AN: I just have too many feels after watching the movie twice. I intend to watch it a few more times (insane 'ol me) because i am such a sadist. Anyway here's something I've written. I might write more. That really depends though, so guys, do leave me some comments to let me know what you thought?


Chapter 1: I Did It For You

"I didn't do it for father…" he breathed staring up into Thor's eyes as he feels his brother's arms around him. The thunderer is trying to stop the bleeding, trying to do something. But of course it's not working. "I did it for you…" he whispers and it was the truth that he spoke. He wasn't afraid as he lay there in Thor's arms, the Midgardian woman that he so loved standing not too far away from them. How he would love to gloat at her. See how much Thor loves me, over you. He wanted to say but his eyelids were too heavy and they drooped, his last glimpse was of Thor's face and the tears that fell from his brother's cerulean blue eyes. 'Don't cry.'

"No!" the anguished yell tears itself from Thor's throat as his brother falls limp in his arms, "Loki," he shakes the trickster's body gently, "Loki no...please…" He swallows past the tightness in his throat as he stared down at his dead brother. After all when it came down to it, he still loved Loki, no matter what his brother had done. He had been so good on this trip, he'd kept to his word, saved Jane. He even went to the extent of protecting her and Loki had done it all for him. In the end his goodness had only gotten him killed when the Kursed pulled Loki forwards onto the blade that was stabbed through it's body.

"Loki I take back my words. I take back my words. I love you brother. I never stopped trusting you or loving you. Please...come back…" he whispers knowing that nothing he says will bring the trickster back. He'd lost Frigga, and now Loki.

"Thor we need to get going…" he raises his eyes to the voice who breaks through his grieving. Jane, stands there, clothed in Asgardian robes, she's all that he has left.

"Let me have a moment, please Jane."

She nods, "Sure."

Jane walks off, standing a little ways away from the two brothers. She watches as Thor kisses Loki on the forehead, smoothing a hand through Loki's dark hair. She is sorry that it had ended this way, sorry that Loki had to die. But secretly, a darker part of her said that it was for the better. Loki was dangerous. And having him alive was not a good thing.

Thor tears off a shred of his crimson red cloak and tied it around Loki's wrist as he folded his brother's arms clasping together.

"I will always be with you brother. I will always love you," he whispers, "I'll never forget you, Loki. I swear."

He gasps taking a huge gulp of air as he stares up at the dark ceiling of the cave. Air never felt better then when he was breathing. 'I'll never forget you…' he could still hear his brother's voice. Loki lifted his arm and found a crimson red scrap of cloth tied around his wrist. Thor's cloak, or a part of it at least. He dropped his hand back down onto his stomach. After all his brother's big words he'd still chosen Jane. The lying bastard. He hadn't even taken his body with him instead he'd left him here on Svartalfheim. "All your words of love," he scoffed as he pulled himself into a sitting position, grimacing a little, the tear in his clothes the only indication that he had gotten killed. Of course he managed to outsmart the dark elves. And Thor as well. Making his brother think that he was dead. He shifted then, taking on the image of an Asgardian soldier. He leaves, taking the same flying boat back and using the way he'd led Thor out of Asgard back home.

It's easily done, tricking Odin. Disguised as a soldier, Loki brought the All-Father, news of Thor and then told of the body that was left behind.

"Loki…" the All-Father whispered.

There was something in the way he spoke his name that made Loki freeze for a moment. Did he care? "What shall we do my liege?" he asked instead, playing the role of a soldier.

"Tell no one," the All-Father said. "Thor was there?" Odin asked.

He nods, "I'm guessing so my liege."

"His brother loved him. A lot. We all did," Odin muttered turning his back. And Loki struck then. He knocks Odin unconscious before the All-Father can say anything more. Then he quickly takes on Odin's appearance while changing that of Odin's to the guard.

With no one else in the throne room, it's easy for him to put Odin into the dungeons. He leaves him there in one of the cells and then goes back to the throne room. He now has the throne that he so desired and all the power with the All-Father's scepter. He is a ruler now even if it means that he has to take on the appearance of Odin. But it's boring really, sitting here. He still has a hunt out for Thor. He's also announced his own death.


It isn't until another two days later when Loki, in Odin's form sees Thor. The thunderer walks into the throne room, Mjolnir in his hand as he kneels. Thor expresses his sorrow over his death and his desire to go back to Midgard.

"If any one understood what being a king it would have been Loki, he knew about the sacrifices that one had to make. There were one too many times that he saved me on Svartalfheim. He was nearly destroyed by a vortex. I saved him once. Then the Kursed in it's dying moments stabbed Loki…I couldn't save him."

"And because of this you wish to go to Midgard?" Loki, still in Odin's form asks, "It is not because of the Midgardian woman Jane?"

"It is not just because of Jane, Father," Thor says as he closes his eyes, he can still see Loki's pale face, his emerald green eyes glistening with unshed tears as death stole him. Staying on Asgard would only intensify the pain. Everywhere he looked he was reminded of Loki. His little baby brother. "I cannot bear the pain," Thor spoke, his voice sounding strangled to his own ears. There was so much that he hadn't said. So much he wished that he could make right

"I have something for you Thor. Before you leave for Midgard," the All-Father told him. Thor is curious, Odin has never been one to be a gift-giver and what's more is that he's disobeying his father by going back to Midgard, so silently he follows Odin.

Loki stands in the chamber between his and Thor's room and then he drops the spell, revealing his true self once again as the appearance of Odin disappears.

"Hello brother," he says.

"Loki?" Thor's eyes widen, the breath stolen from his lungs as he stares speechless. This isn't some kind of projection, some kind of wicked trick is it?

"Thor," Loki acknowledged with a nod of his head and then looks away from him. Once again he felt vulnerable in his brother's presence.

"Hell," Thor whispered and pulled his brother into a hug. Holding him close.

Loki was startled by the sudden hug, so much so that Odin's staff clatters loudly to the ground as he lets Thor hug him. Though his grip was near hurting Loki stayed where he was in Thor's arms closing his eyes and relishing the moment with a smile on his lips. Thor's arms are warm and strong and he is really here with him. But not for long. He is going to leave for Midgard. "Thor..." he whispers against his brother's chest feeling his brother's fingers in his hair stroking it.

"I didn't think...how did you...how..." Thor asks as his voice cracked.

Loki laughed pushing against his brother's chest, in a show that he wants to leave, "I have my ways Thor," he said.

Thor loosened his grip but doesn't let Loki pull out of his arms. Loki likewise, though having pushed at his chest doesn't seem like he wants to leave anyway as he stands there in his embrace. Loki is living and breathing. By some miracle he is alive and right now Thor cannot worry about anything else but the fact that Loki is alive.

"Are you really going?" Loki asks looking to him, raising his eyes, to meet Thor's. Thor looks at him not understanding, "Back to Midgard, to Jane?" he reminds Thor.

The thunderer pauses then answers "...yes."

Loki nods "I see. Very well," he answers, his voice is clipped. He moves, a fluid movement that brings him out of his brother's arms. Loki snatches Odin's staff up from where it lay on the ground. Being king is the only thing he has left then.

"What about Odin?" Thor asked now.

Loki laughed, "Don't worry, I didn't kill him. I had him locked up. Like what he did to me"

"I see."

"Shouldn't you be leaving now?" Loki asked, he isn't actually eager to see Thor go.

"I guess?"

The trickster turns his back towards him. Looking out at Asgard as he moves to stand on the balcony. "You won't be coming back?" he asked and there is a quiver in Loki's voice, a quiver that Thor immediately picks up on.

"Why don't you come with me?" Thor asks, as he joins his brother on the balcony.

"No. It would be pointless," Loki said, "I have what I want right here," he says gripping tighter to Odin's scepter as though it will help to make his conviction for the throne stronger. He chances a look to Thor and catches the glimpse of a familiar emotion in Thor's eyes. Loneliness. Why? Didn't he have Jane?

"I will be leaving then," Thor said as he turns from the balcony. Loki follows suit watching as Thor walks back into the chambers, stopping in his tracks. It's as if Thor is waiting for him. "Are you sure that I cannot convince you to come with me?"

"No. I am a king. That has always been what I wanted. And now I have it."

There's an infinitesimal slump in Thor's shoulders at his words before the thunderer says, "I wish you well then Loki."

"And I you," Loki whispered clutching Odin's staff to him, standing his ground as Thor leaves the chambers.

He might be a king but he is alone.

And nothing hurts him more than that.