So ... here's the deal. This was originally a one-shot, but a few people asked for a continuation ... and ask and you shall recieve I guess. So I guess I will just continue writing one-shot type of deals for the chapters. I've changed the status from being complete to "in progress". So, here is Part One.

BTW, I do not own the Teen Titans. Do I wish I did? Hell ya! But sadly, I don't. Enjoy!


"No You're Not"

Tears streamed down her face, marking her cheeks with the pains of her life. She had not left her room for fear that her fellow team mates would have found out about her "unusual" break down.

She had spent the entire day crying and tried so desperately to keep her powers in check. She only slipped a few times, but the others merely thought that it was just her meditating and something or someone had been unlucky enough to disturbed her.

The tears continued to flow and she moved quickly, and quietly, to the bathroom all the while each stepped pained her, and yet each step brought her another step closer to some type of comfort. In the bathroom she could fill the bath tub up with warm water and just drown her sorrows away ... or at least try.

Within moments she came to the door, and as she went to turn the knob a wave of panic hit her and she quickly pulled her hood up over her face. A few mere second later the door opened and the light poured out of the room.

Beast Boy was standing in the doorway. He looked up and took a few steps back, obviously surprised. "AH," he screamed. He took a few seconds to notice that it was just Raven. He smiled sheepishly, "Sorry Raven, you startled me," he paused, and then looked down the hallway both to the left and right of him. "What are you doing up this late at night?" He asked casually.

Raven opened her mouth to say something but closed it quickly. She defiantly did not want Beast Boy to know that there was something wrong, although a little piece of her wanted so badly to just seek some kind of comfort. She pushed this feeling aside and shook her head lightly.

"Raven, is everything ok?" Beast Boy asked a little worried.

Feeling a little nervous she turned around and started walking away. She would come back when she knew that the green titan was asleep. As she did so she said in her usual monotone, "I'm fine." The dark sorceress didn't want anyone to see her in this state. It had become a ritual for her. She would lock herself in her room and claim to be meditating when in reality she would cry her heart out. She cried for herself, and for those of her team. She was empathic, and that meant feeling the emotional turmoil her friends were in. She could handle the emotional baggage of her friends; that was nothing compared to her own emotions. Although, one emotion got to her more than the others; Love. Love was an emotion she wanted to feel for herself. She felt the way Starfire loved Robin and how Robin loved Starfire. It was something she had found herself longing for.

In any other situation, Beast Boy would have shrugged and thought nothing of it, but he refused to ignore her this time. Something bit at him, telling him something wasn't right.

He sprinted forward, "No you're not. Raven, Raven wait up," he said in a high whisper.

Raven quickened her pace, she was not in any condition to speak, let alone have a conversation. "Go away," she said demandingly.

Beast Boy turned into a cheetah and ran past her, then turned back into his human self and stood before her. "Raven, what's the matter? Why do you seem ... upset?"

Raven grimaced under her hooded cloak. She clenched her teeth, "I'm not upset," she stated in an almost deadly voice.

If Beast Boy had any brains he would have backed down at the tone of voice she said that in, but something in the back of his head told him she shouldn't be alone. Not this time.

Raven moved around him and into her room, which happened to be only a few steps away. Beast Boy turned into a fly and flew in after her.

"Get out of my room," Raven said, her voice a little louder than a whisper, but not as demandingly as it was only mere seconds ago.

Changing back into his human self Beast Boy tried asking again, "Raven, what's wrong?"

The tears that Raven had tried to hold back were starting to make themselves known. Her back was towards Beast Boy, so Raven was grateful for that.

So there they stood, Raven facing her bed, and Beast Boy looking at her backside, pondering what he should do.

Gathering her strength and sniffling a sob she looked side ways, her face still hidden by her cloak. "Get out," she stated emotionless.

Beast Boy stood up straighter, "No, some thing is telling me not to ... not until you tell me what's wrong."

"Nothing is wrong!" Raven nearly shouted, as a candle exploded from her night stand.

Beast Boy raised an eyebrow. "Raven, something must be wrong, I can feel it."

For some reason, Raven found that a comfort, yet she continued to deny it, "I'm not upset, just leave."

Beast Boy closed the gap between them. He placed both his hands on both sides of her shoulders and turned her around so that she was facing him and gently took her hood off. "Raven, you're—" he stopped, to see any trace of Raven crying was highly rare. He decided against making it a big deal and smiled softly, "It looks like you need a friend."

Raven had not looked at him, but after saying that her downward glancing eyes met his. The once silent tears now flowed freely. She fell to her knees and Beast Boy quickly fell to his beside her, he wrapped his arms around her and shockingly she did not resist.

"Sssshhhh," Beast Boy said softly. "Raven, you need to tell me what's wrong. How long have you been crying? Why have you been crying?" He asked a little too quickly then he had meant.

"You wouldn't understand," she spit out between sobs.

Beast Boy took his right hand and lifted her chin so that they were looking straight at each other. "Try me," he said simply.

If Raven wasn't in such a vulnerable state she would have blasted him away, but her sadness, her loneliness, forced her to voice her thoughts. She looked down, holding her head in her hands. "I'm tired of being alone. I'm tired of feeling love that isn't meant for me to feel. I want to know what it's like to be the object of someone else's affection," she blurted out.

Taking a moment to register what was just said, Beast Boy looked ... shocked. He knew exactly what she was going through, minus the actually feeling those emotions.

"Raven, listen to me, you're probably right. I'm sure I don't have any idea what it is you're going through. How hard it is to watch everyone around you fall in love or to watch someone you do love to say that they are not deserving of it. How hard it is to think you have found it, but learn that you have to let it go because in some strange way, it wasn't meant to be..." he trailed off.

Looking up at him, she didn't know what to say. Maybe he did understand or maybe he was just trying to trick her. She didn't know, she didn't care, she just wanted someone to comfort her.

Beast Boy continued, "Raven, how long have you been doing this?"

The gothic titan didn't want to answer, tears still silently flowed. Beast Boy didn't seem to mind. Instead of forcing her to answer, he sat down Indian style, and pulled her into his lap. At first she was hesitant, but with a few coaxes Beast Boy managed to get her to sit in his lap.

That's all she needed, she just wanted someone to hold her. She couldn't believe it was the goofy, green titan that she had lived with all these years, but she didn't care.

"Before this, I felt sometimes, that nobody's ever held me down and forced me to cry or made me hug them. It's like I say 'oh I'm fine' and I walk away. Nobody has ever reached out for me and said, 'no you're not'," Raven stated.

Whispering into Raven's ear, "That's because you've never let anyone in." He paused for a few moments then continued, "Raven, you're not super woman you know. You're half human. You have emotions just like everyone else. You can't pretend everything's ok when it clearly isn't ... and now that you've let me in, you can come to me whenever you need me. I'm always here ... and before you say anything else, I promise I won't tell anyone."

Raven looked up at him, "Beast Boy, I know this will sound strange coming from me, but can I ask a favor of you?"

Smiling, Beast Boy said, "Anything."

She sighed, "Will you ... stay with me tonight? I don't want to be alone." She looked ashamed.

Beast Boy nodded, and Raven teleported them to her bed. They were still in the same position as they were before on the floor. After settling, Beast Boy leaned against the head board as Raven snuggled into him.