Title: Finding Him…
Characters (Main): Kaui (Pronounced Kawi) Drea, Sirius Black, Lily Evens, James Potter, Ellie Downer and Remus Lupin.
Summary:
Chapter 1:
"HOW COULD YOU?" I yelled at my father, my mother had passed away when I was thirteen.
"Kaui, calm down. I'm sorry that…" My father tried to explain, but I cut him off.
"IF YOU WERE SORRY YOU WOULDN'T BE TREATING ME LIKE THIS! LIKE A CHILD!" I screamed, running up stairs to my bedroom.
"Kaui! Come back!" I heard my father yell to me as I reached my bedroom door.
"SCREW YOU!" Was all I had to say as I shut and locked my door and ran and jumped onto my four poster bed.
I screamed and cried into my black silk pillows. I was often found doing this. Crying and screaming. I had cried and screamed when my mother, the one person who had really loved me, had passed away. I had cried and screamed when I had been rapped nearly one moth ago by someone I recognised but could not place. And I had cried and screamed when the boy (Now man) who had promised to love me and never forget me was forced to move away because his parents didn't want us seeing each other anymore. I mean am I really that bad. Yes. But this was totally different. For I was set to marry. I was arranged to marry a man I had never met, nor heard of. A man by the name of Severus Snape. I knew my dad didn't want this. But it was just easier to blame him. When I was just a child my mother and father were attacked and were made to promise that when I turned eighteen I would have to marry the Snape's only son, Severus. Because of my arranged marriage I was also expected to become an exchange student, moving from my school, Bouxbattons, to Hogwarts. This was so because they wanted me to 'get to know' my soon to be 'hubby'. But, of course, I would never love him. No, I would never love him the way I love him. I can and will only love one man. His name you ask? Seb. Or most commonly known as Sirius Edmund Black.
Flashback
Winter, 1972, August.
It was an early winter morning in the year 1972 and I was sitting on a bench that was surrounded by two foot high white glowing snow. I watched as a small robin flew gracefully towards the large oak tree, situated behind the bench that I was seated on, to feed the smaller birds sitting in a small nest almost completely covered in snow. I jumped as two soft, rather large hands slid over my blue with purple and green flecked eyes, making the beautiful site before me vanish into complete darkness.
"Guess who?" I heard Sirius whisper in my ear seductively.
I smiled as I replied.
"Seb, I told you that we can't be seen in public together."
The two warm hands removed themselves slowly from my eyes. I turned around in my seat so as I could face Sirius, who had sat down next to me. He held a sad and confused expression on his face and in his eyes.
"Who is Seb?" He asked, while his voice broke with emotion.
"He is the guy of my dreams who I will love and remember forever." I replied as he lowered his head.
"D…Do I know him?" He inquired while he kept his head down.
I smiled cheekily at him
"I expect that you would seeing that he is sitting right beside me, Sirius Edmund Black." I replied kissing him on the cheek lightly.
He raised his head confusedly before he understood. He gave me that smile that he gave me and me only. (A/N: This si my dream relationship!!)
"Can you do something for me?" He asked, blushing.
"Yeah, what is it?" I inquired, confused.
"Promise me that you'll love me forever and that you'll never forget me?" He replied.
"As long as you promise me the same thing." I said, smiling.
"I promise" He replied.
"I promise, too" I said, leaning in and kissing him softly on the lips but anyone could tell that it was full of love.
That was until he broke it.
"There is a reason why I made you promise that," He said standing up, "I cant see you again. My parents are making us all move." He said again with a sad expression on his face and in his eyes.
"When? Where? Why?" I asked with tears in my eyes.
"Tonight we are moving into London because my parents don't want me to see you again." He replied, slipping his arms around my waist as I stood up.
"I'm sorry." I whispered placing my head onto his chest.
"It's not your fault." He replied.
"Don't ever forget me." I whispered, crying softly into his shoulder.
"Never."
"I love you." I whispered.
"I love you, too. With all my heart." He replied into my hair.
And that was the last I ever saw of the boy (now man) that I loved and always would.
End Flashback
Winter, 1979, August.
I screamed for one last time before I ran into my bathroom. Grabbing a small bottle from my bathroom counter, I walked up to my sink, brushed my hair and began the long procedure of dying my hair a chocolate brown. After an hour I stared into my mirror. My hair which was once a golden blonde was now shoulder length chocolate brown and wavy. My blue with purple flecks eyes were blood shot from my sobbing. I shook as I picked up a small piece of glass from the bottle I had smashed. I lightly ran the shard over my left wrist . This is when my word turned upside down and dark.
Two Weeks Later In St. Mungo's Hospital
"Why Kaui? Has your life really been that bad?" My father asked me, worry lines visible only slightly on his forehead and some on his cheeks.
I stayed silent, staring up at the ceiling with tears in my eyes. It had suddenly become very interesting. I was trying as hard as I could to not let them fall, but I failed. One by one I let them fall down my cheek. My dad got up from his chair, sitting on the side of my hospital bed as he placed a hand on top of mine. Looking at his aged face I realised that he was crying too.
"You have no idea." I replied, shaking.
"Yes I do," He said, seriously, "I went through things like you have. Sometimes ten times worse."
I stared into the eyes of what usually was a very cheerful and delightful man.
"Can I ask you a question?" My father asked after what felt like years.
"MmmHmm." Was my lazy reply.
"Why do you always get so moody in winter?"
I felt my eyes start to burn from trying to suppress my tears that threatened to fall sooo bad. My father thought for a while before saying,
"Has this got anything to do with Sirius?"
At that point I couldn't control my body, my emotions, my tears. I burst into a fit of sobs and tears as I nodded. My father leaned forward and shushed into my ear trying so very hard to calm me.
"Shhh…Hey, it's alright…This year will be different…Better…I can feel it." My dad said rocking me back and forth.
"You promise?" I asked.
"I promise." He replied.
My father and I stayed that way for a long time until I slowly and sub-coconsciously slipped into a deep and dreamless slumber.
End Chapter One
A/N: I hope you liked this chapter of my story. I have no idea how long my story will last because I sometimes don't complete the stories I write but I usually get sick of my stories however I really like this one a lot. Please review because I need ideas and comments.
Much love and respect,
Holly
