My first ever try at a song-fic! I wanted to have a try, I hope you enjoy it! Depending wheter it's liked or not I may add more song-fics, not sure - it all matters if people like it.
This first song fic is from Sawyer's POV and the song is The Reason by Hoobstank... enjoy!
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
Sawyer sat at the edge of the waterfall he and Kate had found those many weeks ago, except this visit wasn't so happy. He started down yet again at the crumpled piece of piece of paper in his hand, the one he had carried for so many years, the one that carried all the memories but not even one good, he stared down at the letter.
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
Strangely even though he was looking at the letter, it brought him to a memory ever so present, ever so real and ever so terrible. He had hurt the only person he had ever cared about, the only person he did care about.
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear
He had argued with Kate, he had been downright terrible. She had hurt him ever so slightly, that much he couldn't even remember what she had done, but Sawyer being as proud as he ever was wouldn't listen, he told her to go. He hadn't spoken to her since then, he hadn't spoken to her in 3 whole days, and it was slowly killing him.
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
Kate had changed him, she had shown him how to love without even knowing it, she had taught him how to care without even knowing it, she had brought out the old James inside, he didn't want to be Sawyer anymore, he knew that he just wanted to be the person inside who had stayed caged in for so many years trough the pain and the suffering, but Kate never caused him pain… apart from now, now he was hurting more that he had ever hurt before.
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
Then Sawyer decided, he knew that if he ever wanted to be that man again, he would have to start again, he wanted to start again, he wanted to start again with Kate. And the first step to moving on would be to let go, let go of the past that had haunted him for so long…
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
He screwed the letter up in his hand, clenching his fist tightly, and then he threw the letter into the crystal blue water and he watched it as it sank into the depths below, then he stood up and ran, ran away from the past and to his future.
He found Kate exactly where he knew he would, stood on the beach. He ran to her side and grabbed onto her tightly.
"I'm sorry Katie" He breathed, hoping she would forgive him. She didn't reply so Sawyer kissed her passionately, lovingly and to his amazement she kissed him back.
"Sawyer…" She breathed smiling at him as they broke apart.
"No, i'm not Sawyer anymore… Call me James" Sawyer said, strangely at peace for the first time in years as Kate melted in his arms.
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
So did you like it? Please let me know, if you liked it I'll write more!
Also if you want to see any certain songs just write them out in a review, I'll check out the lyrics and see what I can do! Thanks!
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