Rocket Ships & Distant Stars

Jack rested his head on my shoulder and blew gently onto the back of my neck. I tried to ignore him.

"Jack," I said firmly. "I'm working."

"I know, but it can wait. Nobody's here. Come on Ianto...I'll let you win this time."

I span my chair around quickly, knocking Jack sideways onto the floor. He lay there, legs up in the air, gazing at me with a mixture of surprise and lust in his eyes.

"Now you've got me exactly where you want me!" he laughed.

I shook my head and turned back to my computer screen. The file transfer had only reached the half way point. I sighed.

"OK, you've got ten minutes."

Jack leapt to his feet, grabbed my hand and pulled me towards his office. He must have felt me hesitate. He must have felt the reluctance in my grasp.

For the second we reached the door Jack stopped, turned around and looked deep into my eyes.

"Is this what you want?" he asked, his tone serious now. This was the real Jack, not the character he liked to portray. "Are you OK with this?"

"I don't know," I replied honestly. I closed my eyes, just looking at him made me nervous. "I don't know how I feel. I just know it's never been like this with anyone, let alone a man."

I could feel Jack smiling so I opened again. "You're something new Jack and it scares me. This isn't just a game. Not to me."

Jack kissed my forehead gently.

"I'm not gunna make you do anything you don't want to Ianto. I'm not like that," he smiled and took my hands firmly in his. We stood opposite each other. Man to man. Lover to Lover. "But you've got to stop being scared. I've travelled the Universe, seen some amazing sites, way beyond our little Hub here. But nothing, nothing will ever beat the feeling I get around you. You know what, I've learnt that you can live for today and have some fun. Or you can spend your whole life chasing rocket ships and distant stars and not really ever getting anywhere. So...for now I think we should go and get some coffee before the others come back. We can do this," he pointed towards his office "another day, when you're ready. If you want to. And I really will let you win. I never cheat."

I laughed. "You always cheat."

"Yeah," he replied. "I do. But it's so much fun Ianto! So much fun!"