Title: Boulevard of broken dreams

Description: Takes place at the beginning of 2x14. What if Blair hadn't been interrupted by Dan when she was telling Serena about her New Year's Eve's secret...

A/N: Hi, that's my first story so please be nice! :D

I apologize in advance for any typos or grammar mistakes, unfortunately English isn't my first language. I hope you enjoy my fic, I don't know if it'll become a multi-chap story or stay a one shot, that's up to you!

Please review and tell me what you think.


«B! OMG I missed you so much! »cried Serena in the middle of the hallway.

«Not as much I missed you» said Blair while she fondly hugged her best friend.

«Ehy did Jack finally find Chuck? »asked innocently the blonde.

BUM, a thud sounded in the Blair's head.

Here, all her problems and thoughts synthesized in a single sentence, or better in two words...Chuck and Jack.

The first was the man who created in her such a whirlwind of emotions, anger, hate, concern, but, among these, only one stood out: her almost unconditional love for him.

The second, unknown a few weeks ago, was able to arouse in Blair nothing but disgust and abhorrence.

''Ahhh if only Serena knew'' brooded Blair ''I don't think she would name that insect so easily''.

Her heartbeat significantly rushed only by the New Year's Eve' memory, Blair couldn't stop think about it, with time the memory didn't fade and the guilt was even multiplied.

'' OK I had absolutely tell somebody this secret or I'll totally freak out! Only Serena could understand and comfort me...at least I hope so! Strength and courage Blair, you can do this.''

«S, I need to talk to you, I did a really stupid thing...»

Immediately Serena interrupted her friend «What did you do B? Does this involve Chuck? » she guessed, suspicious by the lack of answer to her previous question.

«I told Chuck that I love him...» Blair sighed, deciding to start to ease the conscience with the least of her sins.

«OMG B, that's amazing! » smiled a relief Serena.

«AMAZING? No it's terrible! Not only he didn't say it back, but he disappeared for an entire month! » Blair almost shouted, irritated by the Serena's reaction, optimistic as usual and ready to hope for the best.

There was nothing good in the situation, like in her entire life; never a scheme or a project that were fully realized, never a stable relationship that could entirely erase her trust issues or the abandon's ones, for not mention her self-esteem, or better her lack of it...

«Hum no, don't worry B! I'm sure that Chuck loves you back and trust me, he spent his holidays thinking of you..» the blonde continued to babble, only stopped by the little brunette who finally had manage to come out of the maze that her thoughts were.

«I wouldn't say Serena...but I didn't confess everything and I don't even know if I have the strength to do it...»

«What are you saying? You know you can always count on me for everything, friends don't judge but they only forgive» and to stress her point Serena smiled encouraging.

Blair, with teary eyes, consoled by her friend's word, finally started to talk, but right then the bell rang...

Decided to share her secret, the little brunette dragged as soon as she could the taller friend into an empty room.

«Blair what are you doing? » Serena hissed « we need to go to class! I know how much you hate to be late...»

«Hush Serena! We'll skip this class, I don't care...I can't wait, it's too important! » Blair angrily whispered.

''It has to be really bad if she is willing to skip the class'' Serena reflected while she followed her friend among the empty desks.

The silence was broken by a dry sob that Blair was trying in vain to choke, followed by many others, the worry raised in Serena who immediately hugged her best friend's little trembling form.

«Shhh B, calm down now, I'm with you and together will fix everything...»

«No Serena, nothing in this situation is fixable...there is no remedy» Blair continued with her eyes red and swollen from crying, «Chuck isn't himself, he arrived from Thailand this morning, unconscious! I know how much he really suffers for his loss, he thinks he's all alone now and he feels like the whole world betrayed him...»

«B slows down, so also 'this terrible mistake' involves Chuck? » Serena perplexed questioned.

« I slept with his uncle Jack, S! And I regret it so much! I-I don't know what to do! If Chuck ever finds this out he'll think that I'm a slut and even worse, he'd suppose that even I had betrayed and quitted on him. That's the last thing I want, because it's so untrue...I love him more than I love myself, so much it consumes me».

Finally Blair confessed her guilt and hysterical tears vent her.

Serena, totally shocked by the confession, rushed to comfort her beloved friend...

«Shhh Blair... stop crying, now we'll try to work this out...we can do it because we are together! » the blonde whispered while she stroked her friend's hair, «I just don't understand, h-how that happened? »

When Blair heard the question, she broke again to weep and clung more into her friend's embrace, so Serena shook her head for telling to not answer, seen the brunette's bad reaction.

The two girls remained still, gripping to each other, sat on the cold floor of that desolate room, lost in their mind and thoughts, brought back to reality only by the ring of the bell that indicated the end of the first cheerful day after Christmas holidays.

With no word, both of them stood up and went out, wishing they could leave there all the secrets that haunted so much...

But they knew it wasn't possible so the two walked down a boulevard of broken dreams.

What the Queens didn't know was the hidden camera that had recorded them for the entire time in that room not so empty.

BEEP-BEEP!

B took her phone and read the text, right then she turned it off with a fake smile on her face.

She was Blair Waldorf, Queen B, she would allow none to see her crying or collapsing, so with her head high and a proud walk, she entered in the car, crashing the phone in her purse.


Here even the walls talk, true B? Queen not only of Constance but also of hearts?

You know what I mean.

XOXO Gossip Girl