Josh
I own nothing but my own Ideas
I am important. I know I am important, because I was named after our creator, Josh. We named the street Joshville, after him. Every day, Josh fills my head with demands. Some are important to my health , like ordering me to eat, run away from fires and keep clean. Some are important to my mentality, such as studying myself into the ground, until I crash. Then he will order me to restore myself. I am an unfocused Sim, and I need my creator Josh to keep my Life on track. I am lucky to have him.
Josh is the one in control of my social life. Sure, sometimes I talk to people and make friends, but if Josh disapproves, I find myself being rude. I know Laura doesn't like being teased, but I keep doing it anyways. I think I am not meant to like Laura. I hope I don't end up sabotaging her, Like mother does to her Enemy Sandy.
I often wonder what my romantic life will be like. Mother is endowed with an Outgoing personality, and a need for more romance than any one man can fill. The more disapproving ones call her cheater. She spends as much time winning them back as she does finding new conquests. I hope I am the sort to stick with one person, and perhaps a child. I do not think I am built for that much Excitement. But it would be better than a boring life.
The most important thing Josh reminds me of is to stay interesting. In our backyard, there is a graveyard, next to the doorless room. Every day, Josh takes me outside to look at the graveyard. It is an important reminder, that if I don't stay, interesting, important, and functional, I may end up in there myself. One day, I might light a fire, and Lie down on a nice rug, before screaming as we go up in flames. Some nights, I feel like those who belonged in the graveyard still haunt us. I know out maid is a ghost, what If others are.
There is also a diving board. Mother says, that one day, father jumped off it into a glass table. It is a good thing I have Josh in my life to prevent me from doing that. That sort of death wouldn't be interesting, after all. That's just sim stupidity.
Once I wondered , if I study hard in school, could I get away from Josh. But why would I want to be away from Josh? Josh keeps our house fancy. Josh keeps me eating. Josh buys me toys, an keeps me focused, and safe from fires. Sure, he brings those fires, but he keeps me safe from them.
When Laura was born, Josh put her in a walled room. I thought surely Mother has angered Josh, and worried he was starving her to death when her ghost never haunted me. I prayed he would decide otherwise. My prayers were rewarded, as Josh was keeping mother focused so she wouldn't kill Laura. I have Laura in my Life because of Josh, even if I'm not supposed to like her. (And I don't, really. She's a nobody to me).
And every day, I play with my toys, and prey to Josh, and follow his will. Sometimes, my brain gets stupid and tries to disagree, but I keep faith that Josh will forgive my foolishness, and work with me through it. Sometimes I arrive smelling Like pee, because Josh ordered me up, to get to school on time, and I threw a fit. I didn't make it to the bathroom because of it, as Josh decided catching in the bus, was more important than my hygiene.
I don't want to end up in military school after all. There's no Josh in military school. Perhaps if you're lucky, you too can have a Josh one day.
Its new Years eve, and here I am , writing an interpretation of how a Sim sees the Player.
Oh well, Happy New year!
