Hey guys, I was playing with this idea as I have already posted something similar on this page but I wanted to try this version; so thank you for taking the time to read the story. Much love RSD xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo.
P.S. I also want to say a big thank you to a very good friend of mine (Plesiosaur); they helped me name this story. Yes this might not be their fandom so I doubt that they will even read this but I wanted to give credit where credit is due as I did really struggle to name this story.
I couldn't believe it! I didn't want to believe it! There was no way I could be pregnant! Me and Ben had only slept with each other once! Yes me and Ben wanted to be more active with each other but due to college and Ben's ever growing royal commitments we didn't really get much time alone together. I thought we were careful! Not careful enough I spitefully told myself as I started to walk towards Auradon Castle.
I didn't know how Ben was going to react; we were only seventeen for Lucifer's sake! When the council found out were they going to make Ben send me back to the Isle? No! He wouldn't do that, he loves me. But the council might stop you both from being together I spitefully told myself.
I tried to push these thoughts away; but it was too hard. It felt like I was drowning in a pool of self doubt, panic and worry; my lungs felt restricted and I could only take short breaths. I kept pushing down the lump in my throat that was now a permanent fixture and tried to make sure that I wasn't crying. I didn't want to go and see Ben a wreck - even though that was what I was. Instead I started to concentrate on Ben's birthday roughly six weeks ago - what had landed us both in this mess!
*Flashback*
"Mal" Ben breathed after he pulled me to him so I was now snuggled into his chest. I couldn't believe it! I had just lost my virginity to Ben; it was everything that I expected and more. Ben was a total gentleman about it all as well which made it even more perfect.
"Yes Ben" I said as I looked up at Ben.
"I know we didn't intend for this to happen; but I am sure glad it did" he said happily as he started to run his fingers through my hair.
"Perfect way to end my birthday" he added as he brushed his nose against mine before his face broke out into a large smile.
"Yeah" I agreed as I let a smile spread across my face as well.
"Are you ok?" Ben asked and I noticed that his face dropped slightly.
"Yes" I confirmed.
"I just can't believe that we have slept together" I said as I stroked his chest slowly. Me and Ben stared at each other for a couple of minutes enjoying each other's company before I watched as his eyes widened.
"Do you regret it?" Ben quickly asked panic stricken.
"No!" I exclaimed. I can't have Ben thinking that I regretted sleeping with him; I didn't! It just felt overwhelming that it had happened; when I lived on the Isle I never expected to find someone who wanted to be like this with me.
"Definitely not!" I said as I sat up a little bit and I stared into his eyes.
"It just means such a great deal to me that it has happened; I never expected to find someone who would want this" I said sincerely as I started to get lost in his leaf green eyes.
"I know Princess" he said lovingly and he reached up and cupped my right cheek.
"As it does to me; Mal the fact that we have slept together has made us feel so much closer" he added as he stroked his thumb against my bottom lip.
"I know" I replied as I smiled at him.
"I can't be without you baby" Ben said lovingly.
"Me neither Ben" I replied as I pushed my face close to his and I brushed my nose against his.
"I love you so much Ben I can't lose you" I said as I cupped the left hand side of his face. I felt tears start to gather in my eyes; this was the truth. Ben meant so much to me and losing him wasn't an option; and I knew that it was going to kill me if this ever happened.
"Hey" Ben said and he tightened his right arm around me causing me to lie back down against him.
"I'm not going anywhere, not without you" he promised as he brushed the tears away from my eyes as his eyes continued to burn into mine.
"Mal I love you, you are my world" he said lovingly.
"Nothing or no one is ever going to change that" he stated lovingly before he pressed a long and loving kiss against my lips.
This is before you find out I told myself as I walked up to the gates of Auradon Castle. I watched as the head of security, Phil appeared and he smiled at me when he noticed that I was there.
"Hello Mal" he said as I walked up to him.
"Hi Phil" I responded.
"Is his Majesty expecting you?" he asked.
"No" I advised.
"I wanted to surprise him" I added with a small smile. Oh you have a surprise for him alright Mal!
"Ok" he said as he reached into his office and pressed the gate entry button.
"There you go" he said and I heard a buzz which told me that he had disabled the gate.
"Thank you" I replied as I stepped forward and opened the gate and I shut it behind me.
"Say hi to his Majesty for me" I heard Phil call.
"Ok" I said as I turned around and looked at him.
"Will do" I promised.
"Bye Phil" I said as I waved.
"Bye Mal" he answered as he waved back at me and I turned and started to walk towards Auradon Castle - starting to silently panic and hoping that me and Ben could get through this.
"Here she is" Ben said happily as his eyes landed on me as I walked into his office.
"The love of my life" he said proudly as he placed some paperwork down in front of him.
"Hey" I said happily as I forced the lump back down my throat.
"And what do I owe this pleasure?" he teased as I walked around his desk.
"I wanted to come see you" I advised as I stood next to him.
"Come here" Ben said as he held his arms open for me and I slid onto his lap.
"Hmm" Ben purred as he snuggled into my chest as I rested my head against his crown. I couldn't help but sigh at the contact; however an afterthought came to me - how was Ben going to react when he found out?
"Just what I needed" I heard Ben say as he tightened his arms around me.
"Me too" I agreed.
"Has your day been stressful as well?" he asked as he looked up at me.
"You could say that" I replied as I pursed my lips together.
"What's bothering you?" he asked and I froze. I didn't feel ready to tell Ben I was pregnant yet; I know I was currently feeling like a coward but my whole world felt like it was coming down around me.
"You first" he stated.
"No you" I pressed.
"No you" he urged and I could tell by the look in his eyes that he thought there was something really wrong.
"Please Benny?" I pressed as I pouted at him and I reached up and stroked his face with my left hand.
"Ok" he sighed.
"Well like you know I have had a couple of meetings today which were stressful; I still have another meeting later on" he advised as he pulled a funny face at me.
"But the stress was worth it" he added.
"Why?" I questioned.
"Sultana Jasmine asked me what my plans are for after college and it got me thinking about everything that I want" he explained happily with my favourite cute smile.
"Which is?" I wondered.
"I want to get to know my people, I want to travel, experience new things-" he started.
"But most importantly I want to do it all with you" he added with an excited smile which made me smile back at him. Yes Ben wanted all of these things now; but was he still going to want these things when he found out I was pregnant?
"Sounds perfect" I noted.
"Yeah" he agreed as he tightened his arms around me so my head snuggled back against his crown.
"I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you" he said happily.
"Me too" I said as I started to feel my eyes start to water and I blinked a couple of times to help dispel them. What Ben wanted to do sounded perfect; and now it was all ruined. There was no way we could have the perfect life that he wanted if we had a kid in toe - maybe I had to make it easier for him.
"I just want to make you happy" I said as I looked away from him and I tried to contend with the tightness in my chest as my body wanted to break down and cry.
"And you do baby" he urged and I looked back at him.
"As that is what I want for you" he said happily as he brushed his nose against mine before he pressed a long and loving kiss against my lips.
"Your turn" he said after we broke away slightly breathless.
"What?" I asked as I pulled one brow up in confusion.
"What's bothering you?" he questioned as he pulled one brow up at me. I could tell that he thought there was something going on but I still couldn't find the words. I was so scared of how he was going to react - surely he wasn't going to be happy at the fact that I am pregnant at seventeen!
"Oh that" I said.
"That's nothing" I dismissed as I looked away from him. I didn't want to lose Ben and stupidly I started to think that as soon as I had told Ben it was going to make it real. Every situation that could possibly happen after me telling Ben was starting to play spitefully in my mind and they were all scaring me. What if the council said we couldn't be together? What if I had to go back to the Isle? If I needed to go back to the Isle I would do it but I didn't want to put my innocent unborn baby through that - they deserved better.
"Come on Mal" Ben said breaking me out of my panicked thoughts.
"I can't help you until you tell me" he urged.
"It was just a long day at college that's all" I advised.
"I'm really tired" I lied.
"Oh" he said as his eyes widened at this information.
"Ok" he added as he nodded.
"Do you want to stay the night?" he asked.
"No" I quickly said.
"I just needed a cuddle" I advised as I snuggled back into him; I knew that Ben had a right to know but I couldn't tell him right now. I needed time to digest this myself; I needed to come to terms that I was now a mother and I didn't know what to do. I felt my eyes start to water and I quickly pretended to yawn so this would cover the fact that I had started to cry again.
"Mal" Ben said as he pulled away and looked up at me.
"Are you ok?" he asked as concern hit his eyes.
"Yeah" I lied.
"I just can't stop yawning" I added as I pretended to yawn again.
"Ok" he replied and I could tell that he knew that I was lying.
"Well I best get going" I quickly said.
"Ok" Ben said still sounding confused.
"I'll ring you when I get out of my meeting" he said as he snuggled back into me.
"I'll look forward to it" I said happily as I looked into his perfect angelic face. I hated that I was hiding this from him; but I needed more time. Fingers crossed he would forgive me! I felt the urge to kiss Ben so with this thought in mind I quickly crushed my lips against Ben's lips and I pressed a long, loving and passionate kiss against Ben's lips.
"Wow!" Ben breathed after I pulled away.
"Come back here you" he chuckled and he mirrored my actions.
"Lucifer help you on our next date!" he breathed after we broke away breathlessly.
"Why?" I breathed.
"We will carry this on" he flirted as he brushed his nose against mine.
"Hmm" I purred.
"Be patient Beast" I teased as I stroked his tie. I reached over and pressed another brief kiss against his lips; after I pulled away I smiled at him and started to think about how complicated things were now.
"Good luck with your meeting Ben" I said as I untangled myself from his arms and I jumped up from his lap.
"Thank you Princess" he replied politely as I walked around his desk.
"I'll speak to you later" he said happily.
"Yes you will" I advised and I walked out of the room and I didn't realise that I had actually started to cry until I left the castle grounds.
