She sat on the couch staring at the positive pregnancy test in tears. What was she going to do? she couldn't tell him. She remembered the first time she asked him what it would be like to have kids when they were younger.
TG: whaaaat do u think
TG: it would be like
TG: if we had kids
TT: What would it be like?
TT: Inconvenient, mostly.
"Inconvenient, mostly." She said aloud to herself as her voice cracked, she dropped the pee stick onto the floor and started to cry harder than she ever had before in her life, she hadn't cried this hard since her mom didn't come home. Roxy curled up onto the couch her hands covering her face as she cried, the man she loved well always loved didn't really want anything to do with her romantically and here she was pregnant with his child, it wasn't even a serious relationship they had, it was a tiny drunk onetime thing between best friends, in all truth Dirk was gay and she knew that very well but booze always clouds proper judgement and for them they really fucked up. And Dirk would probably not want anything to do with the baby she was going to have. Hell she wanted nothing to do with the baby she was going to have but she couldn't bring herself to get an abortion or she would. She stretched her legs out on the couch as she started to calm herself down and moved her hands from her face to her stomach. Human life was growing inside her this should be one of the happiest moments of her life yet here she was worried sick out of her mind of what Dirk would think, would he help out? Would he hate her?
More so what would this kid even be like.. especially if they were just going to be raised by her. She remembered the rest of the conversation she had with him about what their kids would be like if they ever had them.
TG: no i mean
TG: what would they be like
TG: th kids
TG: u ever think about it?
TT: Can't really say I have.
TG: you know for an eccantric guy you can be boring as fuck sometimes
TT: Sorry, Rox.
TT: For what it's worth, I'm picturing them now. A boy and a girl.
TT: Two perfect little freaks of nature raised by people who've clearly got no business bringin' up anybody.
"Baby, I'm probably not going to be the best mom, hell I'll probably be the worst mom, but I'm never going to let anyone hurt you" she said to her forming child who obviously couldn't hear her. "I'm going to try my best to be a good parent for you baby, and I will always love you even if Daddy doesn't." Her voice cracked again as tears formed in her eyes. She was going to try her hardest for this child, she was going to try and be a good mother, if her mother could raise her without a dad, she could do the same. She didn't need Dirk. She didn't need anyone else but her.
