A.N 1: I got this idea actually from a Naruto fic, sasuke and hinata pairings, i forgot the title or who's the writer, but if any of you are naruto's fic readers and recognize the plot please mention it to me, id like to give them some credit. I only follow the plot or the main idea, but i twisted it here and there so it fits with quinn and rachel.
A.N 2 : English is not my first language, so im sorry beforehand for any grammar and spelling mistakes.
A.N 3 : the last one, i don't own glee.
Rachel woke up, alone, not really surprising anymore for her. Maybe she would be more surprise when Quinn still in the bed with her. But, no, not gonna happen. Quinn prefers her morning coffee and newspaper, 6 months cuddled up with Rachel every morning after their wedding ceremony, Rachel thinks Quinn had enough.
Rachel glanced at the clock, its 7 a.m, and Quinn even doesn't need Rachel anymore to wake her up. She used to be cranky and grumpy all day long when Rachel woke her up at 8 a.m, and complaining about her workload at her law firm. Yes, Quinn's law firm. Quinn becomes a well known lawyer now in New York. They actually live their dream, except for their love life, or lack of. This is not something Rachel's prepare for. She prepared for never ending, ever lasting romance. Not the other way around.
This isn't marriage she was imagined.
After 8 years constantly on stage, Rachel decided to take a break, not really stopping, but more retreat behind the stage, she producing sometimes directing too. For her, her marriage life comes first, she wanted to chase what she think about the ideal concept of marriage. She doesn't mind at all when she played the 'housewife' role, at first Quinn worried about the sudden retirement from stage, but Rachel said she only wanted a break, and spent time with Quinn. But Rachel didn't say anything at all about how she feels. That's the problem actually, they barely talk. She just wanted to save their marriage, she always thought because Quinn was (is actually) super busy, she should be there for both of them, for the sake of the… the… well, you know.
But now, after 2 years of trying, she's had enough. She wants a divorce. She's tired, she's tired to be the one who's trying. Quinn even doesn't show any effort, not that she asked her to, she thinks Quinn doesn't realized it, and she's clueless. Like Finn, she's Finn's-clueless, and that's bad.
Rachel decided to go downstairs, only to find Quinn sipping her coffee, black of course, no sugar at all (eww… Rachel loves coffee, but a little bit taste other than bitter would be nice), and full concentrate on the newspaper in her right hand. Some paper scattered around the table too (Rachel let it slide for this time, she blamed Ms. Pillsbury for every time she felt the impromptu OCD kicks in, she spent too much time in her office in her junior year). She noticed Quinn already dress up in her… Quinn called it the-winning-suit. She already said to Rachel the night before she has an important client for tomorrow, and that will be today.
"Hey" said Rachel, still eyeing Quinn, and God she's freaking gorgeous, and stunning, and also hot. Rachel already have a fantasy in her mind after seeing Quinn in her tailor suit, fantasy between boss and her secretary or assistant to be exact. A very-very vivid fantasy, she could put any porn director in shame. But at the same time Quinn looks so stoic, no emotion, it almost like a statue. Maybe that's the reason she always winning all the cases, because she don't show any emotion, even when she's afraid or hesitant, she doesn't show it.
"Morning Rach" even her voice is flat, no excitement at all. She just continue to reads, and spare me a split second glanced.
"Quinn, we need to talk", Quinn lifted her head, staring at Rachel, "No, actually, I need to talk… to say something to you…" Rachel seems hesitant at first, but she made her mind. She need to, for herself now, she wanted a fresh start, as a free woman.
"About?"
Rachel gulped, "I want a divorce" Rachel release it in one breath.
Then, it's silent.
…A tense one.
After a good five minutes Quinn finally put the newspaper down, and she looks confuse for the first time. "Say what?"
Rachel wants to scream, so she screams, a loud one. And cursing too, she just likes the dramatic effect, Quinn's thought. "Fuck! Quinn, I want a divorce, didn't you hear me?"
"I heard you"
"I already signed the paper, it's on the table in your office". Quinn just stares at Rachel, so Rachel continue, "I hope you… cooperate this time, because this…" Rachel gestured her point finger between Quinn and herself, "isn't working, this is not a marriage I was hoping for!" Quinn actually cringed when Rachel said her last sentence.
And for a split second Rachel could swear she saw a sad expression written on Quinn's face. Doesn't know what to say or to do, Quinn finally ask "who's your lawyer?"
"I… What…?", Rachel blinked, "You only care about who's my lawyer? Dammit Quinn could you even more careless about me?!"
"You want a divorce, right?" Rachel only huff on Quinn's question, "And what question exactly do you want me to ask you? To… you know, showing that I care?" she sounded serious, stern, full lawyer mode. Rachel actually feels sorry for every person who ever shared the court room with Quinn. "You said what you want, did you considered what you said for me for the last 7 minutes, were something… something…", Quinn now moving her hands frantically, showing that she's searching for the right words without being harsh to Rachel.
"Never mind…" Quinn finally said after released her breath heavily. "What do you want Rachel?"
"I already told you, I want a…"
"I know!" Quinn snapped. "I mean… What do you want from me? From… us?". Quinn's voice gets smaller until the end of her sentence.
For the first time, Rachel's determined act, faltered a little bit, just a bit. What does she want, really? "I…" she began, but she stops. There are so many. First she wants to be with Quinn, she wants to be intimate with Quinn, to be close with Quinn. No, intimate would be overstatement, she just want a kiss every time she wake up, maybe she can schedule make out session too, she can get Kurt and Blaine's schedule for setting an example. Not for their Eskimo kisses, Rachel doesn't need Eskimo kisses, she wanted to kiss Quinn on the lips, with tongue, yeah, that would be awesome, because Rachel really like Quinn's tongue. She missed when they're talking too, bickering almost, she's intelligent, and witty, sometimes too blunt, but Rachel can handled that, she's rational, always keeping Rachel's feet on the ground when Rachel imagining or hoping things too much. Rachel lied tho', Quinn actually a caring person, in her own way of course. Rachel missed Quinn's surprises, she sometimes surprised her with showed up in the middle of rehearsal bringing her favorite coffee and lunch for both of them, staying for 30 or so minutes before go back to her office, or buying Rachel random things that end up being Rachel's favorite.
Basically, Rachel just wants Quinn to be around. Again. Like she used to.
"I… don't know Quinn".
thanks for reading.
