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A/n: this is in the point of view of a soldier in World War II, I don't really know who, it could really be anyone.

Words Spoken in Pain

I always use to wonder why when soldiers are in a lot of pain why they would call out to their mothers. What is it about pain and the thought of facing death that reduces a man to a boy yelling, begging for him mom.

It always used to disgust me to hear that word coming out of their mouths.

We are soldiers for Christ's sake!

We don't need our mother, we are grown men,

Well, most of us.

In theory, all we need to know is that we can trust the man beside us.

I never thought I would be reduces to that too, but when I got a couple bullet holes in my stomach that all changed.

The pain is unbearable.

But the thought of dying alone is what's killing me.

But now as I lay here in the blood soaked snow in pain. I understand. The reason we feel the need to call out to our mothers is because she was someone I used to call when I was in trouble. She was always there to bail me out

I guess old habits die hard.

But that is not the only reason why.

I call out to my mom because when I was little she somehow made all the pain go away with one kiss on the scrap. Like a bucket load of morphine injected into you.

Even though I know it doesn't really work, it never really did, I just want my mom to appear and make the pain go away like she used to.

Because it seemed like when I was little if my mom was there everything

As long as she was there the pain would eventually go away.

I want it to go way, but doesn't everybody.

The pain is agonizing.

But the thought of dyeing alone is what's murdering me.

But the longer I lay here alone I realize that that isn't the real reason why we call out to love ones.

We call out because we don't want to face the pain alone. We don't want to face death alone. We want someone there to keep up grounded, to keep us company so you know that you are not suffering alone. I don't want to feel all alone as I die.

But I am.

So as I lay here alone in pain I would give anything to have someone here, anyone here to be with me in my pain. To be there, so I don't have to face the pain alone.

To be there so I don't have to face my death alone.

I just want the pain to end

If that is not possible all I want is someone here with me.

It doesn't have to be my mom, just someone to be with me as my vision blurs.

Death scares the shit out of me.

I don't want to die alone