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It's been a few months since we took Annie into custody. The capitol is still working on the buildings her and I destroyed while I was chasing after her, I still feel awful about the damage we cost the city but everyone keeps telling me to not think about it, that everything will work out in the end and that once Annie comes to we will have access to so much new information that will advance the fight for humanity. I'm sure Hanji will be thrilled about having her captive within the Scouts control.

Once I recovered from my transformation, I went back to Scout HQ, the military police were extremely against my staying in the city any longer. Scared bastards… I bet they thought I'd transform again and cause more damage to the city… the MP's are so ignorant and spineless. Back at HQ, I was put back under Captain Levi's supervision. He never seemed to be too upset with me about the events at Stohess, he never even really brought them up with me. It was strange, I began to spend more time with him for trainings and tasks and even sometimes cleaning (if he thought I'd be a help that day) but the more we spent time together the less he spoke to me. Now, on a normal occasion the captain wouldn't speak much to me anyway but the silence that was growing between us was increasingly concerning to me. Sometimes it even seemed as if he might have something to say to me but he was holding his tongue for some reason.

I guess I shouldn't judge his silence though, I mean there were plenty of things I kept hidden in my mind away from the Captain's ears. Like, just how much liked him. It used to just be a boyish crush, you know the kind of crush you get on a celebrity when you know they could never, ever feel the same way and they probably would never even know you existed? After Levi took me under his wing though, my feelings started to develop into a painful crush. A painful, unattainable crush on a man who had beat me senseless in front of a court room. I caught myself thinking about the Captain way more than I should have and I often felt really guilty for it, but sometimes I would let myself indulge if I knew I'd be alone for a while. Even if it was just a small day dream about simply kissing Levi, I needed to be alone. My face flushes with heat at any day dream of the captain and me acting as more than just mentor and apprentice and in most cases my body acts pretty reactively too. I can't count the amount of times I've had to dash into an alcove or alleyway to calm myself down so my comrades wouldn't see my lower half standing at attention.

Thank god I've never run into Levi in that state, I ran into Mikasa once as I tried to find an alcove to hide in and she definitely noticed. I'm pretty sure she thought it was because her too because after she said hello she blushed and just let me walk on without as much as another word. Or maybe she was embarrassed for me, I'm not sure and I don't think I'll be asking her about it anytime soon.

So today, Levi and I were supposed to work on some training exercises and do another test of my ability with Hanji but she called off on us. She got wind that there might be a catchable titan relatively nearby and was gone in a flash. Levi said he didn't see any use in having me do training exercises I had done three times over again today and suggested that maybe I could help with some paperwork. I didn't like the prospect of the task too much but it meant more time with Levi and since I rarely did paperwork I would be asking plenty of questions which in turn would encourage him to talk to me. I agreed to his suggestion and we took a leisurely walk to his office.

The walk to his office was more tense than most of our walks, something felt charged in the air like electricity was running in little chords between us. The walk was completely silent and that only seemed to increase the voltage running between our shoulders. When we reached his office door we both reached for the knob. I silently prayed maybe he wouldn't notice I was still reaching and that maybe our hands would meet on the brass but unfortunately he did notice, and pulled his hand back. He gestured for me to open the door. It may seem like a strange fact to dwell on but normally he wouldn't even let me touch the knob let alone open the door for him and now he was passively letting me put my finger prints on his shiny door knob? No, something was definitely up, he wouldn't act like this with me.

Once we were in his office, door closed behind us, Levi maneuvered around his desk forming various piles and stacks of paper on it. With a particularly large stack that he dropped on the desk I noticed he was sweating. How odd, he couldn't possibly be exhausted just from collecting some papers on his own desk. But he had stopped, palms on his desk looking down at it like he was giving a great deal of thought to something. He looked extremely off put, something was definitely on his mind.

"Captain, is everything alright… sir?" I attempted to address him formally like usual but I couldn't concentrate on my social graces through the concern I had for him right now. I was actually kind of scared what he would tell me… I thought maybe Petra's death was still eating away at him. It seemed like they had a thing going on, but I thought it always looked like she was more attached to him than he was too her, that could just be his stoic expressions though. Or it could just be my subconscious trying to give me false hope that maybe Levi didn't love her.

Levi paused, opening and closing his mouth every so often like the words were right there on the tip of his tongue but he wasn't quite sure he wanted to set them free. Then finally he said "I can't….I can't hold up the charade any longer, Eren." What did he mean by that? He couldn't possibly be referring to- "Eren, I need you to know something."