Every smile.

Every glance I catch.

Every touch of hands.

Every brush of lips.

...your love.

Every moment is precious

Something to be remembered, immortalized

I haven't smiled so much in so long

Truly smiled

Or smiled so wide it hurt my cheeks

I haven't cried so much

and had someone waiting to pick me up

Even with impending lectures

I can't help but be happy

I haven't laughed so much

From all your cute mannerisms;

The constant blushes at the smallest of things

The little scowls at the tiniest of imperfections

The twisting of everything into a serious event

I haven't needed someone so much

Needed someone to hug and kiss me

To protect and rescue me

To tolerate and indulge me

To love and accept me

To want me

To need me

Your love.

I want it

I need it

The kisses, the hugs

The attention, the worry

The scowls, the smiles

The shouts

Those words

I haven't wanted so much.

I haven't needed so much.

…I haven't remembered so much

Things from a past I could never forget

Memories of a boy I can never see

The smiles.

The frowns.

The laughter, the hugs, the kisses.

The waiting

Years and years of waiting

Desperately hanging on to a memory

Unable to forget

To let go

To stop

To give up hope

…to love

To love someone else

After all the years of waiting

After all the promises of future meetings

After all the hoping and dreaming for a love to return

After all the heartache

After all the tears

After it all

To be loved

To be needed

To be wanted and adored

To be cherished

To be treasured

To want too much…

Your love

is choking me.