What if Emily is still in love with Alison? And what if Paige figured it out before Emily does? Is it finally over for them? Set after the She's Come Undone (4x21) episode.

You Still Love Her – Chapter 1

Author's note: This is my first time writing. I have this idea that I can't shake off. I can't stand how Paige keeps trying for Emily, going through 4 seasons of following Emily around like a lost puppy. And when they're finally together, Emily takes her for granted. Sure, Paige is a little bit crazy. Love makes people do crazy things. But Alison is kinda crazy too. And Emily is crazy for not trusting Paige. Yeah, my story is crazy. I don't know if I'd continue. Do tell me if it's any good. I'd appreciate any comments, good or bad, as this is my very first story.

Paige's POV

"You still love her."

Emily's silence just convinced Paige of her terrifying doubts.

"You do. I should have known. We're over, Emily. I am crazy head over heels madly in love with you. I'd do anything for you. I'd die for you. I'd do anything to keep you safe. And now I'll let you go, because I'd do anything to make you happy too. I'm sorry I ratted Alison out. I did it because I didn't want you hurt. But clearly that backfired." Paige didn't realize the hot tears streaming down her cheeks.

She didn't want Emily to see her weak. She doesn't want to feel this weak. It feels as if she's breaking her own heart. All over again. Once again. She knows there's no room for her in Emily's life. It's Alison. It's always Alison. Alison will win. And this time, she'll be the better person. As long as Emily is happy, she'd do the right thing. She can't stand the silence between them. She can't stand the tension and the way they fight over Alison. She can't stand not being the one Emily run to. She can't stand Emily not wanting her protection. She can't stand being in a relationship where Emily can't actually love her. She knows she's too much to handle. And the silence is killing her. The broken heart make her feels like she might actually die. She can't stand any of it and eye her escape, making her way out hastily.

"Paige, wait" Emily rested her palms on Paige wrist trying to form words she don't know.

"No, Emily. I can't. I can't anymore. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry that I'm never enough for you, and I'm too much for you. I really am. Goodbye Em." she didn't know what made her step forward and lean into Emily. Perhaps because it might be her last chance. One last time. She pecked Emily wet cheeks before walking away.

Emily's POV

Emily felt her legs finally give up on her. She didn't know what had come over her. Why didn't she say anything to stop Paige? Why didn't she go after Paige? Why didn't she do anything at all? She was angry, mad, frustrated. How could Paige just walk away from her? After all they've been through? How could Paige walk away when she had been Emily's rock this whole time? When she was the one who healed her broken heart? How could Paige be the one to break her heart now? She never wanted to admit it, but deep in her heart, she had always known that Paige loved her a little more than she ever could. She was Paige's first. First love. First kiss. First girlfriend. First everything. While her firsts was never Paige. She knows how important first are. She knows how attached you are to your firsts. So how could she leave? How could she be the one walking away? And mostly why did Emily let her?

Did she really still hold feelings for Alison? The Alison that kissed her and toyed with her feelings? Did she really love Alison that much that she could forget all the pain Alison put her through? That's the hardest part being gay. You never know how much or how far your love is. She can't understand her feelings. And mostly she can't understand Paige. She didn't even give her a choice. She didn't even let Emily choose. Was it to save Emily or herself from the pain? Did Paige really think so little of their relationship? Did Paige really think that given a choice, Emily would undoubtly choose Alison? Would she actually choose Alison? The Alison that never once gave her the time of the day? She probably would. Alison was intoxicating. The same way Maya was. They are both so strong and bold. Her first two were attractive in a way Paige never was. Alison was independent, she never needed anyone. She never had a weak moment. Maya dominated their relationship the whole time. She pushed Emily into realizing her sexuality. They are both so bold and dominant in a way Paige never was. Maybe she is actually in love with Alison. Perhaps Paige was doing her a favor. Perhaps this is the happy ever after she was aiming for. Maybe this is fate. And her destiny is Alison. Maybe that's why Paige and her just seems so off no matter how much she cared for the brunette. If it really is so, then why does it hurt so much?

"Hey superstar! Em, hey, what happened? Why are you crying?" Alison asked, her eyes twinkled with genuine worry.

"She broke up with me" Emily's voice barely a whisper.

"Oh, honey" Alison hugged her.

"She never deserved you anyways. You're way too good for her"

Alison let her kiss her once. Emily didn't know why she thought this was the right time or why she'd let Emily kissed her again. But Emily leaned in for a kiss. Alison didn't reciprocate the kiss and Emily pulled back. Shit. This is gonna be weird. But just as she pulled away. Alison lean in and capture her lips. They kissed in a steady rhythm till Alison pushed her tongue, begging entrance. They fought for dominance and Alison moaned in return.

"Emilyyyyyy? Are you home?" the kissing girls pulled apart at the sounds of Pam's voice.

"Wow." Alison whispered shyly.

"Wow indeed" Emily smirked

Dear diary,

Today Paige broke up with Emily. I was so mad when Emily told me. I wanted to hunt Paige down, slice her stupid pigskin skin and burn her house down. But then she kissed me! Emily kissed me! And the kiss was mindblowing. Like oh my god I know how I just liked the attention back then. But this is Emily we're talking about. She can turn any girl into a ladylover. Have you even looked at her? I mean she got waaaaaaaay hotter. My sweet Emily. You made a huge mistake, Pigskin. And now Emily will be mine. What a loser.

Xoxo,

Alison