First Fanfiction Everrr :D Um…This is like my version of this part of the book. So…I don't know how it is. But please tell me. xD

Rated: M because of content yet to come.

Alec & Magnus- Love is to destroy

After tossing and turning with guilt on his shoulders, Alec sat up in his bed. He put his legs up to his chest and wrapped his arms around his knees. He pushed the blankets forward away from him and put his head on his knees, black hair dangling in a disarray around his head.

He wasn't one for crying but right at that moment it felt like he was going to brake down with tears. His hands cupped around his calves and he gripped so hard that his knuckles turned white.

It was bothering him so bad that he loved two people. But just this one he loved more than anyone now. The image of Magnus and Jace

was in his mind. But just somehow the Magnus' Picture stood out more.

Alec then lifted his head up, a tear running down his cheek. He had just realized something, something that he never realized before.

Jace loved Clary dearly. He wasn't ever going to let her go. Even if Alec had sympathy for Jace, Jace was his brother and it never was going to happen.

Alec then realized that he loved Magnus more than anything.

Alec loved the way Magnus looked at him, how he spoke to him and how much he cared for him.

Alec swiped the tear away from his cheek and swung his legs around to the side of the bed.

He didn't care that it was almost One O'clock in the morning; he needed to tell Magnus that he loved him just as much.

Running his fingers through his hair, Alec stood up, pulling his shirt down and fixing his pants. His shirt was dark brown, wrinkly and long sleeved. His pants were light blue jeans with holes in the side and they were slightly baggy. He was barefoot at the moment before he dashed across the room and slipped into some flat black sneakers.

He stalked out of his room and closed the door of the Institute slowly.

Stepping onto the sidewalks of New York City, gave him the chills. Or was it that it was harshly cold outside and snowflakes blew down from the sky.

It was the cold. It was actually freezing outside as Alec walked. He began to shiver but made it to Magnus' steps.

'Magnus is probably sleeping; he wouldn't want to hear from a shadowhunter now.' He thought to himself.

Alec brought his hand up to the door and started fighting with himself if to ring the bell. He ended up ringing it.

The sound rang through Magnus' house.

He was sleeping but when he heard the bell, he awoke and jumped as it startled him. The bell rang two times before he groaned and rolled out of bed.

His usually crazed hair was down and he ran his fingers though it walking to the far side window of the apartment.

Magnus looked out the window, his yellow cat eyes beaming and looked down to see a man standing at his door. From up at that view he couldn't tell who it was so he trailed off down the stairs, unlocking the hinges to the door.

Alec was looking down until he heard the locks being opened. The door cracked open and Magnus' head peeked out.

"Alec darling?" he said realizing who it was. "It's nearly half-hour after one in the morning, what brings you here?"

It then was as if Alec's tongue had been chopped off. He couldn't speak; he was both shivering and loss at words.

Magnus noticed the cold and saw that Alec was shivering and opened the door more. After Alec didn't talk and only saw his lips trembling Magnus put his arm out to put around Alec's shoulders, bringing him inside from the cold.

Once Alec was inside Magnus shut the door behind him, not letting go of Alec.

"It's freezing out there" Magnus said soothingly, rubbing Alec's shoulders so he would warm up a bit. "Why would you come this late?"

Alec was searching for words to say but couldn't find the right ones to come out.

"I-…I couldn't sleep, I've just been thinking a lot." Alec finally mumbled looking down at the floor.

This worried Magnus. 'What is he thinking about? What the hell is he thinking about?'

"As in what?" Magnus asked curiously.

Alec's lips started to tremble again but not because he was cold.

Magnus titled Alec's head up with his index finger, to see tears dripping from his dark blue eyes.

"Alec…" He whispered and trailed off. He had never seen Alec cry before, he was usually one to hold things back.

Magnus really didn't know how to react but Alec crumbled into his arms with slight sobs. Magnus just simply but his arms around Alec's shoulders and held him tight.

"I'm so stupid" Alec mumbled over his tears. "I should have known this so long ago."

Magnus was really confused now.

"What's bothering you?" Magnus said as he pat Alec's back softly.

"It's not bothering me. I'm just so glad I figured it out." He sniffed tilting his head back to look up at Magnus.

"Like?" Magnus wondered.

Alec searched for the right words but ended up just blurting out a bunch.

"Figuring out…that…I love you." The tears had stopped but his eyes shined blue.
Magus had to stop his mouth from dropping. He was going to say something but apparently that wasn't all that Alec had to say.

"Jace is my brother, he loves Clary, he'll never feel that same way as I had for him. I have no chance. But with you…It's so different." Alec continued on. "Magnus, you've saved me, healed me, you care fro me and look at me like you actually mean it." He took a breath. He absolutely never talked out like that. Even though this was okay, Magnus was so easy for him to open up on.

Magnus felt so touched but didn't have any words back. He just leaned his head down and kissed Alec on the lips, who kissed him back automatically.

"My darling Alec, I too, Love you as well" Magnus said.

Alec simply smiled and red shined his cheeks with blushing. This wasn't going to be a terrible night after all. He was with Magnus, comfortable and safe.