Three Letters He Never Sent
The first letter
He was never the writer. Words and Shane weren't on the best of terms, after the amount of times they'd failed him. Or he'd failed them. Either way, he had always been one for non-verbal communication. If he was angry, you'd get the silent treatment. If he was happy you'd be smothered in those big bear hugs he prided himself on. If he was feeling anything he didn't understand, or couldn't quite wrap his head around, he'd dance until it all made sense again. So, he simply did not do words. Besides, they were always more of His thing.
Somehow, that excuse was enough to stop him writing the first letter.
Dear Micah,
I don't even know… How did this happen? I mean, I know HOW it happened but how did we get here? I mean, I don't even know where "here" is for you. And… and why us? What did we do to deserve this? I need you to know that I'm so sorry Micah. I am so fucking sorry for all of this. And then… then I need you to come back. Because I'm falling to pieces without you and everyday I'm living a lie and I just… I'm sorry I couldn't be brave for you. Or for Blaine. I'm sorry my dad outed you while I sat there and let it happen. I just… I'm sorry I couldn't be for you what you were for me. And that's why I can't send this to you, even though god, I wish I could. But this is me doing what I didn't do before. This is me being brave for you.
Love,
Shane
