Alfred didn't get it. It wasn't like he was dating Ivan, or that he even liked him in that way. Ivan was his best friend and they pretended to flirt but it wasn't like Alfred seriously loved him. (Legit not denial) So why did it hurt so much when Ivan started to pretend to flirt with another guy. Not only that but the guy had the same nickname as him, America, from the anime Hetalia.
He and Ivan had come up with so many funny stories when they pretended to flirt, among them included their child, "Alaska" or Andrei, including Alaska's 2p, Alfred being possessive, putting everyone who hurt Ivan on a kill list, hell! Alfred had even pretended to propose to Ivan and he had said yes!
And it made Alfred feel so close to Ivan, one of his only friends. Mind you, Alfred only had two friends, Ivan and Lovino, and whether he admitted it or not he was very dependent on them, without them he would be nothing. All of them were pretty bad at making friends but recently Ivan had been coming out of his shell and making a ton of new friends.
Alfred was happy for him, he really was. It was great that he was making more friends. But Alfred felt like the more friends that Ivan got, the less time that Alfred got to spend with him. Now Ivan was pretending to flirt with another guy and it made him feel less special. It used to be just him who could do that with Ivan, it almost felt like he was being replaced.
By no means did Alfred want to tell Ivan who to be friends with. He didn't want to tell Ivan that he couldn't talk to the other "America" anymore. He didn't want to ruin Ivan's friendship or tell him what to do. But he was feeling pushed away and it hurts… a lot.
They used to make jokes about what "America" would do if "Russia" broke up with him. They said that "America" would go on a killing spree until everyone in his way of "Russia" was dead. Alfred was starting to second guess that now. He thought that if "America" found "Russia" cheating on him he would just shut down. A couple tears would be shed but beyond that he would feel empty and broken. He felt tossed away and used and… Dammit it was how Alfred felt right now.
Well that's how my crappy life is going, how about you guys?
