I don't think about what I want. I don't mean I'm not selfish, I mean that I don't sit around and wonder if I should have done this or wish I'd had that. I don't see the point. So I don't know if this is what I would have wanted; I didn't even know it could happen until it did. Perhaps in a different life I had a death wish. That would be…appropriate. So I doubt I would have wanted this, but who can change it now? Maybe tomorrow things will be different, or the tomorrow after that, or the tomorrow after that. But for now I just keep going. I do what I want when I want. I don't expect anything of the future.

Funny, how things turn out, isn't it?