This starts off two weeks after Jackson and Lexie broke up. The baseball incident occurred . Lexie has yet to meet Julia. Jackson is still convinced Lexie wants Mark. Lexie is in denial that she wants Mark. Mark and Julia are still together. Oh yeah and Mark and Jackson are slowly becoming the best of friends. Lexie also begins to confide in Arizona instead of Derek.

It was a dreary November morning. Lexie Grey was sitting at her kitchen table in a daze. The sky was a dull gray color. The trees that surrounded Lexie's home were almost all bare. Branches from the trees began to snap off and fall to the ground. The sound of the wind could be heard inside every home in Seattle. There was no doubt that winter was right around the corner.

Lexie gazed out her kitchen window at the shaky trees.

The sound of the wind and Lexie's thoughts started to become in sync with one another. It had been two weeks since she and Jackson broke up and yet she still couldn't get what he said out of her head. "Yup but there is a thing and it's not going anywhere anytime soon," the "thing" that he was referring to was the attraction Jackson swore Lexie still had for Mark. Jackson was insane, Lexie thought. She was no longer attracted to Mark. Mark and her ship sailed long ago. If she wanted Mark she would have stayed with him. She left him. She did not want him. He gave her options but she declined them because Mark was not the guy for her.

Lexie stared to stir her tea while she was still lost in her thoughts. Jackson was the guy for her! He was smart. He was funny. He was beyond gorgeous. He was a great listener and most importantly she and Jackson were at the same points in their lives. They both were 100 percent dedicated to the career as doctors and were nowhere near thinking about starting a family or having KIDS! Guys like Jackson were rare. The only "thing " she had was for Jackson no way no how did she still have a "thing" for Mark. Her Attraction was for Jackson not Mark.

"Lexie!" Meredith interrupted as she waved a hand in front of her younger sister's face.

Lexie snapped out of her thought and stopped stirring her tea.

"Oh hey Meredith. How long have you been in the kitchen?"

Meredith smiled " For the last five minutes. This about the tenth time I caught you zooming out. This breakup from Jackson is really getting to you." Meredith leaned against the kitchen table. " I'm still here to listen if you want to talk about it."

Lexie stood up and went over to the sink to pour her tea into a mug. She turned around to face Meredith.

"It has been a rough two weeks. I just need to (she paused for a moment) do a little ughh soul searching before I start talking about my feelings. I'm sorry I hope that doesn't offend you."

Meredith produce a little chuckle "Offend me ?" Lexie in some strange way it makes me proud. Holding in feelings is one of my specialties. It's nice to know you have a deep dark side to you."

Lexie smile at Meredith as she picked up her work bag from the kitchen table.

Meredith looked on at Lexie " Just remember you are the happy bubbly sister so do not stay in this sad depressed stage forever. Holding in your feeling will eat you alive. If you hold them in too long and they will finally burst out of you either during the wrong time or when it's too late. "

Meredith went to grab her car keys off the kitchen counter top and her and lexie both walked towards the coat rack by the front door

"I know Mer I just need some "Me Time" that's all."

Meredith zipped up her coat and swiftly placed a red scarf around her neck. "Me Time," is fine but I know you and Jackson will be back in no time. I mean you said it yourself he's the one, right?"

Lexie finished buttoning up her coat as Meredith pulled the front door open.

Lexie sighed "Yup, he's the one."

The November wind embraced both Meredith and Lexie and pulled them right outside. As the two of them walked towards Meredith's car Lexie thought to herself. If Jackson is the one then why doesn't she have it in her to win him back?

Meredith was right this break up was taking a toll on Lexie but not because she just lost Jackson as her boyfriend but because she knew the friendship she had with him was most likely ruined forever. She couldn't see it herself but the pain she was feeling was due to two reasons. One being that she ruined a perfectly good friendship she had with Jackson and secondly that there was this unresolved pain creeping up on her from a previous break up. Lexie was 100 percent in denial. Sadly, she mistook the pain she thought she felt for Jackson as the pain that she never came to terms with after she walked away from a particular blue eyed plastic surgeon.

Mark Sloan and Jackson Avery were both standing over a massive stainless steel sink getting ready to scrub into surgery.

Jackson scrubbed in between his fingers so viciously. Any more muscle he put into the scrub his skin was sure to peel off onto the scrub brush.

Mark looked on as Jackson Scrubbed away.

"Whoa slow down over there. I think I just seen a piece of your skin fall into the sink."

Jackson ignored Mark and stayed at the same pace scrubbing his hand.

"Avery!" Mark screamed in Jackson's direction.

Jackson slowed down his hand scrub and turned to Mark and intensely stared at him for a good half of minute. As he stared on at Mark he kept telling himself stop it Jackson Mark is not the bad guy. It's not his fault Lexie is still hung up on him. Mark is not the reason for your break up. You should have known better getting involved with Lexie. Dating her was a losing battle. We were both bound to get hurt. I was destined to feel like the fool and she was destined to forever have this unrequited love for Mark. For now on no more thinking about Lexie just focus on your career and the people who want to help better your career.

Jackson's thoughts were interrupted by a loud THUD!

Mark slammed his hand against the sink.

"Avery snap out of it. You have the same look in your eyes that many of the nurses use to have around here after I slept with them. It's a scary look. One that says you want to kill me. "Mark told Jackson

Jackson shook his head and smiled. "Sorry just a lot on my mind that's all." Jackson turned his attention back to his hand scrubbing.

Mark smirked "A lot on your mind? So what did she do?"

Jackson turned to face Mark as he started to scrub the midsection of his arm.

"I don't know what you're talking about"

Mark began to switch the hand he was scrubbing "Oh come on Avery. You know who I'm talking about. I noticed your behavior these past few days and this isn't you. So just spill it. What did Lexie do? "

Jackson started to feel a bit uncomfortable. "Nothing Okay."

"Avery I know that tone of voice. I've been there. So what was it? Something to do with Thatcher? Are your work schedules not matching up? Did you tell her the star wars movies are overrated and boring? You know I told her that once and she didn't talk to me for three days. "Mark questioned Jackson as he began to shake his hands and arms dry.

Jackson reached for a paper towel to dry his hands. "No none of that. I just don't want to talk about it."

Mark started to dim his eyes as he looked on at Jackson and slowly began to say " Wait you didn't mention having kids or starting a family with her because you do know... " Jackson cut Mark off.

"Yes, I know Lexie completely freaks out when you mention kids to her. I know Lexie trust me." Jackson stops for a second. "Well at least I thought I did. We Broke up okay. "

" You two will be back in no time. Don't sweat it. Whatever problem you two are having will go away soon enough. Trust me" Mark told Jackson

Jackson pushed his back into the swinging doors to enter the O.R. " Trust me it's not going away anytime soon."

Mark looked on dumfounded.