Dear Fang,
How dare you? How dare you leave and think that I'll function properly without you? What gave you that ridiculous idea? That's all the anger I'm going to let you see right now. You're my other half and a part of me I thought would never leave. (But your reason must be super-extra good if you expect me to forgive you.)
The rest of me? It's screaming for you. I can't sleep when I remember you aren't going to be beside me the whole night or when I wake up. So now I'm all alone. It brings tears to my eyes when I see your things or hear anyone talking about you. I put on my smile though; I know I've got to be strong.
And remembering you in a tux? It's like this whole situation: surreal. I still find myself standing at the window or staring in the sky waiting for a sign of you. Sounds so un-Max of me, right? Well, you made me this way, Fang. You – I fell in love with you and I still remember every moment I've had with you. I don't want to remember you in the tux; it reminds me of the situation. I want to remember you smiling; us smiling; the flock smiling. Oh, they miss you too by the way. Just so you know, Iggy sometimes lays out an extra plate when he's making something for us too eat. Total usually ends up eating it. (He's getting fat so that's your fault too.)
I want to say I'm going to be strong and put my emotions last so no one gets hurt. But the flock can see behind my happy façade. It's no use trying. I want to say I'll be a good leader. But I'm just Max. And I always will be.
I just want you to come back safe, when ever that is. I understand that you left to keep me away from danger. I would have done the same thing. And the reason it hurts so much just proves this is emotion is real. This feeling is real.
All the times we've shared, everything you've said? I believe in it and that it's going to come back soon. As long I believe, I'll stay here waiting for you. Because Fang? You're worth it. All this raw pain and everything that's stirring in me.
And I'll never forget you, you remember that.
-Max.
So? Good? Bad? I thought Max should atleast have a say to Fang's... decision. I love someone, and if I could say something to him, I would say some of this too. So I just wrote this to let it out a little. I can't wait to see what James Patterson has written up next :D. And for those of you who have never read Maximum Ride? You should seroiusly consider reading it. It is super friggn awesom. The first book is titled: The Angel Experiment (which I have never read btw, but I truly love it.)
