Okay so I'm guilty of loving Jesse St. James because it's the Groff, I can't help myself. Anyway, I'm mad at him for what he did to Rachel however I'd like to add a little twist to it. I doubt that I'll add chapters to this but if you all like it then who knows.. maybe I will (:
The rest of the Vocal Adrenaline members had all cleared out. Jesse St. James stood alone in their choir room at Carmel High School. It was nice to be back yet there was something missing. The choir room at Carmel High was so much better than the one at McKinley High. Jesse refused to admit that he enjoyed his time there. Just the idea would make all of his Vocal Adrenaline friends laugh. Besides, what was the point in thinking about how he wished he could still be a student there? After what he and the rest of VA had done he would be known as public enemy number one. His chances of being accepted there were zero, possibly even less than zero.
'I can't believe I'm doing this.' thought Quinn Fabray as she stomped through the abandoned Carmel High halls. 'That jerk deserves this though. Mr. Schue might've stopped the boys but he can't stop me." Quinn's hands were gently placed on her stomach as she made her way to the choir room. She knew that Jesse had to be around here somewhere considering his range rover was still out in the parking lot.
As soon as Quinn found the choir room she spotted Jesse standing alone. This was her chance. Quinn walked up behind him, tapped him on the shoulder and right when he turned around she slapped him in the face. It was the hardest slap she had ever given. If she wasn't so angry with him she'd probably fuss over her hand which was now just as red as his face. "That's what you get you asshole. Did you really think that you'd get away with breaking Rachel's heart and then completely humiliating her? If anyone is going to make Rachel Berry miserable it'll be me. You had no right to do that!" Quinn ranted, with each word her voice got louder and more frustrated.
Jesse's hand immediately flew up to his face whenever Quinn slapped him. Heck it was more like a smack, almost a punch. He grimaced in pain, rubbed the future home of a red hand print gingerly but stayed quiet as she yelled at him. "Calm your hormones Fabray. I swear, on any other occasion I'd be yelling at you right now however considering you're with child I'm making an exception but if I still have a hand print on my face during our regionals performance I'll really give you something to shout about." Jesse stated in a snarky tone.
His snarky tone made Quinn squeal in frustration as she went in for another slap. Jesse caught her this time. He blocked the slap by grabbing her wrist to stop her. "Now, now. You really shouldn't over do it. I'd hate for you to go in labor here. That wouldn't be good at all." Jesse gave a cocky grin as he released her hand.
Quinn didn't know what to do. She was so angry with him. She was furious. "I don't know what Rachel ever saw in you. I can't stand the fact that she's wasting tears on you. You're such an idiot, she deserved so much better than you!"
"Honey you should be thrilled. I'm going to be out of her life so she'll get her chance now won't she?"
"Well, yeah. I guess." Quinn said, her voice was still angry but it was also clear that his answer confused her.
"She hates me now. That's good for you and the rest of New Directions. It's even good for me." Jesse continued as he looked away from Quinn. He turned around, beginning to stare out the large window again. His arms were crossed as Quinn stood beside him, also looking out the window.
Quinn had timidly stepped beside him. When coming to Carmel High she had expected that she'd attack him, yell and then leave. Talking more into the subject hadn't even crossed her mind. Her hands were back on her stomach, Beth gently kicked her. It was almost as if Beth was trying to tell her mother that she needed to continue this conversation. "Uh, what do you mean?" She asked awkwardly.
"Isn't it obvious?" Jesse commented, his eyes stayed on the scene outside the window. It was a sunny day, a soccer team could be seen playing in one of the school's various fields. The people that Jesse could see appeared to be happy. How lucky.
"Not really.." Quinn mumbled which caused Jesse to roll his eyes. "That was rhetorical." He paused, out of the corner of her eye Quinn looked up at him. His face was expressionless but she saw that his eyes seemed confused, he seemed like he was trying to figure something out. Maybe the right words? The right excuse? Lie?
"Rachel hates me. Try to picture all of that hate in that petite body of hers, I'm assuming you've heard of the statement 'small but mighty'. She'll be able to use it, add it to her determination so that when it comes time for regionals there'll be no question in who wins. New Directions is good, not incredibly professional but good none the less. Rachel Berry will be a star someday. It's inevitable. She was meant to be one."
Quinn didn't believe what he was saying so she interrupted, "Okay James - " "St. James." "Whatever, we get that she hates you but how does this help you? I don't understand."
"Quinn, this is my last year at Carmel High. I'm a senior and I'll be graduating soon. I've been accepted to Julliard. Do you know where that is?"
"New York?"
"Yes, that's right. New York. Rachel doesn't know that I got accepted there. I couldn't tell her. She was so busy planning out how next year would be, she never considered me going away for school. There's no way that she'd be able to handle a long distance relationship. She needs someone who will be around for when she needs a hug or simply just needs to talk."
"Hold up, are you trying to say that you did all of this on purpose?" Quinn still didn't know if he was being truthful. This was Jesse St. James she was dealing with. It was quite possible that he was messing with her.
Jesse finally turned to face Quinn, "I was given a job to do. After completing the job I was supposed to return to Vocal Adrenaline. I never intended to attack Rachel with those disgusting eggs. That was not my plan. I was under pressure, if I showed mercy I would no longer be accepted at either school."
"This job, it was to spy on us I assume."
Jesse shook his head, "No, unlike popular belief I was only there on behalf of Ms. Corcoran."
"What, you were there to seduce Rachel and secretly introduce her to her mother?" Quinn asked sarcastically but then replayed what she had just said in her mind. "Oh my gosh.. that's actually what you were doing wasn't it?" She asked again, this time more willing to believe his next answer.
The boy nodded, "Basically although Shelby preferred to call it 'befriending'" a small smile formed on his lips.
Quinn saw this smile and sighed as she remembered all of the stories Rachel had told the glee girls about her relationship with Jesse, "You told her that you loved her.. Did you.. or do you mean it?"
"I do love her. That's something I'd never lie about."
"Then why did you go through with all of this? I really don't get it Jesse. If you love her then why not try to fight for it?"
"If Rachel hates me then that would make the break up easier for her. If I continued to be with her until I leave for Julliard then she'd be shattered. Most likely by the time I'm getting ready to leave she won't even think about me. All of her thoughts will be on that jock, Finn."
"I'm sorry for slapping you.." Quinn blurted out.
Jesse laughed softly, "It's fine. I deserved it."
"Yeah.. You did. For some reason I almost admire you for this. Even though it's a twisted way to deal with things I think you're right. This is better for Rachel. I don't know how you could give her up like that.. Falling out of love with someone is hard." Quinn stated as her thoughts drifted to Finn. There were many times when she still missed him.
"I just try to think about it in a more positive way. Sort of the whole 'If you love something, set it free; if it comes back it's yours, if it doesn't, it never was.' The timing isn't right for us. Once Rachel graduates she'll be drawn to Broadway. Maybe I'll get lucky and find her in New York. Hopefully."
Quinn gave him a shy smile, "I can picture that happening.."
Jesse slowly nodded his head, "Yeah.."
"I should probably get going.."
"Same." Jesse replied, "So, if you tell anyone about this conversation I'll deny everything. This needs to stay between us Quinn, Rachel can't find out. Please don't tell her."
"Don't worry, even though I don't totally approve you're secret's safe with me." Quinn said.
"Thanks, well, see you around Fabray." Jesse gave her a nod before stepping out of the choir room, leaving her alone.
Silence took over the room. Quinn stood still for a moment thinking about her conversation with Jesse. What he did was crazy, it wasn't normal but then what did you expect? This was Jesse St. James, he was completely unpredictable.
