that the people of the village came first.
With memories, come resolve, love, understanding, and acceptance.
Looking up, Naruto watched the Hawk soar in the air, a dark contrast to the early morning teal colored sky. This was his first meeting with the other four Kage's since he had become the Hokage. Sai and Sakura were the only ones here with him, the former was sitting on the balcony next to him, while the latter was pacing back and forth in front of him.
"You make me nervous just watching you." Naruto softly spoke to his best friend while still watching the Hawk.
"You are not watching me though." Sakura stated matter-of-factly. Her green eyes spitting daggers towards Sai.
"Why are you upset with me Sakura-chan?" Sai was baffled.
"You encouraged him to stay up all night out here didn't you?"
"I only kept him company."
Sakura snorted and rolled her eyes, "Now he will fall asleep in the meeting."
"Gaara will be there." Naruto said. As if saying this would matter much. However the others in his former team had mixed emotions. Sakura seemed concerned for Naruto, while Sai seemed to be contemplating the Hokage.
Sakura stopped her pacing and put her hand on Naruto's shoulder, "Naruto…"
"I know Sakura-chan." Naruto looked at her for the first time since she had come out to the balcony. "I will be ok."
Puzzled, Sai wanted to ask what they were talking about, however all he could do, was watch them. They seemed to be both thinking the same thing.
"I know." Sakura sighed.
"I wonder how he is doing?"
"He got in last night after us." Sakura said. "I heard Temari talking with Kankuro. Maybe you should try talking to him…"
"I will see him at the meeting today."
Sighing, Sakura said, "Yeah I guess you are right. By the way, if you don't hurry up and get ready, you will be late."
Naruto got down from the edge and gave her a slight hug. "Thanks Sakura."
"Sai," Sakura said as Sai was about to follow the Hokage into the room, "you can wait here with me. Naruto doesn't need your help."
As soon as they were alone, Sai turned to her and asked, "What's the deal with him and Gaara?"
Sakura glanced at Sai, "I don't feel right discussing Naruto like this."
"I have a right to know too."
"Only Naruto can say if you have a right to know."
"You know how I feel towards him."
"I know…." Sakura sighed, "I will tell you this, Gaara means the world to Naruto."
"Were they.."
"Yeah, for about three months after the war."
"What happened?"
"I can't say for sure. I think it has something to do with the upcoming wedding of the Kazekage."
Sai was silent for a moment. "I would do anything for Naruto."
Looking at Sai, Sakura could see just how much the artist adored Naruto, "If only it were that easy."
"What do you mean?"
"Forget it." Sakura looked away and was about to leave when Sai grabbed her roughly by the arms.
"Tell me."
"Let me go. NOW!" Sakura backed up as Sai let go. "Fine you want to know so bad, I'll tell you the facts. Naruto has been in love with Gaara for years, Gaara has also felt the same for Naruto, however something happened and they broke up."
"Why don't they just get back together?"
Laughing mirthlessly, Sakura said, "You really know next to nothing about relationships."
"How do you know that Gaara feels the same way?"
"If you don't believe me, then when we get back, ask Shikamaru. He is dating Gaara's sister you know."
"Then we need to do something to get them back together."
"I think Gaara would go for it, however something is holding Naruto back. Never mind, he's coming." at her words, the door did indeed open to reveal the Hokage.
Naruto looked better than he ever did, he allowed Sai and Sakura to lead him to where the other Kage's were. As Sakura had predicted, they were the last to arrive in the room. He took his seat next to the Raikage, and across from the Kazekage. Naruto tried to not look at Gaara, however when he felt Gaara's eyes on him, he looked up and felt the pull.
It was like time stood still. All Naruto could think about was the last time they had been alone together and the way Gaara had felt in his arms. Naruto had told Gaara that they needed to stop seeing each other, and Gaara had broke down and cried in Naruto's arms. It had been all he could do to pull away from the red headed boy, that was no longer a boy.
He was doomed. He knew it the moment that he had delved into those turquoise eyes. Come what may, Naruto would lose himself to Gaara before long. He had to stop. He had to, otherwise Gaara would not be able to be Kazekage. Naruto had heard what the elders of Suna had told Baki. That if Gaara did not get married, they would find a different Kazekage. They also said they knew of the relationship Gaara had with a "certain nine tails Jinchūriki," and that if Gaara continued it, he would be banned from Suna for life. Baki had tried to get the elders to change their minds, however Naruto quietly left while Baki argued for the Kazekage's happiness. It was the next day that Naruto had ended it with Gaara.
At the light touch on his shoulder, Naruto looked up to see Sai. "What is it?"
Sai leaned in to whisper, "I think you are making it obvious."
"What do you mean?"
"You need to find a chance to talk to him." Sai softly told the Hokage, and at the glare Gaara gave him he added as an afterthought, "Before he kills me." Baking off away from him, Sai didn't give Naruto the opportunity to reply.
It served the purpose that Sai had wanted it to, Naruto was no longer day dreaming in Gaara's eyes. The only drawback was that Gaara was glaring at him. Sai wished he could inform the young man that he had no impure thoughts regarding Naruto. Trying to tell the young Kazekage with his eyes did nothing, especially when the meeting was paused for a lunch break, and Naruto pulled Sai out the door before everyone.
"Naruto, Sai," Sakura was running after them, "wait up."
Naruto pushed Sai up against the wall outside and demanded, "What the hell are you talking about?"
Sai smiled his famous fake smile before saying, "I just think that you should try to talk alone with the Kazekage."
"Stay out of it Sai."
Sai nodded his head slightly, glancing over Naruto's shoulder, he saw the Kazekage approaching. "Now's your chance. I think you need to give it a shot."
Naruto looked over as Gaara grabbed him by the arm. Shocked, Naruto allowed Gaara to lead him to a empty room, after they entered the room, Gaara let go of Naruto and locked the door.
For a moment, neither one moved, then as if a dam had burst, Gaara said, "Why the hell have you ignored my letters?"
Naruto looked down at the floor, deep in thought. He didn't know what exactly to say, he would not tell Gaara the truth, that every letter he had sent back un opened had been like a dagger to the heart. How he still yearned for the touches of Gaara and sometimes late at night he would cry for missing him. How just the night before he had been so nervous about seeing his former lover, that he hadn't slept a wink. Even now, all he wanted to do was hold him in his arms and never let go.
Putting both his arms up behind his head, Naruto was unsure how to say it, so he just blurted out, "I don't think we are good together."
"Bullshit!" Gaara nearly snarled.
"You need to get married to carry on the name."
"Who gives a fuck about that?"
"Gaara, please…"
"Naruto, you have hurt me more than anyone has ever hurt me, I still can't let you go though."
"Please Gaara…"
"Tell me that you don't love me than." Gaara got closer to the blond. "Tell me that you don't, and I will never bother you again. Tell me that what we had means nothing to you. That you can throw what we had away and never think it was the best thing that had ever happened to you."
"Gaara…" Naruto's voice was no more than a whisper, "please, oh god please let go of it though. We were just fooling ourselves."
"Say it." Gaara's breath was caressing Naruto's lips, if Naruto leaned forward slightly their lips would touch.
"Gaara…" Naruto leaned forward and gave in to the temptation. His lips met the softest lips ever and Naruto lost himself in the kiss. His tongue traced Gaara's lips like old times, before Gaara's lips parted and they tasted each other, it was as if he were an addict, and Gaara was his drug of choice. He couldn't help himself. He was lost in the moment. A hurricane could have happened just then, and nothing would have caused him to move.
