A/N: I realized that I have not written anything for this pairing and decided that I simply to too thus I began wracking my brain for ideas. In my drabble series on my old account, I did some death tributes and so I do another one for Mello.

Theme: Dying.

I really don't care that I'm dying. I've done my part and if the bastard of an albino is correct then this case will be easily solved because of my death. I've at least done one thing useful.

I don't care that I'm dying because I have nothing to live for. I've lost everything. I have no reason to keep going.

My hero, my idol, the man I strived to be like is dead. Perhaps I should feel honored that I get to die the same way that he did. He's gone, so who do I have to look up to? No one, no one without him.

I'm never going to beat Near either. I did some things he couldn't and that's the best I can hope for. My dream of being better than him will never come true and that's another thing I don't have to live for.

But the most important thing of all is Matt. The is no one in the world I could ever love more than him and he died because of me. He's dead and it's all my fault. How can I live knowing that?

How can I live without him? A world without Matt is not one that I want to be in and I'm glad that I'll never have to. It's great that I'm dying because now I don't have to live without him.

I'm also not leaving him because he's gone. I won't leave him alone and lifeless, because he has told me that his life is nothing without me. If he were alive, I'd feel so guilty leaving him in that kind of pain because you don't do that to someone you love.

It's okay that I'm dying. I've got nothing to live for anyway.

A/N: I'll probably do one similar from Matt's POV in his death scene.