I wonder what it would've been like to grow up normal.

I'm sure if none of this Shadowhunter business was you know, actually real, I bet I would be living with Valentine and my mother.

Maybe my brother would be the big brother I always wanted. Strong and protecting, threatening to kill all the guys I went out with. But who knows? He could still be the crazy person I know now.

I can't help but hope, though. In another dimension and time Jonathan and I could be like actual siblings.

Is it possible to love and hate someone at the same time? I love my brother for the person he could've been, but hate him for the person he turned out to be.

This is all Valentines fault! If it wasn't for him, I might actually have a normal brother that has no extra blood or DNA added to him. If it wasn't for him, I could have a normal family and maybe even a normal life.

But as Jace would say, 'normal is overrated for people as beautiful as me'. But I wonder, would being normal be that bad?

Hopefully in another world, another Clary will have a normal life and family, wishing for something exciting to happen.

God I wish I was her.