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This is a SAD STORY. Grab a tissue cause I cried when I wrote it. This is also a SHORT STORY!!!! I wil NOT do 30 chapters this has a max of 7 chapters
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I GRIEVE
"I thought it would be for forever. I was wrong."
7 months. 7 perfect, spectacular, life changing months. When I came to Forks, my first thought was how I wanted to get out. Now, well, to be honest, I never want to leave. Ever. Not unless he comes with me.
That he is Edward, my Adonis boyfriend. Any girl in the universe would kill to get him, I'm serious, kill, he was just that good looking. For me, however, I need someone who is sweet and kind, and funny, and not a complete ass like the rest of the male population. And Edward fit all of these qualities times 100.
His whole family was perfect. He was the biological son of Carlisle and Esme Cullen, along with his brother, Emmett, and his sister Alice. Then when Edward was five, Carlisle's best friends died, and their two children, Rosalie and Jasper, were brought up by them.
Even though I've never asked about it, there's something a little odd about his family. From the first moment I met them, they seemed almost other-worldly, like they had been brought up in a different time. All of their eyes were the same, which I guess is not weird at all for the biological ones, but Rosalie and Jasper too had the same. That wouldn't be odd either except it is such a rare eye color. A Topaz/tawny/butterscotch color. And it changed, not a lot, but enough for me to notice. I have always put it off as the light, but I think part of my self conscious is telling me otherwise.
We don't have a physical relationship, I think it's funny he's so moral, but sometimes it's frustrating. I'm 17, I'm almost out of high school, so I think I should have some liberties and get rid of some of the sexual tension that builds up whenever I get 5 feet away from him. And I've brought this up with him, told him what I wanted, but was shot down the moment the words came out of my mouth.
So currently, I'm lying on his chest thinking that exact thing. And he's stroking my back making it even more frustrating.
"Bella, what are you thinking?" he asks me that a lot. More than a normal person, no one's a mind reader.
"I'm just thinking how utterly lucky I am that I can be perfectly content in this position with you." I feel him shake under me from laughing, and my heart beats wildly in my chest. I turn my head towards him and his eyes are inches from mine. I look down to his lips and I think about how utterly perfect they are, and then a reach my neck out and kiss him softly, and his lips are cold, like the rest of him. But that's because his whole family is anemic and apparently that's what happens when you're anemic. But I don't mind because kissing him right now is what I want to do all day, everyday. Because it lights a fire inside me and I feel so complete and whole, like I've never felt in my entire life.
I feel his arms leave my back and wrap in knots in my hair, and I kiss him more fiercely than before, the fire growing hotter. His breathing is getting more erratic, his back arches, his chest meets mine, his tongue slides out and leaves an ice cold trail as it traces my bottom lip. I let out a gasp and glue my fingers to his hair. The tension is building, and it's getting hard to resist him, but then I feel his arms loosen in my hair and I know he's not going to take it any farther. I sigh and smile at him. He smiles back and rubs circles on my hips.
"That was nice." I say. He chuckles,
"I agree." I sigh again and look out my bedroom window. My dad was on a fishing trip today, otherwise I doubt we would be here on my bed right now. The fall air was coming through the window. It was cool today and I decided to let some stuffy air out of my room. The September breeze ruffles my hair and Edwards hand tightens under me. I turn to him,
"What's wrong?" I ask him
"Nothing, just a spasm." I smile at him and turn back to the window. The leaves are turning colors, and the first signs of fall are beginning to form. I wonder about what school will be like tomorrow, I hope Mike doesn't make a pass at me again.
My eyes open to Edward shaking me slightly. I must have fallen asleep, so I look at the clock. It reads 5:30 and dad gets home at 6. Edward sees me watching the clock.
"That's why I woke you, I think I should go."
"Do you have to?"
"Unless you want to tell your dad I was here and then getting interrogated about it, I think it is a good idea." I grimace at the thought of my dad finding out about our days lazily spent in my room. Then I pout at the thought of not seeing Edward until tomorrow. He sees my pout and cups my chin.
"I love you, more than anything." I smile and peck him on the lips.
"You know, surprisingly, I feel the same."
"Cheeky, Bella."
"Mhmm, I know." He grins and then gets up and holds out his hand for me. I take it and we both walk down the stairs together.
"Bye."
"I'll see you tomorrow; I'll pick you up alright?"
"Fine by me." I say to him. He backs down the driveway backwards before he turns around and wrenches the door open to his Volvo. Then he backs down the drive and disappears down the road.
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I had a good day at school today. Except I didn't get my wish from yesterday, Mike did make a pass at me, for the 400 billionth time. When was the boy going to learn, I mean, Edward and I had made us public a long time ago.
Dad's in the den watching the Mariners and I'm in kitchen finishing up some Trig while I wait for the noodles to cook. The doorbell rings and I nearly jump out of my skin to run and get it. Because there can only be one person at the door unless it's a Girl Scout. I wrench the door open and in front of me is Edward. It's raining so; his hair is a little damp. I didn't expect him tonight but, any time with Edward is a good time.
"Edward! What are you doing here?" he looks sad, his expression is a little crestfallen, and my heart instantly tightens.
"My father just got called, and he is being awarded a merit or something or other, they gave him tickets for the family to fly to Boston, so I'm leaving. I would take you but, I didn't think that you would want me to spend the money." And even though my heart is breaking because he's going to be gone for awhile, he is absolutely right. No way was he paying to bring me to Boston with him. And even though I know his family really well, I would feel out of place going.
"You were absolutely right in your assumption," I sigh, "I'm going to miss you so much."
"I know Bella, believe me I know, but it's only for three days, I'll be back before you know it." I grimace at him, 3 days was longer than I wanted. I turn around and peer at my dad through the doorway, apparently he isn't interested in who's at the door anymore because he's sitting in the chair wringing a napkin in his hands with his eyes glued to the screen. I turn back to Edward and motion for him to stand back a little. He obliges and I shut the door quietly behind me. I stare at him, warning him what I'm going to do. He knows right away and meets me half-way, his lips coming down hard on mine. And the feeling that's flowing through me is really sad, more sad the anything else, because I've never been away from him this long. We broke away panting and he rests his head on mine.
"Promise to see you in three days."
"Promise?"
"With all my heart." I give him one last kiss and then he walks towards his car. I lean against the door frame and fold my arms as he drives away. I sigh and stare up at the roof of the porch. I repeat to myself, it's only three days, its only three days.
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(Day 1 of No Edward)
Lauren was horrific all day. Usually she's not bad because Edward is there so she doesn't ever try to do anything with him around. But since he wasn't here today she decided to let loose in a big way. Angela, my best friend, tried to defend me as best she could, but I ended up eating outside to avoid her.
Edward had called me early this morning and said that their plane was just about to leave the tarmac. We exchanged more goodbyes and then I left for school. He had left a voice mail on the cell phone Charlie had graciously given me for Christmas last year, that said they arrived safely and that he missed me. Which, when I read it right after I left Lauren's evil stare made me start to cry.
I finally pull into my driveway and call Edward upstairs in my room.
"Bella."
"Hi, how is Boston?"
"Honestly, no fun without you. We've been here before too so there is nothing to exciting about a bland hotel room." I giggle at his remark.
"How was school?" his question instantly shuts me up.
"Fine." I lie and he can hear it.
"Bella." He says reproachingly.
"Well, other than Lauren Mallory making my life a living hell nothing out of the ordinary." I hear him sigh into the phone and I can imagine him pinching his nose on the other line.
"Do, you want me to come home?"
"NO! Edward, I am perfectly capable of surviving Lauren on my own. I don't want you spending an enormous amount of money just to back to check if I'm alright when there's nothing wrong with me."
"Bella, you know money doesn't matter to us."
"Yes, but it does to me."
"Ugh, you're so stubborn sometimes."
"Which will not change anytime soon." I say pointedly into the phone. His parents both had very good paying jobs and Edward always wanted to spend things on me but, I always put my foot down because I hate it when people spend money on me.
"What was she saying?"
"We don't need to get into details."
"That bad?"
"Please, Edward just drop it."
"Alright. Well I need to go, I'll call you later tonight."
"I love you."
"I love you to Bella." I can hear the smile in his voice. The phone clicks off and I sit in my room for a few minutes, reveling in the silence. Then I hear Dad's car in the drive and I go downstairs to make dinner.
(Day 2 of No Edward)
I started flipping out today because my birthday was in four days. I had told the Cullen's no gifts, but with Alice at the helm of the festivities, there were sure to be some. And I started freaking out at what Edward might try to get me. I am not a person who wants or needs much and he had been hinting the past week about how decrepit my computer was. Even Angela seemed to hint getting me something today at lunch. Was everyone out to get me? Is that how the world works now?
I made dinner already and I decided to go upstairs awhile ago, so now I'm sitting in the dark listening to music while I'm waiting for my cell to ring. As if right on cue my phone starts buzzing in my hand and I quickly pull the head phones out and answer the phone.
"Hello?"
"Bella! Are you counting down the days until your 18?"
"Alice? I wasn't expecting you."
"Oh, I know, but if I had called you on my phone, you would have never answered it." This was true.
"Well, to answer you question, I'm actually dreading that."
"Why!?" she sounded shocked, didn't she know I hated my birthday.
"Because I know what you're going to do, Alice, and I don't like presents, or parties, or people fussing over me."
"Bella, I'm hurt!" I know she's faking it, I can hear the smile in her light, pixie voice.
"Can it, Alice. I want to talk to Edward."
"Wow, you're almost as impatient as Edward." I giggle into the phone at the thought of Edward being impatient to talk to me to.
"How was your day, love."
"Well…"
(Edward's Coming Home Today!!!)
Today was good for two reasons. Reason #1 After two very long, unbearable days, Edward and the Cullen's were finally coming home. They were leaving at 7:00 am and would be getting into the Seattle airport at 1:30 pm and driving the rest of the way back to Forks. Reason #2 was because we have a scheduled 2 hour delay for school which means I get to sleep in.
I feel his lips on mine in our reunion, his family standing a little way off, smiling at us. I see his topaz eyes that I've missed so much, I see his lips curve into that sexy, crooked smile I love, and I feel like I've died and gone to heaven. This is the only birthday present I need. Buzz…Buzz…Buzzz…Buzzzz… I jolt awake at the sound of my phone on my dresser. I practically trip over myself trying to get to it.
"Hello?" I say breathlessly.
"Bella, I'm sorry to wake you but, we are just getting out of security and we will be there in a while. I'll see you soon. Our flight number is 11, American Airlines"
"Mmmm, good, I can't wait. Love you, Edward."
"Love you Bella." I hang up the phone and gaze at it for a little while longer. A few more hours Bella, just a few more hours, I think to myself. Since I'm already up I feel my stomach grumble and I walk down the stairs to eat a piece of toast. Dad's car is gone, so he already left for the station.
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It's 8:40 and I'm getting dressed when I gear the home phone ring shrilly. I run down the stairs to get it.
"Hello?"
"Bella? You alright?" my dad sounds panicky, and really scared. I've never heard him this way before.
"Yeah, Dad, calm down." I assure him
"No! you have to turn on the television, right now. Any new station, just turn it on!"
"Ok, Ok!" I go over to the T.V. and turn it on. It's already on the news and a woman's looking frantically at the camera.
"4 minutes ago a plane hit one of the World Trade Centers, it was a commercial jet, no word yet on the flight number though we do know it was American Airlines." My stomach clenches painfully. The World Trade Towers? Think about all those people, oh my God. I can see behind her, the image of the Tower with thick black smoke billowing up above it. Then, from the right side, I see the outlines of another plane, and like in slow motion, it comes hurtling towards the next tower. And I see a mushroom cloud billow up when it hit, and my hand flies to my mouth.
"It's hit the other tower!" the woman is screaming into the camera. I can hear people in the background yelling and crying, People are running back and forth behind her, I think they are trying to confirm information.
"We have the flight numbers. Flight numbers 175 and 11 have hit the towers."
11, when she said that number, my entire body ripped in half. I am no more, I am nothing. It doesn't comprehend in my mind anymore. 11,11,11,11,11, nothing more, blank. He said 11 on the phone, he said 11. No,no,no,no,no,no,no,no. NO!
I'm crying, the room is spinning, I'm in a black heartless cloud, I can't see anymore. I am nothing. The phone rings, but from far away. I am falling. Edward's face is there, and then fire, everywhere. All around me, and Edward vanishes. Then my head slams on my living room floor. I scream.
"EDWARD!!!! EDWARD!!!! NOOO, PLEASE GOD NO!!!!! PLEASSSE!" My words turn into sobs. My mind revolves around every face. Alice, Esme, Rosalie, Carlisle, Emmett, Jasper. They are all gone. They all got on that plane. But Edward, my life, my love. I was never going to see him again, the thought can't get through my head. He has to be alive, he has to be.
The door opens I hear boots run across the floor, but I can't feel them, I can't feel anything.
"BELLA! Bella, honey what's wrong?" his voice sounds so worried, I don't' care anymore, I can't.
My voice comes out in hysterical sobs.
"The…Cullen's…were…on…Flight…11." I choke out.
"Oh my God." I can hear how stunned he is. "Oh Bella, oh…"
"NOOOOOOO!!!" he was making it real! It was just a bad dream! It can't be real!
"Dave! Call an ambulance! Bella, needs to go to the hospital!" Charlie's yelling into his phone, someone asks him a question, he hurries out an answer "The Cullen's were all on the Trade Tower planes." I sob harder than I ever have before.
A couple minutes pass and I hear the siren of an ambulance. Three men come into our house. They take me away with Charlie, to the hospital. I'm not sobbing now, but I can't see everything I hear is fuzzy. Charlie is calling to me but I can't see him.
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"She's going into shock. Get some fluids in her, set up a monitor…" I hear voices I don't recognize.
"Bella!"
"Sir, please wait outside, we'll let you see her as soon as you can." I hear Charlie and the stranger, I think I'm in the hospital.
"Bella? Bella can you hear me? My name is Doctor Stevens. If you can hear me raise your hand." I try, but I cant. My hand doesn't want to work. So, I twitch my finger.
"Good, Bella. You've got to stay with us now. Can you stay with me?" I try to say yes but, I can't, so I twitch my finger again.
"Good, alright."
I wake up and my eyes are filled with a harsh light. I can't see for a few minutes. There is something in my arm, and I want it out. I reach over but a hand pulls it back. I look at the hand and then the owner. Charlie sat next to me, smiling sadly.
"Hey Bells."
"Hey dad." My voice is so horse, and it hurts.
"You feelin' okay." He asks me. I nod.
"I'm gonna go get something for you to eat, hold on okay?" I nod again. He gets up and shuts the door quietly.
I'm left alone. Really alone. Edward will never ever come back. It was just 1 hour ago, well maybe more now, when everything was fine. I talked to him, I said I loved him. That was the last thing I ever said to the love of my life. I guess that was a good thing. I start to cry again. He was dead, his whole family. My whole family.
Because they were, Emmett's bear hugs. Jasper's calm figure standing by the door. Alice's bouncy light footsteps. Carlisle's warm welcome smile. Rosalie's, greasy, mechanic jeans, Esme's gentle nature. And it was totally and forever gone from me. 6 gaping holes in my heart, it couldn't take it. Then Edward, he was everything. Was. I cry even harder. His abs, his eyes, his crooked smile, his everything. Was so gone, so far away. His face is fading and I try to grasp it, but he slips out of my hold. He falls into a black abyss. The hole rips wide open, it's my whole chest, my whole body, it's all gone. I am now a shell, a skeleton of my former happy self.
I remember my birthday, how they were so excited to celebrate it. How I was now alone except for Charlie.
I roll over and cry on the pillow. I hear a knock on the door. I turn slightly and see Charlie pop his head in.
"Bells, Jake's here to see you." Jake? I don't remember a Jake? Then an image of a russet color, tall, gangly, teenager pops in my head and all the memories of Jake and I filled my head. He was my very best friend. Of course I knew who Jake was.
Jake walks in my room and the door shuts behind him.
"Aw, Bella." His face has tear streaks.
"Jake! Jake he's gone. He's gone!" he walks over and lies on the bed with me. He lets me cry into his shoulder. He strokes my hair, my back, he wipes the tears from my face.
"You'll get through Bells."
"How?" I sob some more.
"I don't know how. But we'll get threw it together."
"Together?" I ask him quietly. He starts to sob.
"My mom, was in Boston for her book…signing. She was on 11 too." He's crying silent tears. Now its my turn to comfort. 8 people I loved were lost. Sarah was now added to the list. Poor Jacob and Billy and Rebecca and Rachel! Everything is falling apart!
"Oh my God Jake!" Fresh tears are falling from my eyes for Sarah. She was like my surrogate mother along with Esme. How could this happen.
"We'll get through this ," he tries to comfort himself and me "We'll get through this."
I thought it would be for forever. I was wrong.
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Lots of Twilight Love,
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