How can someone else know what is best for you when they've torn the only thing left making you happy away? Tilly shuddered as she remembered the moment when her life was tipped upside down.

It was the only way to let her go, Jen thought to herself, to hurt her more than she deserved but enough to make her hate her. But lest she know the extent to the damage she had placed upon herself. She could feel herself slowly closing in on itself. The pressure building on her heart, escalating from the moment she left Tilly. Once reaching her flat she had succumbed to the pain and the hurt and collapsed on a heap, just inside the front door. Her arms had wrapped around herself, as if she could hold her body together. She remained here until she heard the front door turn and tried to cmpose herself into a more respectful position. She braced a smile but knew it didn't reach her eyes. This didn't go unoticed by the house owner.
Diane walked in oblivious to the current pain her friend was gong through "you alright love?" she asked chirply. The only reply she received was an almost impercievable nod off Jen butplaced this down to her being tired.
"Do you know what Diane I think im going to just go up to bed now, im ot hungr so don't worry about tea, im just tired, sorry" Jen said quietly whilst making the wa up the stairs just turning around to hear Dianes reply "okay, dont worry about it love, hope you feel better tomorrow" she said as she watched the retreating figure make its way up the stairs. There was a distinct droop to her shoulders, almost as if she had slumped in on herself. Dianes thoughts went to her friend, wondering what was wrong. She would have to see in the morning, best to leave it for now she thought.
In her room upstairs Jen sat front of her mirror, wondering if it was just her who could see her heart shattering, the tears threatening to leak over from her eyes. The melting chocolate colour going dull, the spark. All she wanted to do was to return to that bench and hold her tilly, and tell her she wold never leave her again. But she had known that that could never happen. Not only would it be irresponsible on her behalf, but she knew tilly would never take her back, nit after what she just did to her, if what she was gong through was any comparisom she knew she wouldnt take her back.

In Tilly's room, she sat after coming back to a cold empty house, reflectin how she felt. She couldn't do anything but just lay there as her life collapsed around her. Succumed to the reality that no matter how much she has wished and dreamed, fiction could never become reality. She didn't see what more she couldve done. Even Jen had admitted it was her that broke the rules, surely she could be trusted! Obviously not… she was left broken without the help of anyone to bring her back together.. even if Jen had broke her heart she would never betray her, she loved her with all her being. Nothng would change that. She wold just have to learn to deal with it. Learn to go on, normally, without the involement of the certan art teacher. Learn to avoid her at all cost as she knew if she was lef alone, all compramise and her will would dissolve and she wouldn't hold back.
She had no one now. No one she could turn to. No one who cold ever comfort her the way Je— NO she wouldn't hurt herself thinking of her. She needed to forget everything, to feel nothing for this inconsiderate women.
With the anger burning inside, her coursing its way through her veins she couldn't help feel the touch of her against her skin. She ran herself her bath and allowed it to wash away the touch of the women she loved. Removing any scent which lingered from their last encounter. Cleansing her soul as it washed away any taint left behind.

she scrubbed until her porcelain skin turned red and stung, only then did she allow herself out, finally being rid off "her". she entered the bedroom feeling the hollowness of the empty space before her. It echoed around until it became unbearable for Tilly and she placed her headphones and drifted off finally into a dreamless sleep.

For Jen there was no 'dreamless sleep' that awaited her when she lay in her bed, instead she was woken up every hour, her body aching and reaching out for the comfort of someone else. In the end it became too much and by 4'oclock she was awake and had gotten everything ready for the approaching day. Already the dread seeping into her as she saw the lessons that she had a double lesson in which she was have to endure the company of Tilly. Perhaps she could avoid having to talk to her. They were after all a level students and shouldn't need to much help.

With that resolved in her head, Jen decided to go on a run, to clear away the bad dreams, to run away and put off what it coming...

Tlly woke up restless as though no sleep had occurred. She couldn't stay locked inside her room anymore. She felt trapped as if it were closing in around her.. She needed to escape, she threw on some joggers and ran outside, barely registering the time, just needing to full fill the need to get away. She just walked on, taking in the breezing cold air that reguvanated her. Slowly calming herself down until finally she came to a stop.

Looking around she took in her surroundings. She was surrounded by green, the light cascading in through the trees as the sun beun to rise, it was only then did she realise the earliness in which she had risen and took into account how peaceful it was. the oly sund coming from a soft pattering, becoming louder and louder, to a steady beat. It wasoly as she begun to walk out back to civilisations did she see the figure approaching her..

Jen barely even recognised where she was going she wanted to get somewhere else. As though her soul could lead her anywhere she looked up to see the slim figure of Tilly just mere metres away from her. hshe came to a hault as she saw Tlly lift her head to meet her eyes, those green eyes pierving her so deeply as the cutting her throug and through as hair ginger hair lew is the light breeze, she looked stunning, even in this situation Jen couldnt help but be taken aback but the shear beauty of her, the suns light was creating an incandescent glow around her. how was she going to get out of this? so much for avoiding her...