A/N: I do not own Fairy Tail and if I did then I would've gotten Natsu and Lucy together a long time ago. Anyway, something to point out real quick, I do not hate Lisanna, I think her character is awesome and sweet which is why she will stay that.
Anyway on to the story
Chapter 1
LUCY'S POV
'When a family member is happy you can't help but feel happy as well. Or when your friend finally gets that present they have been wanting for months, a smile just shows up. Or when the love of your life laughs or feels so accomplished or happy for themselves you can't help but smile even more than normal. Is it normal to never feel that? I mean when I got my first celestial key I smiled because it was from my mom someone who I admired and loved with all my heart….Aquarius. Levy when she finally got that novel from me, her smile the way it lit up the room gave me such an amazing feeling I couldn't help but say yes when she asked for more even when I felt like I ran out of ideas. For him? I can't help but feel guilty. The way goofy grin made everyone feel it like it was going to be okay. His laugh like music to my ears. His pink hair oh god his stupid pink hair, how soft and how it made him just different from everyone else. Yet no matter how happy he was in this moment I could not help but hate myself for wishing otherwise. How could I ever wish for someone to be unhappy? How could I wish to take that source from them?' I felt my face tighten.
"Lucy? Is everything okay?" Mirajane looked at me with concern yet her body looked as if she was ready to walk off to do other things. I plastered my go-to fake smile.
"Yes Mira, I'm okay…" I wait for her to walk away "I'll be okay...soon" I sighed and stared at the guild. There was a party for Lisanna. The girl that came back from the dead….a month ago.
'You think that guild would move on to other things or at least run out of booze to celebrate with but with Cana how could I think otherwise?' A bitter laugh came out.
'Oh Lisanna, I'm horrible for wishing for a time before you. You have been nothing but sweet to me. Nothing but a friend to me and here I am selfish for love that will never be mine.' I turned back to the bar and stared down at my hands. 'This mark that was given to me….I dont deserve it….I'm nothing but selfish...nothing but a horrible person...I'm weak…'
"Lu-chan?" Levy looked at me concerned. I looked at her and felt my breath get knocked out of me. "Let's get out of here" She gave me a quick hug and grabbed my hands. I just followed her through the guild doors, hearing the cheers get further and further.
"When are you gonna tell him?" I stopped and looked up at Levy with tears started to form. "Lucy...How could you not tell him you are leaving?" she hugged me once more just tighter.
"How could I Levy? How could I say 'Hey Natsu I'm leaving because I'm weak and jealous of Lisanna even though she has been nothing but an angel to me?'. Levy, I see her and I know I was never meant to be there. I see her and get that gut twisting feeling that I really didn't deserve anything I was given. I see her and know I have to get better." the tears begin to fall and I feel Levy's hug get tighter.
"Lu-chan….You're leaving in two weeks maybe even less...Yet I'm the only one that knows and it kills me to see our family celebrating someone and not knowing they will lose someone too. They deserve a warning...He deserves a warning…" Levy pulled away from the hug and gave a weak smile.
"I know you are right. I just dont want to think about it right now. Walk me to my apartment? Let's enjoy the time we have right now yeah?" I wiped the tears from my face and gave Levy my best smile. In return, she gave me hers and off we walked.
'I'm sorry for being selfish….I'm sorry that I got in the way of your happiness… I'm sorry I'll be leaving without a goodbye. I'm sorry Natsu but I don't deserve the happiness you gave me.'
NATSU'S POV
"HEY LISANNA! I HAVE AN AWESOME IDEA!" I yelled with a smile on my face.
"And what would that be Natsu? You aren't gonna try to fight Erza again right? Last time you ended up in the infirmary for a week and could barely handle a look from her" She sighed and shook her head.
"Noooo. I was thinking maybe we could all go on a mission together yeah? Just like old times. It'll be great! The all of us back together again." Lisanna stared at with a plain face. "Eh? Did I say something wrong?" I questioned.
"What about Lucy? I dont want to leave her behind, she's apart of the group too you know. Or did you forget?" Lisanna crossed her arms. "I want Lucy to come! I think it'd be great for her and I to start getting used to each other's magic you know? She's such a mystery to me!" Lisanna gushed with heart eyes.
"You want Lucy to come? You don't want it to be the four of us again? You, Ezra, me and Ice prick?" I pouted. "Come on for old time sake! I'm sure Lucy can last without us and we won't even be gone that long!" I huffed and took a peek at Lisanna. "I'm sure Happy would love some time with just the three of us" Happy was always her weak spot.
"Fine. But you have to tell Lucy how long we are gonna be gone. I dont want her worrying about you or Happy. Got it?" Lisanna rolled her eyes "Go pick a job." a smile crept on her face. I cheered and ran straight for the mission board.
'What to choose… what to choose….AHHH what about this one' I thought
"Series of thefts happening in Leweitt
Any amount of mages wanted
Reward: 500,000"
'Perfect' I grabbed the piece of paper and ran to Mira.
"You'll be gone for almost a week maybe more. Now in that week you better take care of Lisanna. If I see one scratch I. WILL. KILL. YOU" Mira smiled. I shuddered.
"We'll take care of her Mira. I promise" Taking the approved paper away from her and ran to the team.
"LET'S GO, GUYS!" I yelled.
"Aye Sir!" Happy chimed.
A/N: How was it? Was it okay? Let me know.
~Violet
